The room is silent, the lights off as I sit on the floor at the foot of my bed. Tears start to slip from my eyes and slide down my cheeks. As I tilt my head downwards from looking at the space on my bed where you used to lie, I could feel the cool water land rhythmically on my thighs. I'm crying... alone. I used to feel more comfortable that no one was watching. And you knew to let me be. But now... I miss you being around. I realized that I want you here... with me. As when you are by my side, the days don't feel as long or tiresome.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
I still remember the last time I saw you like it was yesterday. How you turned away from me with sad brown eyes. As you walked towards the exit of the dressing room in Budokan hall, I knew you were crying. I wanted so much to tell you to stop, to come back and that this wasn't the end. Yet I couldn't bring myself to say those words that I've been hiding deep within my heart.
Do you know how much I need you right now Gaki-san?
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
Now that you're gone, my heart aches with every second that I think of you. I miss your face, your breath, your everything. Why didn't I cherish the times when you would nag at me, when you showed me concern and asked if I was okay.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
I must be crazy. As I am reminded of you wherever I go, whatever I do. In the kitchen while pouring myself a glass of water, I recall how you spilt your drink all over the counter top and on your hands when I crept up on you and poked you at your side. AI-CHANNNNNNNNNNNNNN! You would whine with the cutest pout as I grinned back at you, only able to reveal my mischievous side with you.
Pushing the crystal glass away, I left it standing on the marble surface as I dragged my feet zombie-like back to my room, the need to quench my thirst no long important. As the door swings open with a soft creak, I notice your pajamas bottom and the tank top that you last wore when you slept over lying in the corner. The green and gray screams out to me, reminding me of how beautiful you looked in them. The material accentuating your curves and taut body. Bending down to pick them up, I bring the soft cotton to my nose, breathing in deeply.
"Come back to me Risa. I was stupid to not realize sooner how perfect we were together."
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do, reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
We could read each others' minds without saying anything. You would understand what I wanted, needed with a single glance or change in expression. I guess I took it all for granted, as I never once told you how much I appreciate all that you're done for me. Perhaps I never thought a day would come when you wouldn't be there for me anymore.
I've never told you how much you mean to me, that the only reason why I could give my best on performances or live my life to the fullest was because you were there for me. I want you Risa, I need you.
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
I'm no longer like how I used to be. I'm no longer whole. A part of me has died since the day you left. It's as if I've become blind, deaf, when I can't see you or hear you on a daily basis.
I could give everything up just to hold you in my arms again, to be able to bully and smack you on the head. If I could start over, I would tell you... how much you really mean to me and that I loved you and will still love you, for the rest of my life.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
Friday, September 30, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
1 more day to D-day + Evil (?) Airi
This is the best AiGaki clip in ages. I love how huge and round Ai's eyes were when Risa appeared. The smacks on the head she gave the poor bean were ultra cute. It's clear that Gaki had tears in her eyes as she looked at Ai. I love how she went to hold leader in her arms. Awwwwwwwwwww it's so sweet. I almost shed a few tears myself when Risa said it was lonely that everyone is graduating or has graduated. Though Ai says it will be alright, I doubt sub-leader fully believes it at this point. It's hard to when the most popular member and her longest comrade will be leaving tomorrow!
4:36 min Schoolgirl Ai is cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love her oufit. Why does she always get the best clothes??
Damn UFA for releasing more concert goods only now (it's too freaking late damnit!) when there is no way for me to beg anyone to get them. I'm in love with Ai's solo poster and the photosets of her with Risa and Sayumi. And those heartshaped keychains!!! THEY ARE KAWAII!!!!! I NEED THEM!!!!!!!!!!!
Why am I not living in Japan =( Or better yet, why isn't MM a local group =(
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This new movie has Yurina as the lead and Airi in a smaller role. Is she 2nd lead? I have no idea. But boy can she pull off the evil look. Is she the evil girl in the movie?
I think it's proven that the evil expression is easiest to do that's why no matter how bad an actress someone is, they can always succeed in evil roles.
Oh yes, how are they gonna find a guy tall enough for Yurina? And is everyone else gonna have to stand on a step ladder to film scene with her? =X I wanna watch this, along with the vampire movies. Why can't local theatres scene them?
4:36 min Schoolgirl Ai is cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love her oufit. Why does she always get the best clothes??
Damn UFA for releasing more concert goods only now (it's too freaking late damnit!) when there is no way for me to beg anyone to get them. I'm in love with Ai's solo poster and the photosets of her with Risa and Sayumi. And those heartshaped keychains!!! THEY ARE KAWAII!!!!! I NEED THEM!!!!!!!!!!!
Why am I not living in Japan =( Or better yet, why isn't MM a local group =(
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This new movie has Yurina as the lead and Airi in a smaller role. Is she 2nd lead? I have no idea. But boy can she pull off the evil look. Is she the evil girl in the movie?
I think it's proven that the evil expression is easiest to do that's why no matter how bad an actress someone is, they can always succeed in evil roles.
Oh yes, how are they gonna find a guy tall enough for Yurina? And is everyone else gonna have to stand on a step ladder to film scene with her? =X I wanna watch this, along with the vampire movies. Why can't local theatres scene them?
Monday, September 26, 2011
Kame Kame Kame!!!
Found a fic featuring Eri and a Kpop boy band member. I don't usually like to see the girls paired with other people outside of MM but surprisingly, I wasn't put off by this story. In fact I find it quite believable and enjoyable to read. Watching the trailer which was made for it by one of the readers of the fic, I'm both in awe and ashamed that I could never produce something of such good quality =(
I hope to discover more FICs with Kame, Gaki, Ai and Sayumi. K4 saikou always!
And I miss the turtle! How are you getting along these days Eririn? I want you back in idol world! Actress, singer or model. Anything! Just please come back soon =(...
I hope to discover more FICs with Kame, Gaki, Ai and Sayumi. K4 saikou always!
And I miss the turtle! How are you getting along these days Eririn? I want you back in idol world! Actress, singer or model. Anything! Just please come back soon =(...
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Love's Obsession (2)
8.35 am on a Monday morning and I'm stuck in the ladies, puking my guts out. After an unidentified period of time, I flush the wc and staggered unsteadily to the sink area. The cold water makes me feel slightly better as I rinsed my mouth and splashed the liquid on my face. Staring at my reflection in the mirror, I was shocked to see the extent of my pale skin. On my way back to the office, I run into another colleague who didn't belong to the 'three musketeers' I usually go for lunch break with.
"Are you okay? You look really pale."
Her words sounded echo-y and her face blurry as I blinked to combine the multiple images of her standing before me.
"I'm fine."
Forcing a smile, I sent her on her way and returned to my seat. Inside my cubicle, I take a small sip of warm water hoping that the hot drink would ease the turbulence in my stomach. Unfortunately it didn't and fresh tears threatened to slip from the corners of my eyes.
No! Not now, not here!
These words repeated themselves in my mind as I tore at a piece of tissue to dab at my eyes. I couldn't let anyone see me in such a state or they would ask me what was wrong. I didn't want to explain myself or tell them why I was being so upset. Turning my face towards the computer terminal lined up against the wall, I hid my teary eyes and prayed no one would look for me until I had significantly calmed down.
It was always the same, I would never have anyone by my side when I feel sick or depressed.
The vibration of my cellphone brought my attention to the little device and I picked it up and to read the message that had come in.
How is Kame today? Gaki saw a cute French guy at the airport! He was so gentlemanly.
It was surprising that she would send me a message out of the blue. Tilting my head sideways to glance at my desktop calendar, I realized it was Friday and she was probably on her way home from work.
Kame is unwell and wants to go home. Did you get French guy's number?
You will be knocking off soon right? Nah, Gaki doesn't like guys.
After a couple more messages, she stops replying and I figured she must have arrived home. Gaki, full name Niigaki Risa, is a straight A student. Currently she's also working at a shop set up by her college at the airport to train business students on how to run a retail store. She has to work there once a week so she usually messages me when she is on the train travelling home.
Gaki and I share a weird friendship. We don't speak a lot, as she doesn't reply to text messages often. We hardly even meet since she is a homebody who doesn't like to go out and people. Yet she somehow understands where I'm coming from and on the rare days we manage to hold a decent conversation either through Skype or text messaging, I'm usually telling her about my troubles.
"Eri, you want a lift from me?"
My thoughts were interrupted when I looked up to see the smiley face of a married colleague. Returning her a small smile, I promptly agree and began packing my belongings. Although I've not completed my work, I'm really not feeling well enough to do OT.
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On the journey back, the car is silent as neither of us spoke. I feel bad about not engaging in small talk but I'm really too brain dead to say anything. I'll just have to make up for her kind gesture some other time.
As she drops me off near her home, I begin walking to the nearest train station. It's packed as always and whilst I stand on the platform waiting for the next train, thoughts of her enter my mind.
~Flashback~
"Shelter yourself too!"
She says with a laugh as she tries to push my hand such that the umbrella I was supporting also shielded my torso from the falling rain. It was obvious that I had angled the brolly in a way which only kept her dry.
"It's okay. Let's walk faster, or we'll really end up drenched."
We started running towards the nearest building and in the process, our shoulders brushed against each other numerous times.
~End of flashback~
Stepping into my empty home after fighting through the crowds on the train and bus on the rest of the way home, I'm suddenly overwhelmed by a wave of nausea. Dashing for the bathroom, I throw up what little I had eaten for lunch as well as some whitish fluid streaked with red.
Great, this just never ends. Allowing my body to slip down onto the cold tiles of the bathroom floor, I leaned my back against the wall and closed my eyes.
~Flashback #2~
"What are you planning on ordering?"
She looks down at the menu in concentration and pauses for some time before meeting my eyes.
"Katsu-don?"
I chuckled at how she ended her sentence with an unsure tone and waved the server over. Once our orders were taken, we settled down and lapsed into an easy conversation. The minutes flew past and before we knew it, it was late and time for her to go home.
"Bye bye?"
Once again, her reply caused me to grin. Walking her to the train station, I watched her retreating back as she walked towards the escalator. Not realizing that it took longer than necessary for me to tear my eyes away, I turned on my heel and started on my way towards my own destination. It was only the second time without the rest, yet somehow, it felt so right.
~End of flashback~
That night she messaged me. And that was how, everything I once knew began to fall apart...
"Are you okay? You look really pale."
Her words sounded echo-y and her face blurry as I blinked to combine the multiple images of her standing before me.
"I'm fine."
Forcing a smile, I sent her on her way and returned to my seat. Inside my cubicle, I take a small sip of warm water hoping that the hot drink would ease the turbulence in my stomach. Unfortunately it didn't and fresh tears threatened to slip from the corners of my eyes.
No! Not now, not here!
These words repeated themselves in my mind as I tore at a piece of tissue to dab at my eyes. I couldn't let anyone see me in such a state or they would ask me what was wrong. I didn't want to explain myself or tell them why I was being so upset. Turning my face towards the computer terminal lined up against the wall, I hid my teary eyes and prayed no one would look for me until I had significantly calmed down.
It was always the same, I would never have anyone by my side when I feel sick or depressed.
The vibration of my cellphone brought my attention to the little device and I picked it up and to read the message that had come in.
How is Kame today? Gaki saw a cute French guy at the airport! He was so gentlemanly.
It was surprising that she would send me a message out of the blue. Tilting my head sideways to glance at my desktop calendar, I realized it was Friday and she was probably on her way home from work.
Kame is unwell and wants to go home. Did you get French guy's number?
You will be knocking off soon right? Nah, Gaki doesn't like guys.
After a couple more messages, she stops replying and I figured she must have arrived home. Gaki, full name Niigaki Risa, is a straight A student. Currently she's also working at a shop set up by her college at the airport to train business students on how to run a retail store. She has to work there once a week so she usually messages me when she is on the train travelling home.
Gaki and I share a weird friendship. We don't speak a lot, as she doesn't reply to text messages often. We hardly even meet since she is a homebody who doesn't like to go out and people. Yet she somehow understands where I'm coming from and on the rare days we manage to hold a decent conversation either through Skype or text messaging, I'm usually telling her about my troubles.
"Eri, you want a lift from me?"
My thoughts were interrupted when I looked up to see the smiley face of a married colleague. Returning her a small smile, I promptly agree and began packing my belongings. Although I've not completed my work, I'm really not feeling well enough to do OT.
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On the journey back, the car is silent as neither of us spoke. I feel bad about not engaging in small talk but I'm really too brain dead to say anything. I'll just have to make up for her kind gesture some other time.
As she drops me off near her home, I begin walking to the nearest train station. It's packed as always and whilst I stand on the platform waiting for the next train, thoughts of her enter my mind.
~Flashback~
"Shelter yourself too!"
She says with a laugh as she tries to push my hand such that the umbrella I was supporting also shielded my torso from the falling rain. It was obvious that I had angled the brolly in a way which only kept her dry.
"It's okay. Let's walk faster, or we'll really end up drenched."
We started running towards the nearest building and in the process, our shoulders brushed against each other numerous times.
~End of flashback~
Stepping into my empty home after fighting through the crowds on the train and bus on the rest of the way home, I'm suddenly overwhelmed by a wave of nausea. Dashing for the bathroom, I throw up what little I had eaten for lunch as well as some whitish fluid streaked with red.
Great, this just never ends. Allowing my body to slip down onto the cold tiles of the bathroom floor, I leaned my back against the wall and closed my eyes.
~Flashback #2~
"What are you planning on ordering?"
She looks down at the menu in concentration and pauses for some time before meeting my eyes.
"Katsu-don?"
I chuckled at how she ended her sentence with an unsure tone and waved the server over. Once our orders were taken, we settled down and lapsed into an easy conversation. The minutes flew past and before we knew it, it was late and time for her to go home.
"Bye bye?"
Once again, her reply caused me to grin. Walking her to the train station, I watched her retreating back as she walked towards the escalator. Not realizing that it took longer than necessary for me to tear my eyes away, I turned on my heel and started on my way towards my own destination. It was only the second time without the rest, yet somehow, it felt so right.
~End of flashback~
That night she messaged me. And that was how, everything I once knew began to fall apart...
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Risa: That's how it is, Ai: Our song
Just 3 days to the Fukui concert and 9 more to the final graduation concert. *SIGH*
--Incidentally, from Gaki-san's point of view, what kind of leader was Takahashi Ai?
I never wanted Ai to graduate, not without Risa by her side. But I sorta knew they would never make it a double graduation like Makoto and Kon Kon or EJL. One reason could possibly be, Ai is much too big a star to have to share her big day with someone else. And another factor could well be that the management weren't confident that a Sayumi x Reina leadership would be the best option for now.
Although I'm more that certain the bunny would make a reliable leader, judging from how well she takes care of Eri in the past as well as her more than good relationship with the remaining members. She probably doesn't have enough experience on how to manage the younglings, hence Gaki should be at the helm for now.
I read this interview of the current leader and sub on the bus and I was touched to the extent of almost bawling my eyes out. I think the portion which affected me the most was how the two could understand what each other was thinking without saying it out. The word used was telepathy and I wholeheartedly agree.
It seems that they had spoken right from the start, at the temple training during the 5th gen auditions. I didn't expect this to be the case considering they have a two year age difference between them. With so many girls there, I'm sure some others would have been closer in age and less intimidating or weird to start a conversation with. So I guess it was already written in the stars that these two would end up coming such a long way together.
Some mention worthy moments.
Niigaki: The closest one, or how should I put it....a leader who's very close to her juniors. Aichan personally doesn't have the sense of “Because I'm leader,” rather, it's like, “Even though I'm leader, it's easy to talk to me.” It's easy to consult her. She's a leader that the 9th gen can get close to, going, “Takahashi-san!” In that sense she's become a leader who wants to create a cozy Morning Musume. There's still the senior-junior relationship, but in a good way and without creating barriers, she watches over everyone, and everyone also loves her dearly. I really think she's that kind of leader.
Niigaki: That's how it is.......
*Niigaki is crying out loud*
Niigaki: We've come along having worked hard together like that, so she also does things like worry about our future. I myself am also very uneasy.....but we were able to work hard and come this far, even while worrying, “Will it be ok after she graduates?” so I think we'll be fine. [We'll move forward] so that we don't worry her about anything,
Niigaki: I'm very happy that at the very last moment a song was written for the two of us. Moreover, singing it feels really good. We're singing it with great care during the tour.
Takahashi: It's an extremely happy song. I think it's also such a blessing to be able to say that it's “our song.” Furthermore, we get to harmonize. When it comes to harmony, it's not right unless you both depend on each other's melody, right? Gaki-san can be very reliable when it comes to that, so although I say, “it can feel really great singing it in concert,” I'm singing it just naturally, so there are times when it's like, “Eh? We should harmonize at that part, right?” (laughs). The two of us can sing with a natural feeling to the point that we don't even worry about that.
---You've conveyed it perfectly.
Niigaki: That's how it is.......
*Niigaki is crying out loud*
Niigaki: But somehow, what is it.......It's difficult, though! Really. Putting it into words.
Now this part, makes me feel that Risa really observed and noticed the type of leadership Ai chose to go with. She put it so well that I want to give her a hug and squeeze (no dirty thoughts please XD) for saying it.
Niigaki: We've come along having worked hard together like that, so she also does things like worry about our future. I myself am also very uneasy.....but we were able to work hard and come this far, even while worrying, “Will it be ok after she graduates?” so I think we'll be fine. [We'll move forward] so that we don't worry her about anything,
That's why I think because Ai-chan also worries about this Morning Musume that has been built up, we have to continue it properly so as not to worry her. We'll move forward in a very positive way.
Awww, it's touching how they try not to worry the other. This is really what true, close friends are made of. Always having the other party on your mind and wanting whats best for them. *SNIFF*
---Moreover, the duo Takahashi Ai x Niigaki Risa from that album will also be shown during the tour, right?
Niigaki: I'm very happy that at the very last moment a song was written for the two of us. Moreover, singing it feels really good. We're singing it with great care during the tour.
Takahashi: It's an extremely happy song. I think it's also such a blessing to be able to say that it's “our song.” Furthermore, we get to harmonize. When it comes to harmony, it's not right unless you both depend on each other's melody, right? Gaki-san can be very reliable when it comes to that, so although I say, “it can feel really great singing it in concert,” I'm singing it just naturally, so there are times when it's like, “Eh? We should harmonize at that part, right?” (laughs). The two of us can sing with a natural feeling to the point that we don't even worry about that.
I'm happy for the last AiGaki duet. I'm sure it will be beautiful *sad smile*
Sayu's 爱
I usually don't love any pairings above my AiGaki, KameShige and KameMame.
But this perv fic by Rokun was really all kinds of win. It was really quite sweet in the beginning then it turned into this incredibly...I-don't-even-know-how-to-explain-it kind of awesome XD I'm predicting it will turn into that kind of awesome cuz I have not even read it to the end yet, lol. I just decided to blog about it cuz I'd expect that I'll want to reread it again but I might not be able to find it again then.
But this perv fic by Rokun was really all kinds of win. It was really quite sweet in the beginning then it turned into this incredibly...I-don't-even-know-how-to-explain-it kind of awesome XD I'm predicting it will turn into that kind of awesome cuz I have not even read it to the end yet, lol. I just decided to blog about it cuz I'd expect that I'll want to reread it again but I might not be able to find it again then.
I think I'm in a lame mood cuz I find the title for my this post quite smart.
Sayu's 爱 = Sayumi's Ai = Sayumi's love. XDDDDD
What beats staying in bed and sleeping in on a rainy day?
Staying in bed, reading great fics featuring my fave MM girls on a day where no one else is home. Now, if only the annoying aches would go away.
Last Chance
Sayumi walked slowly through the dark, watching all the late night revelers as they went about whatever “business” they had. Most didn’t seem to hurry where they were going, but sometimes she would hear footsteps of people – usually couples or groups – running and laughing, or crying out at whatever craziness they were up to.
Sayumi sighed wistfully. It seemed a world so foreign to her with the restrictions of being an idol. She couldn’t just be free to see whomever she wanted whenever she wanted, or go to parties or just have a romping night on the town. Parties that were much more than the one she just attended, at least.
She glanced again at the person walking next to her, who almost appeared to be brooding. Seriously, how did the girl manage to do that so often? She was probably lost in amazement that someone actually bought her a cake and recognized her birthday tonight.
“Ai-chan!” she said, poking at Leader’s arm.
“Mm?” the girl replied smoothly, as if they’d been in conversation the whole time.
Sayumi brandished an arm at her, her bag waving from her wrist. “I’m surprised you don’t have more to say about tonight.”
Ai gave her what almost appeared to be a bewildered expression. “About tonight?” she asked blankly. “Concerning what?”
Concerning what!? Sayumi felt like smacking her with her bag. No matter how cool she looked walking with that slouch and hat and hands in her pockets. Instead, she restrained herself. This was not some host she needed to antagonize on TV; this was Ai-chan, Ai-chan who was her dear senpai and friend, and whom she had loved for most of her life.
She pulled her cell phone out and checked the time. An LCD 23:56 shone back at her. “You know Ai-chan, you’ll be twenty-five in four more—”
“Three,” Ai shot back right away, her never-changing stare directed straight ahead. She smiled. “It’s become three since you looked at your phone.”
Sayumi checked it again. The girl was right.
Not wanting to spend too much time thinking about how she knew that, just filing it away as another surprisingly unsurprising thing about her Leader, she continued on with what she was going to say.
“It’ll turn while we’re walking here, you know.”
“I expect it will,” Ai replied. Her calm, non-chalant precision was almost maddening sometimes. She was really such a geek. That was one reason Sayumi sometimes wondered why she even loved her.
“Well…” Sayumi said, as usual thinking fast to keep up with the girl. “What if I said I have a present to give you right when it turns midnight?”
This made Ai turn to her, and Sayumi saw a smile of pure happiness and the sparkle in her eyes. “A present?” the girl asked disbelievingly. “For me? Really? I feel like I’ve already gotten so many presents tonight…” she pondered, looking back ahead.
“Only from Aika,” Sayumi replied quickly. “The DVD was certainly thoughtful though. Well, and the cake, and the takoyaki I suppose…”
“Takoyaki…” Ai murmured, and Sayumi could almost see the wheels turning in her head, bringing the fond memory back to the front. Aika had really cooked them quite amazingly.
“Ahe~m!” Sayumi said, clearing her throat, and drawing the girl’s curious attention back to her. “I believe we were talking about my present.”
Ai suddenly fell into a relaxed smile. “Of course, Sayu. But really, you shouldn’t have.”
Peering subtly down at her phone again with her bag, and seeing that it now said 0:00, she looked up and, without a moment’s hesitation, leaned forward to press her lips against Ai’s.
Ai was too shocked to avoid it, and when Sayumi pulled back with a smile, the girl was staring at her wide-eyed. “Happy birthday,” she said quietly as the two girls stood nearly frozen beside the street. For the first time Sayumi became aware that someone else nearby could have easily spotted them, but thankfully no one seemed to have been close enough.
“Sayumi…” Ai said, trailing off in stunned silence.
“Gotcha again,” Sayumi joked, attempting to ease the tension. For some reason it didn’t work though. For some reason, the tension felt like it still hung in the air, heavy as ever.
Ai blushed, and glanced around meekly. “That was reckless, you know,” she said, once again the chastising senpai. “This isn’t a concert set up for entertainment. It’s our private time. It’s just us.”
“I know,” Sayumi replied, gazing steadily at the girl. “It is just us. Ai-chan,” she began, swallowing a lump in her throat. This wasn’t supposed to be so hard! “Ai-chan, I love you. I know it sounds silly, but it’s true.”
“Not at all,” Ai replied, narrowing her eyes a bit at her. “I of course love you too, Sayumin. I’m going to miss all of you so much…”
Sayumi shook her head vigorously. “No. That’s not what I mean. I mean… There’s no way I could ever be worthy, but I love you. I want to be with you, like… like a man loves a woman.”
“Sayu…” Ai murmured, seeming at a complete loss.
Sayumi could feel tears beginning to come to her eyes. “I know it could never be, but I just… before you left, and there won’t likely ever be as perfect a time like this again with just the two of us before all the chaos, I just had to make sure and tell you. I wanted you to know.”
“Sayumin…” Ai said, and took a step closer.
Sayumi really was beginning to cry now, and took out a tissue to try and stifle her sobs. Ai still stood there, right in front of her, such emotion in her face just like always… She really would make such a good actor. And not just that…
Damn the girl for always managing to look so insanely cool… and hot.
“Sayumi, stop it,” Ai said, and Sayumi felt arms around her as she pulled her into a tight hug. Sayumi clung on tight, worried that she’d never get the chance again, and somehow the sobs she expected never fully came.
Then, still embracing, Ai pulled back to gaze into her face, long-lashed eyes shining with moisture staring straight into her own. And, though Sayumi could scarcely believe it, she felt hot lips upon hers once again. This time though it didn’t break, and the two girls, lost to time and space, for the first time fully took in the sensation it created in them. For the first time, they truly kissed each other.
At first their lips were still, but after a moment it developed into gentle caresses. Sayumi didn’t know who did it first, but their lips parted and they tasted each other. Wanting more, not knowing any better, Sayumi slid her tongue through the crevasse created between Ai’s lips, and soon tongues as well as lips enjoyed the soft caressing.
When they finally did part, they held their faces still close, Sayumi breathing quickly, Ai barely seeming like anything had changed. “What…” Sayumi began, trying to form a coherent thought. “What was that…?”
“I don’t know,” Ai murmured, ending with a soft titter. “It was just… something I felt like doing.” Then she looked intensely into Sayumi’s eyes, this time almost completely stealing away her breath. “Sayumi…” she said, and Sayumi recognized Ai’s serious mode. This made her not just a little bit concerned.
“Yes…?” Sayumi mustered with what breath she had left.
“Do you want to really give me a birthday present tonight?” Sayumi’s eyes narrowed slightly in confusion, but Ai’s gaze never wavered. “Teach me…” the girl began. The arms around Sayumi now seemed to be burning into her flesh. “Teach me how to love.”
Sayumi blinked.
“Um…” she said finally. It was now completely impossible to think. “I can’t.”
Ai’s features fell slightly, disappointment crossing her face.
“I mean,” Sayumi interjected quickly, brain whirring into action again. “I can’t… teach you something I don’t even know myself.” She felt like she was going crazy. Here she had Ai, in the most perfect situation at the most perfect time, and she was a failure. Why did this even need to happen? She knew she was inadequate for someone like Ai, someone nearly so perfect, so why did it have to get driven in even harder like a stake to the heart after the coffin had already been nailed shut?
But then,
Suddenly, Ai smiled.
“Then let’s learn together.”
…
Come again?
“I’ll be graduating soon,” the girl continued, a haunted look coming into her eyes. “I’m so scared. I’m terrified. I know what it is I want to do, but this is virtually all I’ve known. I wonder… I wonder if this is one thing I can do to prepare for what’s to come.”
“You want…” Sayumi said, brow furrowing. “You want… to practice? Practice on me before… before the real thing?”
Ai blinked, and she seemed to think again. “No.” She shook her head. “No. Of course not. That’s not what I meant. I’m sorry, that was dumb. There will be so many questions in my life, things I’ll be experiencing for the first time. Maybe… maybe this doesn’t have to be one of them.” She looked up into Sayumi’s eyes again. “I’m twenty-five now. Maybe this is one thing out of so many that should have been settled long ago… that doesn’t have to be a question.”
Ai looked at her, anticipating a response, but as none came while Sayumi just stared dreamily back, she continued, “…Are you all right? I’m sorry. I’m just being stupid again, aren’t I?”
“Shut up,” Sayumi interjected suddenly, cutting her off completely. Ai looked querulously up at her. “Shut up…” Sayumi repeated again, shaking her head slightly. “And just kiss me.”
Ai’s eyes widened, but it was only a momentary hesitation before she did as ordered and kissed her again, Sayumi now feeling as if impossible dreams had somehow come true.
After realizing they’d been out in full public view for long enough, they soon made their way to a nearby hotel, and after short negotiation at the reception found themselves in a room with a large bed in front of them as they held hands before it.
“So…” Sayumi said.
“Yep…” Ai replied just as pointlessly.
“What… do you suppose we do now?” Sayumi asked, looking down at her companion.
“You’d think we’ve never shared a hotel room before,” Ai commented wryly.
Sayumi giggled, and pulled slightly at the girl’s hand as they turned to face each other. She glanced at the loose collar of Ai’s t-shirt, and down to her shorts and the thin chain dangling from the pocket before moving back up to her face. Then she reached up to pull off her hat. “Well to start with…” Sayumi began, tossing it aside, a blush rushing quickly to her face as she continued, “Maybe you can take my clothes off?”
Ai cocked an eyebrow at her. “I’m surprised you’d even let someone else touch them like that.”
“You’re the fashion diva,” Sayumi mumbled in reply, looking pleadingly up into her face. “Mou~ do you really have to make this harder than it is already?? Doesn’t every girl long for her prince to come and just whisk her away?”
“Every girl?” Ai asked with a smile, but stepped closer to her. “Or just a princess?”
Sayumi blushed once again.
However, it was short-lived as Ai reached up to her collar. She carefully began undoing the buttons of her blouse, smiling reassuringly the whole way until she got to the bottom, and then pulling it apart to reveal the light strapped shirt beneath. She tenderly slid the blouse down her arms, followed by the spaghetti straps of her undershirt until her shoulders were exposed.
Now for the first time Ai appeared nervous also as she continued pulling it down past her lacy blue bra until it sat below her belly button. Sayumi could hardly contain her anxiety, as well as her excitement, but did her best to stay still as Ai rested her hands at her waist a moment, her eyes fixed there as well.
“And now my skirt?” Sayumi managed to request, wondering where the bravery was coming from.
“Um, of course…” Ai replied, and reached around her waist. After loosening the band, all it took was for her to remove her hands before it fell to Sayumi’s feet, revealing the somewhat lacy but generally plain panties to match the bra. Sayumi was now a bit embarrassed she hadn’t worn something more… inviting… but she couldn’t have imagined she’d be having sex tonight!
Suddenly she froze at the thought. That was the first time she’d completely thought of it in that way. She was hopefully going to have sex tonight! With Ai-chan! The air of unreality hit her with full force once again.
“Are you okay?” Ai asked, her face twisted slightly in worry as she held her hands still after they had begun pushing her undershirt the rest of the way down.
Sayumi looked up at her and blinked. “Um, yes… Everything’s fine.” Then she put her hands atop Ai’s, helping her to push the shirt down past her panties to join the skirt at her feet.
When she stepped out of them, she looked back into Ai-chan’s face, which was still directed below. Feeling self-conscious again, Sayumi crossed her arms below her chest. She knew it. She’d gotten this far, but she should have known it long ago. She wasn’t satisfactory enough for Ai-chan.
“Mou~” she said, trying not to sound too pathetic. “Stop staring!”
Ai seemed to break out of a trance and looked up at her again. “Sorry. It’s just… you really are beautiful.”
“Liar,” Sayumi whined, but in her head she was screaming “So freaking cool!!!”
“Not at all,” Ai replied, and stepped forward to take her in her arms once again. If she thought Ai’s touch felt hot before, it was nothing compared to now against her bare skin.
Ai leaned in to kiss her, for the first time since arriving at the hotel, and as it quickly deepened she was very conscious of hands wandering over her back. She could feel fingers pluck lightly at the strap of her bra until finally they deftly undid it, and after the straps fell to her sides, Ai pulled back slightly to let the entire garment fall to the floor between them.
Sayumi did her best to lose herself in the kiss and not anticipate what might happen next – it was actually rather easy since Ai’s tongue was delicious as well as insatiable – but when she felt a hand envelop her breast there was nothing she could do to prevent a moan from escaping into the other’s mouth.
Perhaps encouraged by the sound, Ai squeezed her hand gently around the soft flesh, and when a thumb flicked over her nipple Sayumi felt her body tremble and her legs give out slightly, momentarily breaking the kiss.
Ai looked into her eyes as if to make sure everything was all right, but in response Sayumi grabbed her free hand in both of hers and slid it down her stomach, brazenly stuffing it beneath the lace of her panties. Ai paused in surprise, but it was nothing compared to what Sayumi felt when the girl’s fingers incidentally came into contact with the tender flesh she had been aiming them toward.
“Rub me,” Sayumi commanded, now giving herself over to lust, and after a moment Ai did as she was told.
Her hips gyrating with the girl’s finger motions, Sayumi now felt a burning need to feel the other’s skin, and so grabbed at the hem of her t-shirt to tug it and what was beneath, if a bit awkwardly, up and off, until all that was left above Ai’s shorts as well was her bra. She leaned in to kiss Ai’s neck just as her moans continued at what Ai’s fingers were doing between her legs. She circled her arms around the tautly-muscled body, once again fleetingly feeling unsatisfactory herself, and clumsily pulled down the sports bra to reveal Ai’s glorious chest.
Sayumi spent only a moment admiring it though before immediately taking a nipple into her mouth, making Ai now begin to moan along with herself.
The two girls continued pleasuring each other this way until Sayu pulled away to sit back on the bed. Scooting back until her head reached the pillow, she laid back and spread her legs before Ai, a pleading, desperate look on her face.
Ai stared at her a moment, whether studying her or without thought Sayumi couldn’t know, didn’t care at the time, but then climbed onto the bed to join her lover. Seeing Ai still in her shorts, Sayumi cursed before leaning up, pulling a confused Ai to a sitting position to undo the shorts. Eventually she managed to drag them down her legs, leaving the older now in only panties as well, before sitting back once again with her legs spread.
Ai now had the grace to blush at being exposed to her companion, but Sayu didn’t want to let her get away with that for long. Grabbing lightly at her wrist, she drew the girl’s eyes to her own. “If you don’t do something to me soon…”
Almost before she could get all the words out, Ai slid up to capture her lips in another kiss. Sayumi gave a short cry at the sudden movement, but soon the feel of the girl completely on top of her took over.
Ai didn’t spend much time at her mouth though before kissing down the middle of her neck and the valley between her breasts. Sayumi gave a short gurgle of disappointment that she ignored the nipples, but Ai’s advance soon calmed any of that.
Down her stomach to her belly button, and on down from there. Sayumi did her best to keep from squirming, embarrassed at how sensitive she was while imagining Ai’s abs. Mmm.. abs…
When Ai reached the hem of her panties she trailed slow kisses along them as her fingers hooked into the elastic. Sayumi eagerly lifted her hips as they began to be pulled down, and Ai followed them with her lips past the thin bush and on down her thigh.
Sayumi awkwardly tried to kick the underwear off, but Ai had to help her. Afterward, she grabbed at the girl’s light-colored hair to pull her between her legs. Ai easily resisted her though, instead grinning up at her while pushing her legs further apart. “Easy now,” she teased. “I’ll take good care of you.”
“You better,” Sayumi growled in desperation, before relaxing her legs in hopes the girl would keep to her promise.
Boy, she sure did.
The first thing Sayumi felt was a slow lick along her slit, and she could certainly no longer relax. Ai held her legs down as she nibbled at the flaps over her entrance, and it was a good thing she did so. When her tongue poked inside, Sayumi began grinding herself against the girl’s mouth as well.
Looking down at the sight of Ai’s hair bouncing as her face buried itself into her crotch, Sayumi nearly exploded right there in amazement at what was happening. It was truly like a dream come true. A really hentai dream. From a real hentai. Yep, that was Sayumi.
Then she really did explode.
…
The next time she opened her eyes, she stared up into soft features that relaxed in relief. “I thought you’d passed out…” Ai said worriedly.
“I did,” Sayumi replied, eyes wide as they gazed dreamily upward. “I was in Heaven…”
“Um…” Ai mumbled, starting to look very uncomfortable now.
But then Sayumi’s eyes focused onto her own, and the bunny smiled. “I still am.”
This time Ai completely blushed, but Sayumi barely saw it as she pulled her down for a deeply tender kiss. As they kissed, Sayumi made sure to squeeze her tightly, feel as much warm flesh as she could. It felt like Ai did the same. Then she did her best to roll over, finally managing to come out atop the shorter yet older woman. Breaking the kiss, Sayumi looked down into her eyes.
“You really are my prince,” she said with a wide smile. When Ai smiled fondly back, she continued, twirling a finger into her boyish locks, “And you’re one of the few girls I know who would completely take that as a compliment.”
“What can I say?” Ai replied. “I guess I’m just one of the boys.”
Sayumi immediately flashed a wicked grin that wiped the smile from Ai’s features. Then she thrust her hand down between the other’s legs, though above her panties. When she began to rub slow and hard, the other gasped.
“I beg to differ,” Sayumi said in a low voice, and leaned down to kiss the other’s neck.
As Ai began breathing heavily, Sayumi sucked gently at her neck. She made her way deliberately down her collarbone until she reached the top of her chest. The suctioning kisses then continued up the soft flesh to her nipple, which Sayumi vacuumed greedily between her lips.
Ai now began moaning at Sayumi’s aggressive sucking, not to mention the pressure between her legs, but Sayumi herself was presented with a dilemma. She was afraid her tongue wasn’t yet adequate for what Ai had just done to her, so instead of risking embarrassment – whether Ai actually complained or not was not even a factor – she wedged her fingers underneath the elastic of her panties, cupping her soft mound for a moment before sliding down to her moist prize.
Ai’s body now tensed and almost arched, and Sayu’s envy at its strength almost overcame her. Well, to the point where she became even more aggressive with her actions at least. Sucking as hard as she could, even biting from time to time, she wasted no time in thrusting a finger in past Ai’s folds.
Ai cried out – very un-princely – time and time again as Sayumi sucked and thrust. After Sayumi switched to her other nipple only moments passed before the girl convulsed, fluid seeping out to drench Sayumi’s fingers – and Ai’s panties. Sayumi didn’t stop though, and after a minute Ai came once again.
“Sayumi…” Ai breathed, moaned, cried out desperately. “I can’t…”
With a plop, Sayumi’s lips detached from her nipple. “You can’t what, Ai-chan?” she asked with a smirk, pulling the cum-covered hand out of her panties and bringing it to her mouth as she sat straddling Ai’s waist. She peered at the shining liquid a moment before sticking a finger fully in to suck it dry.
Ai gulped beneath her.
Sayumi wasn’t done yet.
Scooting back, she grabbed Ai’s soaked panties roughly and pulled them down her legs, Ai giving cute little yelps as she tried to maneuver her legs to help. Then Sayu held the fabric up to her face, inhaling in a long sniff.
“You’re gross, you know that,” Ai said, finally sounding amused.
“Oh really?” Sayumi replied. “And who just came twice into her panties and onto my fingers?”
Ai went scarlet, but Sayumi threw the garment aside and leaned down to lie comfortably beside her lover. One leg straddled the others’, and her burning loins pressed comfortably against the side of Ai’s hip. Still incredibly horny, Sayumi humped it slowly, the taut muscles feeling wonderful against her, and making it damp as well with her own seeping moisture.
Kissing Ai’s cheekbone, she played her still-damp fingers along the girl’s lips. “I love you, Ai-chan,” she said over and over, as she one by one slipped each finger into her mouth. Then she lifted her head and kissed Ai’s moist lips.
“So,” Sayumi breathed, just above the other’s face. “How many questions do you still have left to ask?”
Ai smiled at her, reaching up to brush strands of silky black hair behind her ear and down her back. “Well…” she began, and Sayumi lightly kissed her nose.
“Yes?” the bunny replied, eyes sparkling.
“Maybe one less.”
At the response, Sayumi snuggled her face into the crook of Ai’s neck. “Ai-chan…” she purred.
“Mmm?”
“Make love to me again.”
“As you wish.”
…
…Kakkoii.
Last Chance
Sayumi walked slowly through the dark, watching all the late night revelers as they went about whatever “business” they had. Most didn’t seem to hurry where they were going, but sometimes she would hear footsteps of people – usually couples or groups – running and laughing, or crying out at whatever craziness they were up to.
Sayumi sighed wistfully. It seemed a world so foreign to her with the restrictions of being an idol. She couldn’t just be free to see whomever she wanted whenever she wanted, or go to parties or just have a romping night on the town. Parties that were much more than the one she just attended, at least.
She glanced again at the person walking next to her, who almost appeared to be brooding. Seriously, how did the girl manage to do that so often? She was probably lost in amazement that someone actually bought her a cake and recognized her birthday tonight.
“Ai-chan!” she said, poking at Leader’s arm.
“Mm?” the girl replied smoothly, as if they’d been in conversation the whole time.
Sayumi brandished an arm at her, her bag waving from her wrist. “I’m surprised you don’t have more to say about tonight.”
Ai gave her what almost appeared to be a bewildered expression. “About tonight?” she asked blankly. “Concerning what?”
Concerning what!? Sayumi felt like smacking her with her bag. No matter how cool she looked walking with that slouch and hat and hands in her pockets. Instead, she restrained herself. This was not some host she needed to antagonize on TV; this was Ai-chan, Ai-chan who was her dear senpai and friend, and whom she had loved for most of her life.
She pulled her cell phone out and checked the time. An LCD 23:56 shone back at her. “You know Ai-chan, you’ll be twenty-five in four more—”
“Three,” Ai shot back right away, her never-changing stare directed straight ahead. She smiled. “It’s become three since you looked at your phone.”
Sayumi checked it again. The girl was right.
Not wanting to spend too much time thinking about how she knew that, just filing it away as another surprisingly unsurprising thing about her Leader, she continued on with what she was going to say.
“It’ll turn while we’re walking here, you know.”
“I expect it will,” Ai replied. Her calm, non-chalant precision was almost maddening sometimes. She was really such a geek. That was one reason Sayumi sometimes wondered why she even loved her.
“Well…” Sayumi said, as usual thinking fast to keep up with the girl. “What if I said I have a present to give you right when it turns midnight?”
This made Ai turn to her, and Sayumi saw a smile of pure happiness and the sparkle in her eyes. “A present?” the girl asked disbelievingly. “For me? Really? I feel like I’ve already gotten so many presents tonight…” she pondered, looking back ahead.
“Only from Aika,” Sayumi replied quickly. “The DVD was certainly thoughtful though. Well, and the cake, and the takoyaki I suppose…”
“Takoyaki…” Ai murmured, and Sayumi could almost see the wheels turning in her head, bringing the fond memory back to the front. Aika had really cooked them quite amazingly.
“Ahe~m!” Sayumi said, clearing her throat, and drawing the girl’s curious attention back to her. “I believe we were talking about my present.”
Ai suddenly fell into a relaxed smile. “Of course, Sayu. But really, you shouldn’t have.”
Peering subtly down at her phone again with her bag, and seeing that it now said 0:00, she looked up and, without a moment’s hesitation, leaned forward to press her lips against Ai’s.
Ai was too shocked to avoid it, and when Sayumi pulled back with a smile, the girl was staring at her wide-eyed. “Happy birthday,” she said quietly as the two girls stood nearly frozen beside the street. For the first time Sayumi became aware that someone else nearby could have easily spotted them, but thankfully no one seemed to have been close enough.
“Sayumi…” Ai said, trailing off in stunned silence.
“Gotcha again,” Sayumi joked, attempting to ease the tension. For some reason it didn’t work though. For some reason, the tension felt like it still hung in the air, heavy as ever.
Ai blushed, and glanced around meekly. “That was reckless, you know,” she said, once again the chastising senpai. “This isn’t a concert set up for entertainment. It’s our private time. It’s just us.”
“I know,” Sayumi replied, gazing steadily at the girl. “It is just us. Ai-chan,” she began, swallowing a lump in her throat. This wasn’t supposed to be so hard! “Ai-chan, I love you. I know it sounds silly, but it’s true.”
“Not at all,” Ai replied, narrowing her eyes a bit at her. “I of course love you too, Sayumin. I’m going to miss all of you so much…”
Sayumi shook her head vigorously. “No. That’s not what I mean. I mean… There’s no way I could ever be worthy, but I love you. I want to be with you, like… like a man loves a woman.”
“Sayu…” Ai murmured, seeming at a complete loss.
Sayumi could feel tears beginning to come to her eyes. “I know it could never be, but I just… before you left, and there won’t likely ever be as perfect a time like this again with just the two of us before all the chaos, I just had to make sure and tell you. I wanted you to know.”
“Sayumin…” Ai said, and took a step closer.
Sayumi really was beginning to cry now, and took out a tissue to try and stifle her sobs. Ai still stood there, right in front of her, such emotion in her face just like always… She really would make such a good actor. And not just that…
Damn the girl for always managing to look so insanely cool… and hot.
“Sayumi, stop it,” Ai said, and Sayumi felt arms around her as she pulled her into a tight hug. Sayumi clung on tight, worried that she’d never get the chance again, and somehow the sobs she expected never fully came.
Then, still embracing, Ai pulled back to gaze into her face, long-lashed eyes shining with moisture staring straight into her own. And, though Sayumi could scarcely believe it, she felt hot lips upon hers once again. This time though it didn’t break, and the two girls, lost to time and space, for the first time fully took in the sensation it created in them. For the first time, they truly kissed each other.
At first their lips were still, but after a moment it developed into gentle caresses. Sayumi didn’t know who did it first, but their lips parted and they tasted each other. Wanting more, not knowing any better, Sayumi slid her tongue through the crevasse created between Ai’s lips, and soon tongues as well as lips enjoyed the soft caressing.
When they finally did part, they held their faces still close, Sayumi breathing quickly, Ai barely seeming like anything had changed. “What…” Sayumi began, trying to form a coherent thought. “What was that…?”
“I don’t know,” Ai murmured, ending with a soft titter. “It was just… something I felt like doing.” Then she looked intensely into Sayumi’s eyes, this time almost completely stealing away her breath. “Sayumi…” she said, and Sayumi recognized Ai’s serious mode. This made her not just a little bit concerned.
“Yes…?” Sayumi mustered with what breath she had left.
“Do you want to really give me a birthday present tonight?” Sayumi’s eyes narrowed slightly in confusion, but Ai’s gaze never wavered. “Teach me…” the girl began. The arms around Sayumi now seemed to be burning into her flesh. “Teach me how to love.”
Sayumi blinked.
“Um…” she said finally. It was now completely impossible to think. “I can’t.”
Ai’s features fell slightly, disappointment crossing her face.
“I mean,” Sayumi interjected quickly, brain whirring into action again. “I can’t… teach you something I don’t even know myself.” She felt like she was going crazy. Here she had Ai, in the most perfect situation at the most perfect time, and she was a failure. Why did this even need to happen? She knew she was inadequate for someone like Ai, someone nearly so perfect, so why did it have to get driven in even harder like a stake to the heart after the coffin had already been nailed shut?
But then,
Suddenly, Ai smiled.
“Then let’s learn together.”
…
Come again?
“I’ll be graduating soon,” the girl continued, a haunted look coming into her eyes. “I’m so scared. I’m terrified. I know what it is I want to do, but this is virtually all I’ve known. I wonder… I wonder if this is one thing I can do to prepare for what’s to come.”
“You want…” Sayumi said, brow furrowing. “You want… to practice? Practice on me before… before the real thing?”
Ai blinked, and she seemed to think again. “No.” She shook her head. “No. Of course not. That’s not what I meant. I’m sorry, that was dumb. There will be so many questions in my life, things I’ll be experiencing for the first time. Maybe… maybe this doesn’t have to be one of them.” She looked up into Sayumi’s eyes again. “I’m twenty-five now. Maybe this is one thing out of so many that should have been settled long ago… that doesn’t have to be a question.”
Ai looked at her, anticipating a response, but as none came while Sayumi just stared dreamily back, she continued, “…Are you all right? I’m sorry. I’m just being stupid again, aren’t I?”
“Shut up,” Sayumi interjected suddenly, cutting her off completely. Ai looked querulously up at her. “Shut up…” Sayumi repeated again, shaking her head slightly. “And just kiss me.”
Ai’s eyes widened, but it was only a momentary hesitation before she did as ordered and kissed her again, Sayumi now feeling as if impossible dreams had somehow come true.
After realizing they’d been out in full public view for long enough, they soon made their way to a nearby hotel, and after short negotiation at the reception found themselves in a room with a large bed in front of them as they held hands before it.
“So…” Sayumi said.
“Yep…” Ai replied just as pointlessly.
“What… do you suppose we do now?” Sayumi asked, looking down at her companion.
“You’d think we’ve never shared a hotel room before,” Ai commented wryly.
Sayumi giggled, and pulled slightly at the girl’s hand as they turned to face each other. She glanced at the loose collar of Ai’s t-shirt, and down to her shorts and the thin chain dangling from the pocket before moving back up to her face. Then she reached up to pull off her hat. “Well to start with…” Sayumi began, tossing it aside, a blush rushing quickly to her face as she continued, “Maybe you can take my clothes off?”
Ai cocked an eyebrow at her. “I’m surprised you’d even let someone else touch them like that.”
“You’re the fashion diva,” Sayumi mumbled in reply, looking pleadingly up into her face. “Mou~ do you really have to make this harder than it is already?? Doesn’t every girl long for her prince to come and just whisk her away?”
“Every girl?” Ai asked with a smile, but stepped closer to her. “Or just a princess?”
Sayumi blushed once again.
However, it was short-lived as Ai reached up to her collar. She carefully began undoing the buttons of her blouse, smiling reassuringly the whole way until she got to the bottom, and then pulling it apart to reveal the light strapped shirt beneath. She tenderly slid the blouse down her arms, followed by the spaghetti straps of her undershirt until her shoulders were exposed.
Now for the first time Ai appeared nervous also as she continued pulling it down past her lacy blue bra until it sat below her belly button. Sayumi could hardly contain her anxiety, as well as her excitement, but did her best to stay still as Ai rested her hands at her waist a moment, her eyes fixed there as well.
“And now my skirt?” Sayumi managed to request, wondering where the bravery was coming from.
“Um, of course…” Ai replied, and reached around her waist. After loosening the band, all it took was for her to remove her hands before it fell to Sayumi’s feet, revealing the somewhat lacy but generally plain panties to match the bra. Sayumi was now a bit embarrassed she hadn’t worn something more… inviting… but she couldn’t have imagined she’d be having sex tonight!
Suddenly she froze at the thought. That was the first time she’d completely thought of it in that way. She was hopefully going to have sex tonight! With Ai-chan! The air of unreality hit her with full force once again.
“Are you okay?” Ai asked, her face twisted slightly in worry as she held her hands still after they had begun pushing her undershirt the rest of the way down.
Sayumi looked up at her and blinked. “Um, yes… Everything’s fine.” Then she put her hands atop Ai’s, helping her to push the shirt down past her panties to join the skirt at her feet.
When she stepped out of them, she looked back into Ai-chan’s face, which was still directed below. Feeling self-conscious again, Sayumi crossed her arms below her chest. She knew it. She’d gotten this far, but she should have known it long ago. She wasn’t satisfactory enough for Ai-chan.
“Mou~” she said, trying not to sound too pathetic. “Stop staring!”
Ai seemed to break out of a trance and looked up at her again. “Sorry. It’s just… you really are beautiful.”
“Liar,” Sayumi whined, but in her head she was screaming “So freaking cool!!!”
“Not at all,” Ai replied, and stepped forward to take her in her arms once again. If she thought Ai’s touch felt hot before, it was nothing compared to now against her bare skin.
Ai leaned in to kiss her, for the first time since arriving at the hotel, and as it quickly deepened she was very conscious of hands wandering over her back. She could feel fingers pluck lightly at the strap of her bra until finally they deftly undid it, and after the straps fell to her sides, Ai pulled back slightly to let the entire garment fall to the floor between them.
Sayumi did her best to lose herself in the kiss and not anticipate what might happen next – it was actually rather easy since Ai’s tongue was delicious as well as insatiable – but when she felt a hand envelop her breast there was nothing she could do to prevent a moan from escaping into the other’s mouth.
Perhaps encouraged by the sound, Ai squeezed her hand gently around the soft flesh, and when a thumb flicked over her nipple Sayumi felt her body tremble and her legs give out slightly, momentarily breaking the kiss.
Ai looked into her eyes as if to make sure everything was all right, but in response Sayumi grabbed her free hand in both of hers and slid it down her stomach, brazenly stuffing it beneath the lace of her panties. Ai paused in surprise, but it was nothing compared to what Sayumi felt when the girl’s fingers incidentally came into contact with the tender flesh she had been aiming them toward.
“Rub me,” Sayumi commanded, now giving herself over to lust, and after a moment Ai did as she was told.
Her hips gyrating with the girl’s finger motions, Sayumi now felt a burning need to feel the other’s skin, and so grabbed at the hem of her t-shirt to tug it and what was beneath, if a bit awkwardly, up and off, until all that was left above Ai’s shorts as well was her bra. She leaned in to kiss Ai’s neck just as her moans continued at what Ai’s fingers were doing between her legs. She circled her arms around the tautly-muscled body, once again fleetingly feeling unsatisfactory herself, and clumsily pulled down the sports bra to reveal Ai’s glorious chest.
Sayumi spent only a moment admiring it though before immediately taking a nipple into her mouth, making Ai now begin to moan along with herself.
The two girls continued pleasuring each other this way until Sayu pulled away to sit back on the bed. Scooting back until her head reached the pillow, she laid back and spread her legs before Ai, a pleading, desperate look on her face.
Ai stared at her a moment, whether studying her or without thought Sayumi couldn’t know, didn’t care at the time, but then climbed onto the bed to join her lover. Seeing Ai still in her shorts, Sayumi cursed before leaning up, pulling a confused Ai to a sitting position to undo the shorts. Eventually she managed to drag them down her legs, leaving the older now in only panties as well, before sitting back once again with her legs spread.
Ai now had the grace to blush at being exposed to her companion, but Sayu didn’t want to let her get away with that for long. Grabbing lightly at her wrist, she drew the girl’s eyes to her own. “If you don’t do something to me soon…”
Almost before she could get all the words out, Ai slid up to capture her lips in another kiss. Sayumi gave a short cry at the sudden movement, but soon the feel of the girl completely on top of her took over.
Ai didn’t spend much time at her mouth though before kissing down the middle of her neck and the valley between her breasts. Sayumi gave a short gurgle of disappointment that she ignored the nipples, but Ai’s advance soon calmed any of that.
Down her stomach to her belly button, and on down from there. Sayumi did her best to keep from squirming, embarrassed at how sensitive she was while imagining Ai’s abs. Mmm.. abs…
When Ai reached the hem of her panties she trailed slow kisses along them as her fingers hooked into the elastic. Sayumi eagerly lifted her hips as they began to be pulled down, and Ai followed them with her lips past the thin bush and on down her thigh.
Sayumi awkwardly tried to kick the underwear off, but Ai had to help her. Afterward, she grabbed at the girl’s light-colored hair to pull her between her legs. Ai easily resisted her though, instead grinning up at her while pushing her legs further apart. “Easy now,” she teased. “I’ll take good care of you.”
“You better,” Sayumi growled in desperation, before relaxing her legs in hopes the girl would keep to her promise.
Boy, she sure did.
The first thing Sayumi felt was a slow lick along her slit, and she could certainly no longer relax. Ai held her legs down as she nibbled at the flaps over her entrance, and it was a good thing she did so. When her tongue poked inside, Sayumi began grinding herself against the girl’s mouth as well.
Looking down at the sight of Ai’s hair bouncing as her face buried itself into her crotch, Sayumi nearly exploded right there in amazement at what was happening. It was truly like a dream come true. A really hentai dream. From a real hentai. Yep, that was Sayumi.
Then she really did explode.
…
The next time she opened her eyes, she stared up into soft features that relaxed in relief. “I thought you’d passed out…” Ai said worriedly.
“I did,” Sayumi replied, eyes wide as they gazed dreamily upward. “I was in Heaven…”
“Um…” Ai mumbled, starting to look very uncomfortable now.
But then Sayumi’s eyes focused onto her own, and the bunny smiled. “I still am.”
This time Ai completely blushed, but Sayumi barely saw it as she pulled her down for a deeply tender kiss. As they kissed, Sayumi made sure to squeeze her tightly, feel as much warm flesh as she could. It felt like Ai did the same. Then she did her best to roll over, finally managing to come out atop the shorter yet older woman. Breaking the kiss, Sayumi looked down into her eyes.
“You really are my prince,” she said with a wide smile. When Ai smiled fondly back, she continued, twirling a finger into her boyish locks, “And you’re one of the few girls I know who would completely take that as a compliment.”
“What can I say?” Ai replied. “I guess I’m just one of the boys.”
Sayumi immediately flashed a wicked grin that wiped the smile from Ai’s features. Then she thrust her hand down between the other’s legs, though above her panties. When she began to rub slow and hard, the other gasped.
“I beg to differ,” Sayumi said in a low voice, and leaned down to kiss the other’s neck.
As Ai began breathing heavily, Sayumi sucked gently at her neck. She made her way deliberately down her collarbone until she reached the top of her chest. The suctioning kisses then continued up the soft flesh to her nipple, which Sayumi vacuumed greedily between her lips.
Ai now began moaning at Sayumi’s aggressive sucking, not to mention the pressure between her legs, but Sayumi herself was presented with a dilemma. She was afraid her tongue wasn’t yet adequate for what Ai had just done to her, so instead of risking embarrassment – whether Ai actually complained or not was not even a factor – she wedged her fingers underneath the elastic of her panties, cupping her soft mound for a moment before sliding down to her moist prize.
Ai’s body now tensed and almost arched, and Sayu’s envy at its strength almost overcame her. Well, to the point where she became even more aggressive with her actions at least. Sucking as hard as she could, even biting from time to time, she wasted no time in thrusting a finger in past Ai’s folds.
Ai cried out – very un-princely – time and time again as Sayumi sucked and thrust. After Sayumi switched to her other nipple only moments passed before the girl convulsed, fluid seeping out to drench Sayumi’s fingers – and Ai’s panties. Sayumi didn’t stop though, and after a minute Ai came once again.
“Sayumi…” Ai breathed, moaned, cried out desperately. “I can’t…”
With a plop, Sayumi’s lips detached from her nipple. “You can’t what, Ai-chan?” she asked with a smirk, pulling the cum-covered hand out of her panties and bringing it to her mouth as she sat straddling Ai’s waist. She peered at the shining liquid a moment before sticking a finger fully in to suck it dry.
Ai gulped beneath her.
Sayumi wasn’t done yet.
Scooting back, she grabbed Ai’s soaked panties roughly and pulled them down her legs, Ai giving cute little yelps as she tried to maneuver her legs to help. Then Sayu held the fabric up to her face, inhaling in a long sniff.
“You’re gross, you know that,” Ai said, finally sounding amused.
“Oh really?” Sayumi replied. “And who just came twice into her panties and onto my fingers?”
Ai went scarlet, but Sayumi threw the garment aside and leaned down to lie comfortably beside her lover. One leg straddled the others’, and her burning loins pressed comfortably against the side of Ai’s hip. Still incredibly horny, Sayumi humped it slowly, the taut muscles feeling wonderful against her, and making it damp as well with her own seeping moisture.
Kissing Ai’s cheekbone, she played her still-damp fingers along the girl’s lips. “I love you, Ai-chan,” she said over and over, as she one by one slipped each finger into her mouth. Then she lifted her head and kissed Ai’s moist lips.
“So,” Sayumi breathed, just above the other’s face. “How many questions do you still have left to ask?”
Ai smiled at her, reaching up to brush strands of silky black hair behind her ear and down her back. “Well…” she began, and Sayumi lightly kissed her nose.
“Yes?” the bunny replied, eyes sparkling.
“Maybe one less.”
At the response, Sayumi snuggled her face into the crook of Ai’s neck. “Ai-chan…” she purred.
“Mmm?”
“Make love to me again.”
“As you wish.”
…
…Kakkoii.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Ai, Momo, Vampire Stories and a Lack of Bean
Da fuck! This expression is so damn right. After watching that clip of Momo being made a fool of and practically abused on national tv makes me so damn pissed! How could UFA send their girls onto such degrading programs??! I always knew that in Japan society females are so called more worthless as compared to males but what the f***!? They shouldn't be kicked around and dragged across the floor! I remember one of those bastards used to do similar sick actions to either Mari or Kei. This whole so called manner of entertainment makes me sick! It's totally uncalled for. I don't know if Momoko is the only one from Berryz subjected to this form of torment but none of them should have to. I doubt they would have asked Miya to do it. She would have gone ballistic. What irks me is how her team mates could laugh along? Even if it were an act, it's still sick. I hope C-ute and MM never have to go through the same shit. Gaki-san and Sayu, please just quit if they ever forced you to appear on such crap variety shows.
After watching Ai's handshake event held at Fukuya bookstore, I wish I was the owner of that chain of stores. Imagine having all your favorite girls come to your shop and holding a whole event! Does Fukuya only sell photobooks? Cuz we don't see such events being held at Kino ne?
Ai was as always oh so adorable. Especially in her light brown hat. She seems somewhat pale on the cover of her pb. And the color of her lips! I dont know why but her skin and lips color made me link that image to her being a vampire. Wouldn't that be sexy? A love story featuring Vampire Ai with mortal Risa. Throw in some fighting, excitment, blood, explosions and car chases and you would have an incredible movie! Oooh I will be so anticipating the kissing scenes. It's obvious Ai-chan was caught off guard when the reporter asked her about Kago. Where is her manager or staff?! She shouldn't be left to fend off surprising questions that she can't answer on her own. Man, how I wish I could attend such handshake events for either Gaki, Sayu or Ai. Hmmm, must plan the trip such that it coincides with an event.
The trailer and navigation clips of Brothers and Chasers look promising. Hopefully Airi and Reina would end up getting more movies. I want them to get to act in dramas next! And become popular and 强手!
Wonder why Mame didn't blog for so many days. Is she too busy with filming her movie? I can't wait to watch it or know what it's about. Please be successful *prays*
How nice it would be to be in Japan when the vampire movies are screening. Or Risa's movie. It would be the best trip ever to be able to include concerts, events, H!P movies, H!P shops, Ai's play, shopping and hot springs in the same trip. Did I leave anything else out?
After watching Ai's handshake event held at Fukuya bookstore, I wish I was the owner of that chain of stores. Imagine having all your favorite girls come to your shop and holding a whole event! Does Fukuya only sell photobooks? Cuz we don't see such events being held at Kino ne?
Ai was as always oh so adorable. Especially in her light brown hat. She seems somewhat pale on the cover of her pb. And the color of her lips! I dont know why but her skin and lips color made me link that image to her being a vampire. Wouldn't that be sexy? A love story featuring Vampire Ai with mortal Risa. Throw in some fighting, excitment, blood, explosions and car chases and you would have an incredible movie! Oooh I will be so anticipating the kissing scenes. It's obvious Ai-chan was caught off guard when the reporter asked her about Kago. Where is her manager or staff?! She shouldn't be left to fend off surprising questions that she can't answer on her own. Man, how I wish I could attend such handshake events for either Gaki, Sayu or Ai. Hmmm, must plan the trip such that it coincides with an event.
The trailer and navigation clips of Brothers and Chasers look promising. Hopefully Airi and Reina would end up getting more movies. I want them to get to act in dramas next! And become popular and 强手!
Wonder why Mame didn't blog for so many days. Is she too busy with filming her movie? I can't wait to watch it or know what it's about. Please be successful *prays*
How nice it would be to be in Japan when the vampire movies are screening. Or Risa's movie. It would be the best trip ever to be able to include concerts, events, H!P movies, H!P shops, Ai's play, shopping and hot springs in the same trip. Did I leave anything else out?
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Happy Music 17 Sept 2011
It was only 1:30 min but MM's rendition of 'Best Friend' sounds really sweet. I cried before Reina even started singing. Somehow she sounds lower than usual. Perhaps she has yet to fully recover from her flu? Gaki wasn't as good as she usually is. Maybe she was too overwhelmed by emotions. Sayu was... Cute. Because she managed to make a mistake barely halfway into her line. Then again, she wouldn't be Sayu if she were a fabulous singer. Aika wasn't around yet it didn't look weird. That sounds mean doesn't it? But I didn't mean to sound so. Hopes she recovers soon.
Risa looked surprisingly gorgeous. I couldn't tear my eyes away. Awesome hair for once. Ai-chan really is a crybaby. But it's hard to blame her. It was a touching perf and the mere gesture of it means so much. Don't lose contact with the rest Ai. It's not easy to find true and worthy friends. Though Gaki might be bossy and what not, at least she's always there. And Sayu is someone anyone would wish for. Eri is so lucky to have her. I doubt 'Happy Music' sees many graduations and sad farewells cuz it would be downright ironic to name the show happy something when everyone is crying and being upset.
Ai really has "face" to have so many OGs make a special clip for her. Wonder why Yuko and Nacchi didn't make an appearance. Did the oldest yankii put her foot down?
Risa looked surprisingly gorgeous. I couldn't tear my eyes away. Awesome hair for once. Ai-chan really is a crybaby. But it's hard to blame her. It was a touching perf and the mere gesture of it means so much. Don't lose contact with the rest Ai. It's not easy to find true and worthy friends. Though Gaki might be bossy and what not, at least she's always there. And Sayu is someone anyone would wish for. Eri is so lucky to have her. I doubt 'Happy Music' sees many graduations and sad farewells cuz it would be downright ironic to name the show happy something when everyone is crying and being upset.
Ai really has "face" to have so many OGs make a special clip for her. Wonder why Yuko and Nacchi didn't make an appearance. Did the oldest yankii put her foot down?
Love's Obsession (1)
"Did you forget to bring your phone today?"
A colleague asks as she notices that I didn't place my mobile on the table during lunch. The rest of my coworkers stares my way their interest piqued by the ongoing conversation.
"No. I just didn't bring it along. Left it in my drawer."
Seeing their perplexed expressions, I continued.
"There isn't a need to bring it since I don't get any messages."
Shrugging my shoulders and flashing a wry smile, I lowered my head and starting tucking into the food in front of me. In no time, the trio of ladies too began work on their lunch while their fingers danced over the keypad of their shiny blackberry cellphones. Watching them smile and grin at their screens, I force myself to concentrate on the plate of unappetizing rice.
It's okay. It won't hurt anymore one day.
-----
I swing the door close after stepping into the quiet apartment. The clock strikes 9.30 as I hang my keys on the little hook in the wall and kick off my shoes. Walking further into my empty home, I place my bag on the dinner room chair and head into my room. Thankfully my family members are away and I didn't have to content with answering stupid questions tonight. I'm exhausted from working overtime and the pounding in my head isn't helping matters.
Too tired physically to shower, I stripped off my outer coat and tossed it in a corner. The laundry will just have to wait till I'm feeling better. Realizing that I'm quite soaked from the sudden storm which had drenched me from head to toe, I decided to not ruin my bed and just settle by sleeping on the floor. Taking a pillow and resting it on the floor, I laid down on it.
Lying down on my side, I closed and eyes and waited for sleep to kick in. Unfortunately sleep did not take me and I reopened my eyes to search for my medication. Removing tablets of different colors from their packaging, I threw them into my mouth and swallowed a whole cup of water. I hated pills and it irritated me to have to take them on a daily basis.
The throbbing in my head seemed to lighten and the medicine seemed to help the stabbing pain in my stomach. Now if only the nausea would stop too. Lying down on my left side once more, I stared into the whitewashed wall until the image of a familiar raven haired girl appeared.
"Did you only just get home?"
I nodded wordlessly as our eyes locked. Feeling my orbs turn moist, I blinked repeated to stop my tears from flowing.
"I only have you. I wish I could hold you. It hurts...so much."
My words didn't make sense and no one would be able to understand what I was trying to say. Yet the new arrival didn't have to ask to know what I meant.
"I know it's painful but it will stop one day. I will be where you want me to be and I will do what you want me to do."
"Really?"
I replied with my voice wavering. I was desperate, lost and hurting. My entire being hoped that my heart and mind could forget everything that was tormenting me. That I could escape the physical pain that my body was subjected to.
"Promise. Now close your eyes and sleep. Feel better tomorrow."
I stared at her again, my vision transfixed on her beautiful features.
"Please never leave me..."
Those were the last words I remembered uttering as I drifted off to an uneasy sleep.
A colleague asks as she notices that I didn't place my mobile on the table during lunch. The rest of my coworkers stares my way their interest piqued by the ongoing conversation.
"No. I just didn't bring it along. Left it in my drawer."
Seeing their perplexed expressions, I continued.
"There isn't a need to bring it since I don't get any messages."
Shrugging my shoulders and flashing a wry smile, I lowered my head and starting tucking into the food in front of me. In no time, the trio of ladies too began work on their lunch while their fingers danced over the keypad of their shiny blackberry cellphones. Watching them smile and grin at their screens, I force myself to concentrate on the plate of unappetizing rice.
It's okay. It won't hurt anymore one day.
-----
I swing the door close after stepping into the quiet apartment. The clock strikes 9.30 as I hang my keys on the little hook in the wall and kick off my shoes. Walking further into my empty home, I place my bag on the dinner room chair and head into my room. Thankfully my family members are away and I didn't have to content with answering stupid questions tonight. I'm exhausted from working overtime and the pounding in my head isn't helping matters.
Too tired physically to shower, I stripped off my outer coat and tossed it in a corner. The laundry will just have to wait till I'm feeling better. Realizing that I'm quite soaked from the sudden storm which had drenched me from head to toe, I decided to not ruin my bed and just settle by sleeping on the floor. Taking a pillow and resting it on the floor, I laid down on it.
Lying down on my side, I closed and eyes and waited for sleep to kick in. Unfortunately sleep did not take me and I reopened my eyes to search for my medication. Removing tablets of different colors from their packaging, I threw them into my mouth and swallowed a whole cup of water. I hated pills and it irritated me to have to take them on a daily basis.
The throbbing in my head seemed to lighten and the medicine seemed to help the stabbing pain in my stomach. Now if only the nausea would stop too. Lying down on my left side once more, I stared into the whitewashed wall until the image of a familiar raven haired girl appeared.
"Did you only just get home?"
I nodded wordlessly as our eyes locked. Feeling my orbs turn moist, I blinked repeated to stop my tears from flowing.
"I only have you. I wish I could hold you. It hurts...so much."
My words didn't make sense and no one would be able to understand what I was trying to say. Yet the new arrival didn't have to ask to know what I meant.
"I know it's painful but it will stop one day. I will be where you want me to be and I will do what you want me to do."
"Really?"
I replied with my voice wavering. I was desperate, lost and hurting. My entire being hoped that my heart and mind could forget everything that was tormenting me. That I could escape the physical pain that my body was subjected to.
"Promise. Now close your eyes and sleep. Feel better tomorrow."
I stared at her again, my vision transfixed on her beautiful features.
"Please never leave me..."
Those were the last words I remembered uttering as I drifted off to an uneasy sleep.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
小爱25了
小爱生日快乐。
不知道阿垣怎样为你庆祝不过希望那是个难忘的一天。
重来不觉得你像25岁。现在也一样。
年轻真好。
祝你毕业后会更成功和有人气。
也许明年能够在日本看到你精彩的演出。
我期待再次看到你和绘里。
请等等我。
就算只是我一个人。。。
Androgynous Ai may work. If other countries can have successful female singers who go down this route, why not Ai-chan? Height isn't even an issue. She can be just as handsome and cool as the others. Please give her a good image, songs and dance. I want to see her succeed and be popular. She can...she will...
不知道阿垣怎样为你庆祝不过希望那是个难忘的一天。
重来不觉得你像25岁。现在也一样。
年轻真好。
祝你毕业后会更成功和有人气。
也许明年能够在日本看到你精彩的演出。
我期待再次看到你和绘里。
请等等我。
就算只是我一个人。。。
Androgynous Ai may work. If other countries can have successful female singers who go down this route, why not Ai-chan? Height isn't even an issue. She can be just as handsome and cool as the others. Please give her a good image, songs and dance. I want to see her succeed and be popular. She can...she will...
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
I thought AiGaki went overseas for a holiday together. Turns out it was for work. But at least they were the only ones if you don't include the staff. Is there a salonplas stuck on Ai's neck? Gosh, Risa really shouldn't be so rough. To make up for the strain Gaki should give Ai a massage instead of letting the poor girl rely on medicated plasters since they don't really work. That is my conclusion after trying them so many times. I love the pics on Ai-chan's blog. They both look so gorgeous.
好像是说明天或后天可以回家。
看吧。
好像是说明天或后天可以回家。
看吧。
Sunday, September 4, 2011
爱 Believe...
It's fast huh, already two of the current MM concerts are over which means just 8 more to go before leader graduates =( I still can't figure out why they only have 10 concerts?! It's much too little. After seeing the concert goods going on sale, I cant believe how much stuff I want. Of course the wristband and MM shirt set is a must have. I love how they incorporated the heart design. Pure brilliance really. One of the rare moments UFA comes out with good stuff. Gosh the cap! Its awesome! If there is only one item that can be bought, this has to be it. I only like Ai's uchiwa and all three of AiGakiShige's shirts and microfibre towels have to be purchased! Notice Risa's hair is the lighter shade as compared to the uchiwa. I guess this means the pictures were taken at different periods. I adore Ai-chan's outfit in here. The little bowtie adds on to her overall cuteness =) Oh Sayu has a bowtie too =D and Gaki's outfit isn't too shabby either. Kyaaaaa~! I also need the individual photo sets of AiGakiShige! They are all so beautiful! The group photo sets look nice too and it's only because of these three =x And after buying a truckload of stuff, it's only right if they are placed inside the shopping bag to be carried home xD The theme this time seems more kiddish. Is it to cater to 9th gen? I prefer sexy but since Ai makes most themes look good I can still accept this =P Sigh, Ai Believe... the mere mention of the title makes a part of me die inside. I'm gonna miss one Takahashi Ai =(...
Saw a pic of AiGaki on stage from the current tour and it made me sad! Ai looked like she was crying and it made me tear too. I thought Risa put on more weight and was relieved that she didn't continue down her scary weight lost route. But apparently fans who attended the concert commented that she was way too thin. Nooooo! I don't want Gaki-san to remain like this?! She must go back to her healthy BMI soon or it could really harm her health =(
Saw a pic of AiGaki on stage from the current tour and it made me sad! Ai looked like she was crying and it made me tear too. I thought Risa put on more weight and was relieved that she didn't continue down her scary weight lost route. But apparently fans who attended the concert commented that she was way too thin. Nooooo! I don't want Gaki-san to remain like this?! She must go back to her healthy BMI soon or it could really harm her health =(
Saturday, September 3, 2011
A string of pb pics were posted on Ai's blog and they mostly look beautiful. Really envy her manager for getting to take such photos of her. Love her in the white dress which is too gorgeous. Those fluffy things, are they a hair accessory? They remind me of ear muffs people wear during cold season ^^; The bikini shot was o.O I can only say wow wee..
Why is it that I check AiGaki's blogs multiple times a day and Sayu's once every few day when I like Sayumi more than Ai-chan? Never understood that.
Is Risa the lead in that new musical? Hope that isn't her hairstyle for the actual play. There will be a DVD for this right? I'm annoyed that I can't get AiGaki play DVD. No Ai, Sayu and Aika tour either. And mm DVD 36-38 nor Eri graduation related stuff. Multiupload hates me and I hate it too.
Why is it that I check AiGaki's blogs multiple times a day and Sayu's once every few day when I like Sayumi more than Ai-chan? Never understood that.
Is Risa the lead in that new musical? Hope that isn't her hairstyle for the actual play. There will be a DVD for this right? I'm annoyed that I can't get AiGaki play DVD. No Ai, Sayu and Aika tour either. And mm DVD 36-38 nor Eri graduation related stuff. Multiupload hates me and I hate it too.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Risa has a new hair color. At first i thought it was the light in her blog pics. Now i know its for real and it looks strange. Im certain Ai and Eri had It before. Possibly Reina too and they didn't look bad. So why Gaki-san? I guess not everyone suits the color? And why are you so skinny?! Please don't be overly stressed. H!P and MM won't ever return to it's peak and no one should blame you for it. Nor Ai-chan. The two 5th gens have done too much to be targeted for the disappointing sales and lack of media exposure. Oh and she changed her parting too. Used to be on the right along with Ai and Eri while Sayu and Reina had it on the left. I always wondered which side looked better on which girl and I still can't really decide.
There is this short hair craze going around. Ikuta and now Mano too. Makes me go 0.O
DX is perhaps one of my more liked recent concerts. A lot of new songs are sang and a couple of oldies. I think having the 5 senior members in the spotlight more makes it better. But I still wish it was Eri in it instead of Aika or even Reina. 5 people just somehow looks right on the stage. Pity it will never be.
There is this short hair craze going around. Ikuta and now Mano too. Makes me go 0.O
DX is perhaps one of my more liked recent concerts. A lot of new songs are sang and a couple of oldies. I think having the 5 senior members in the spotlight more makes it better. But I still wish it was Eri in it instead of Aika or even Reina. 5 people just somehow looks right on the stage. Pity it will never be.
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