A Bean and her Pet

Kame eating spicy senbei and making the most adorable expressions and actions. LOL at her whacking Gaki on the arm as made continuous itai noises :D

This isn't the only time I've seen Risa rubbing her nose in such an ungirly fashion XD I guess I should want her to stop doing that but then, I kinda find it cute? ^^; What can I say, I love every aspect of the bean.

I don't know why I found the interaction between KameMame similar to an owner and her pet? It's like Risa is the owner getting her pet doggie (or turtle in this case XD) to taste a new treat. The end result is the pet Kame not liking the tidbit and making all sorts of whiny sounds about it XD AWWWWWWWWWWWW the ultra kawaii turtle bean bag pair. *Sobs* I miss seeing them together.

It's a good thing there is a somewhat regular dose of AiGaki recently. I should write a post about these sweet couple soon. Ahhh mac mac, please get well soon. I can't live without you. My MM fandom depends on you a lot so hurry and recover! XD

A nice OPV featuring darling Eri. Although I can't agree with how H!O bans users, I admire the Kame fans who still post in her thread. The turtle might be gone for now, but she'll be back one day. And until then, we (loyal Eririn fans) will be waiting.

Never My Intention

Never My Intention


The ominous roar of thunder startled her and she looked up unwittingly to stare at the overcast sky. The gray fluffy clouds blocked out the sun and gave all below it a gloomy atmosphere. Much like the depressing weather, she was feeling miserable and in low spirits. The only heartening emotion she felt was from the reassuring warmth emitting from the arm latched tightly around her own. Glancing to her right, she saw the jubilant face of fellow member and close friend, Niigaki Risa.

“We should do this more often.”

Talking to no one in particular, Risa was voicing her thoughts of how she felt after the preceding couple of hours they had spent together. Since the early afternoon, they had visited the trendiest shops selling the season’s most fashionable clothing, tasted some renowned curry, took a walk in the park where Sakura petals floated down all around them and taken some colorful purikura while pulling a bunch of funny faces. It was indeed a relaxing day well spent with no rushing about for performances practices, television recordings or costume fittings.

“Hm.”

Her answer was short and didn’t even constitute a word. Her less than enthusiastic answer not only surprised Risa, but herself as well. The enquiring look consisting of a quirked eyebrow and questioning glance spoke volumes and she looked away to avoid answering Risa. She didn’t know why she was behaving like this. The day was a usual one for them and she almost always felt blissful to have someone like Risa there to spend it with. Sure, the girl could be loud, noisy and boisterous. But she knew when to tone it down and could be a good listener when she wanted to be. A prime example was when she was recently embroiled in a tabloid issue that was thankfully rather low profile. The topic was based on a relationship she had ongoing whist starting out in the industry, or so the magazine claimed. While it didn’t warrant any drastic measures by the company, it didn’t make her feel any better. She was fortunate to have had good friends who stood by her and comforted her when she needed it most. And she would never forget it.

“I’m sorry. I was distracted.”

It wasn’t entirely a lie, and Risa seemed to accept it with no further comments. And so the matter was left to be. As her friend turned to speak with the other figure walking on the far end, she noticed how sweetly Risa was smiling. The object of her attention was their leader and the undisputed talent of the group, Takahashi Ai.

-----

The rain was falling in huge torrent like drops that splattered against the window of the speeding cab. Inside the cozy compartment, two feminine figures sat sharing the backseat. There was silence as neither offered to speak. Unexpectedly, the driver wasn’t talkative nor did he try any lame pick-up lines on the attractive girls. The only sound came from the crackly radio and the splash of water as the vehicle’s wheels rolled over puddles of water.

“Toshiyuki! There has been a pileup along the Tokyo Highway.”

“What happened?”

The driver’s voice was evidently laced with gratefulness at not being one of those involved in the disaster.

“Some new driver turned into the wrong lane..”

“New drivers, they always manage to cause problems for others.”

In the front, the driver slapped at his steering wheel agitatedly as he turned into a side road that led to the girls’ destination. At the back, one of them started rummaging through her bag and throwing out random items in the process.

“What are you looking for Eri?”

Becoming aware of her sudden and frantic actions, her companion voiced her concern at Eri’s pale face.

“My phone! I can’t find it!”

“Did you leave it at the restaurant?”

Shifting in her seat, Ai tried to see if the phone had accidentally slipped between the seats or if it had fallen onto the vehicle floor.

“Lend me yours! Hurry!”

The emergency in Eri’s voice made Ai fish out her own device hurriedly and pass it to Eri’s shaking hands.

“Are you alright Eri? Did something happen?”

Punching at the illuminated buttons, Eri brought the earpiece to her ear and waited anxiously for the line to connect.

“The subscriber you can calling is unable to…”

“I can’t get her! I can’t contact Gaki-san!”

“What are you saying Eri? Calm down.”

Grabbing onto Eri’s hands, Ai pulled the younger girl closer in an attempt to calm her down. Eri’s behavior frightened her but she had to maintain her composure and act like a reliable, mature woman in front of her teammate.

“Tell me what’s wrong.”

“I think Gaki-san could be involved in that accident.”

Pointing to the radio, Eri’s eyes turned red and her eyes glazed over with tears as she spoke.

“Gaki-san’s going to Azabu. She wouldn’t have to pass through the expressway.”

Patting Eri’s lap, Ai gave her a reassuring smile. So Eri was worried about Risa. That would explain her strange reaction earlier. However the episode was uncalled for since Risa was safe being nowhere near the accident area.

“She lied.”

“What?!”

“She was going to get your birthday present, not collect her mother’s laundry. She would have to pass through the highway.”

A sick feeling of dread surged up within Ai. The rocking of the cab along with the trepidation of what Eri had said made her feel like puking. Gripping onto the side of the seat, Ai dug her fingers into the soft leather material. Eri’s words kept repeating in her mind and she couldn’t shake the premonition that something bad was going to happen.

It couldn’t, Gaki-san couldn’t have…

Squeezing her eyes shut, Ai contemplated her choices. She could go home and wait for Risa to call her like she always did, or she could make her way to the highway and see for herself that Risa wasn’t any where in danger. Looking at Eri, who had by now brought her knees up to her chest and had her head buried in them, Ai made her decision.

“Please head for Tokyo highway.”

-----

The line of cars went on for miles due to the traffic jam caused by the pileup. In their taxi, Ai and Eri couldn’t see what was happening in the front. Their anxiety was only made worse by the heavy rain beating against the roof of the vehicle and the conversation going on between the driver and his colleague.

“I heard it’s pretty serious. There’s a rumor that a talent or something was one of the passengers.”

Hearing those words, Eri gasped loudly and a fresh round of tears entered her eyes. She looked at Ai with an expression that pleaded for her to do something, anything in the current situation. Her own thoughts in a mess, Ai tried to determine the most appropriate course of action. Except that Risa wasn’t by her side, and she needed her. In her daily life, Ai couldn’t function properly without Risa giving her suggestions or helping her out. Now she felt helpless, she felt lost, but most of all, she felt scared.

You have to be alright Gaki-san. You have to be.

Pulling at the lever to release the door, Ai pushed it open and got out of the car. Outside, the world seemed to be colored in a single shade of gray as the rain and darkened sky meshed as one. In her relatively high boots, Ai started to run. She sprinted with all her strength towards the start of the line of cars where the accident had occurred. Focusing solely on reaching her destination quickly, she cleared her mind so nothing could sway her resolve or hinder her pace. She couldn’t hear Eri screaming at the back for her to slow down or the bursts of honking by the cars stranded on the highway at rush hour. All she could hear was Risa’s familiar and distinctive voice.

I will always be here for you Ai-chan. Whenever you need me.

-----

The scene was absolutely horrifying. The masses of wrecked metal, smell of burnt flesh and splintering of glass beneath her feet made Ai feel queasy. She wanted to turn back and leave the scene of such violent destruction. It wasn’t a place she should be in. But then again, it wasn’t a place Risa should be in either. Yes, she was here to locate Risa, and she wasn’t leaving without her.

“Ai-chan.”

Out of nowhere, Eri appeared beside her and held on to her coat. Together, they made their way cautiously to the nearest cab. The mangled sedan lay on its side, every piece of glass shattered by the impact of the crash. Lowering her head to peer into the interior, Ai heaved a silent sigh of relief that Risa wasn’t in it. Two more futile attempts later, Ai was beginning to think that perhaps Eri was wrong after all. And Risa never came this way.

“Ai-chan…it’s.. Gaki-san’s purse.”

Bending down to reach for the sequined object, Ai recognized it as one of Risa’s favorite purses. Nevertheless she refused to believe it belonged to her dear friend. A design like this was common and very popular, there was a high chance that it belonged to some other woman. Even so, the telling evidence was the little Mickey Mouse ornament dangling from the handle and the yellow letter R hanging below it.

No… This can’t be true.

Holding the torn and filthy bag in her hands, Ai cried. For the first time since hearing about the accident, she let go. Keeping up the image of leader was no longer important, singing and dancing well was no longer vital. Nothing mattered anymore. Because the only thing that truly mattered, is no longer here.

“Ai-chan you can’t give up! Gaki-san wouldn’t give up!”

There was renewed vigor in Eri’s voice. The turtle girl was only in name. In reality, Eri was more outgoing than she ever was. The new her was a result of Morning Musume, a product of self-confidence and a consequence of having Risa around. Since GAKIKAME commenced, Eri found herself hanging out more frequently with her senior. To her, Risa was a good friend, someone as important as Sayumi was. And she wasn’t going to believe that Risa was a person who would go down without a fight. Braving the relentless rain, Eri continued scouring the surroundings for any sign of Risa.

I’m gonna chase you to the ends of the world Gaki-san.

Walking apprehensively up to the last overturned automobile, Eri prayed. God wouldn’t be so cruel as to take Risa away from them, from her. On the other side, sitting on the curb and holding onto her arm, was Risa.

“GAKI-SAN!”

Running to kneel down before her, Eri enveloped Risa in a smothering hug. Tears sprung once more from her already swollen eyes.

“Promise me you’ll never get hurt. Promise me you’ll never fall sick. Promise me that you’ll never leave me!”

“Pokepoke pu, I’m fine.”

With her good arm, Risa hugged Eri back. The joy of feeling Risa’s arm around her waist was indescribable and Eri didn’t want to ever let go. Only she had to.

“Ai-chan.”

“Gaki-san...”

Reluctantly moving aside, Eri made way for Ai to hug Risa. Seeing their contact with each other, the identical sense of despair she felt earlier in the day came flooding back. Ai had practically attached herself onto Risa without leaving any inch of space between them. Her hands had somehow come into contact with Risa’s wound, which made the youngest of the fifth generation wince. But other than that, Risa didn’t seem to mind being caught in Ai’s rigid embrace. There was no exchange of words but it was clear that none was needed.

It was still raining and the cold rain seeped beneath her clothes and cooled her exhausted body. Her hair was a mess and so was her make-up. But Eri didn’t care about those insignificant details. Standing apart from her seniors, she finally realized the cause for her dejected disposition.

The clothes she saw today weren’t as stunning as they should be. The meal she had and the Sakura she saw weren’t as tasty or breathtaking as they should’ve been. Today wasn’t a usual one for her, nor was it enjoyable simply because, Ai was there. It shouldn’t have happened but it did.

It was never my intention, but I fell in love with you, Niigaki Risa.

Room In My Heart

Room in My Heart [Sakura Mankai Edition]

It was early morning on a particular day and the sun shone down with rays of the early spring sun. Nonetheless the skies have yet to brighten fully. Having rained the night before, a thin veil of mist hung in the air achieving a foggy atmosphere. Walking along the path weaving through the deserted and tranquil park, Niigaki Risa hummed a Morning Musume song softly as she swung the small paper bag in her hand to be in step with her movements.

It looks to be a beautiful day.

Her thoughts were however interrupted by the melodious chimes emitting from the cell phone buried snugly in her coat pocket.

Who could be calling this early?

Baffled, Risa reached one hand into the said pocket and searched for the gadget among the wades of money she had stuffed in previously. When she finally managed to fish out the small silver object, the picture that lighted on the external screen told her who the person messaging was. Flicking the phone open with one hand, Risa read the short message.

Ne Gaki-san where are you? I’m already at the studio and I’m early!

Smiling slightly as she imagined Eri’s triumphant grin saying those words, Risa typed a quick reply with her carefully manicured thumb in response to her childish friend.

I was at the studio before and now I’m outside getting our breakfast I got you milk bread. Since I’m earlier, you are still considered late Kame

Her phone sounded again no sooner after Risa had taken a few more steps along the narrow pebble path.

Why, why, WHY? How could Gaki-san be earlier? It’s not fair! Where are you anyway?

At the park nearby, I’ll be back soon. Don’t get all whiny on me again all right?

Shaking her head and laughing, Risa was visibly amused by Eri’s cute and funny messages. Interaction with Eri first thing in the morning could put a person in high spirits. It was amazing how Eri possessed the natural ability to make someone happier just by existing in the same realm. Be it her words, actions or funny expressions, they all had a heartening effect on everyone around. Perhaps this was why Eri was so constantly popular among all members (and ex-members) of the group. Even the notorious Fujimoto Miki loved having Eri around.

Parallel and across from where Risa was standing, a lone figure was walking towards the same clearing where the sub-leader of Morning Musume was headed. Every park that saw Sakura trees bloom had a special area designated for admiring the flowers. It was unplanned but Takahashi Ai had overheard the morning news on the radio that her mother had left blasting in the kitchen. Listening in to the chirpy voice of the announcer, she was enlightened with the knowledge that the Sakura trees were flowering early this year and today was the highly anticipated first bloom.

Thrilled that it happened to be her day off work, Ai decided it would be befitting to catch the trees in full bloom since it was such a rare occasion. At the unearthly hour, there weren’t many people up and about and Ai knew this. Hence she didn’t bother putting on make-up or drawing her eyebrows painstakingly. All she did was pull a hat low over her eyes to hide her recognizable face from overzealous fans. At last inside the compound, Ai saw a single flower float leisurely pass her eyes.

Ah, it’s starting. The trees are beginning to blossom!

Quickening her steps, Ai hurried towards the center of the park where the strategic clearing lay and prepared herself mentally for getting to soon observe the thousands of Sakura flowers falling simultaneously. However, less than a kilometer away, Ai stopped abruptly in her tracks when she thought she saw someone familiar.

Gaki-san?

Seeing the image of her long time friend and teammate, Ai at once recalled that Risa had a radio recording to do this morning. And the location was none other than the building in close proximity to this very park. Why didn’t she think of inviting Risa along to watch the first bloom? It made sense since like herself, Risa loved the Sakura and was almost always especially excited when spring rolled around. Except for the fact that she had an adverse allergy to pollen, which required her to wear a mask and carry medication around faithfully.

Yes, she would call out to Risa when she got nearer and they could spend some time alone together taking pleasure from the customary Japanese tradition. Even so, fate seemed resolved to play with the alluring young woman, and unfortunately, Ai didn’t have the slightest inkling that what started out as a cheerful day would end with her feeling much worse that she had in a long time.

“Gaki…san.”

Her words came out barely louder than a whisper and the excitement that she had felt earlier before vanished in a matter of seconds when Ai saw the sequence of events unfolding before her eyes. She didn’t know why but her first reaction was to dart behind the nearest Sakura tree and hide herself from the unsuspecting pair further ahead.

“Ne, Ne Gaki-san!!”

Her eyes wide with surprise, Risa twirled around rapidly when she heard a voice she had become highly accustomed to.

“Kame?! What are you doing here?”

“To accompany you of course. It’s not very fun watching the first bloom by yourself is it?”

Latching herself onto Risa’s free arm, Eri snuggled up closer to feel the warmth of her newest best friend. The chilly morning air could get pretty cold even during this time of the year.

“Kame being considerate, that’s a first.”

Raising her head to gaze at the tiny flowers that had began to flutter in the soft breeze, Risa closed her eyes to savor the moment. It wasn’t every day that you could be lucky enough to observe the first bloom.

With one of her senses inactive, naturally the rest would be put on high alert. Beside her, Risa could feel Eri shivering. It was just like Eri to not wear thicker clothing to keep herself warm. She was reaching twenty years of age and yet she was still behaving like a child most of the time. No one would have guessed that the two were of the exact same age.

Freeing herself from Eri’s hold, Risa spread open both arms to wrap the younger in an affectionate embrace, after which she proceeded to rub her down in an attempt to keep Eri warm.

“Ne, Gaki-san this feels nice.”

Closing her eyes and inching to eliminate all and any distance between them, Eri smiled contentedly into the front of Risa’s down-filled coat. The early morning, cool surroundings and lying in the arms of a warm huggy bean was the perfect environment for falling asleep. Sensing her eyelids growing heavy with each passing second, Eri didn’t try to resist the drowsiness that was creeping up upon her.

“Don’t even think of falling asleep Kame. We have to get back to the studio in a bit.”

“Hmmm…”

The lazy turtle girl didn’t try replying much, she was enjoying tremendously every instant of this wondrous feeling to bother with anything else.

Away from the two, Ai witnessed the entire turn of events. She didn’t want to think that way or admit it but nevertheless, she felt her stomach twist into tiny little knots and her breathing relegate into short sharp gasps. Risa was aware of their similar interests and the fact that she had a day off today. Why didn’t she ask her along to watch the Sakura? Instead she had come with Eri, ERI!.

Staring at the oldest Rokkie who had by now undoubtedly fallen asleep in Risa’s arms, Ai inadvertently started to grind her teeth.

It should’ve been me! Perhaps if I had been quicker to confess…

Casting her eyes downwards, Ai stared hard at the ground until the numerous pebbles started blending into each other to form a blurry mesh of gray. The tears rolling down her face stung with each draft of the bitter wind and the resulting smarting pain on her cheeks echoed what she felt in her heart.

Fill the room in my heart soon, Gaki-san. Don’t let me forget how much I love you.

Why Are We Still Friends

Why Are We Still Friends


"Mou Kame, stop walking so fast!"

There was a reversal of roles as the one leading the pair was the usually sluggish member of the group.

"Gaki-san!"

She called out in her distinct voice which carried a slight whiny tone as she folded her arms to pout cutely at me.

"If you continue lagging like this, we won't be able to finish visiting all the shops in the mall."

With my mouth hanging open, the very astonished sub-leader of Morning Musume aka me, could only gap in disbelief at the tone which was being taken. Aren't I normally the one nagging at her to speed up?

"I understand if you want to finish looking at everything but there is still another two hours to go till 4 pm."

Jogging back to where I was standing with an annoyed expression, the taller girl (unfortunately she was taller by a few centimeters) pouted again as she tugged on my arm.

"Come on Gaki-san. I don't want to be late when I meet Reina later."

"Okay, fine. Whatever you say Kame."

Allowing Eri to drag me along as she resumed her brisk walking, I looked away and pretended to be peering at the items on display in the numerous glitzy shop windows. In actuality, I was hiding my downcast expression. Eri had a sharp eye when it came to detecting whether someone was feeling upset and I didn't want to have to start explaining the reason for my current depressed mood. After all, a love confession wasn't the easiest thing in the world to talk about.

-----

"Kawaii~!"

Picking up a bath towel with the image of ? printed on it, you muttered as you ran your hand over the soft material.

"I'm getting this!"

No sooner had you proclaimed your decision, you caught sight of a hand written sign which stated that all the towels in the basket were on offer. There was a 2 for 1 special deal and the savings amount was quite substantial.

"I don't really need 2 towels. I guess I won't be getting it then."

You put back the pink color towel with a forlorn expression and I immediately noticed how reluctant you were to leave the shop.

"I could get a towel too."

"Hontoni? Gaki-san!"

Grabbing once again onto my arm, you leaned your head on my shoulder before rubbing your cheek against it. You didn't know but this simple action was enough to make me melt into a puddle of goo. It's clear I've got it bad for you.

"That will be (?) yen thank you."

You were standing to the side waiting for me to make payment when a jingle sounded from your purse. Your entire face lit up with anticipation and you excitedly accessed the message to read its contents.

"This is your change. Please come again!"

Tearing my line of sight away from you, I collected the money from the cashier to keep in my wallet. When I was done, I walked up to you. This time, you no longer had that happy aura about you.

"What's wrong?"

-----

The little cafe wasn't that crowded on this weekday afternoon and we managed to get a seat in the corner by the window overlooking to the street below. Sitting opposite one another, I watched you sip your drink in silence. You alternated between drinking the soda and chewing on the straw. You were in a daze and I knew your present state was due to the message you had received. Reaching over to pick up your cellphone which had been absentmindedly placed on the table, I flipped it open.

"Tanakacchi probably has something important to see to."

Trying to come up with a convincing explanation for Reina's third consecutive no show in this week, I patted your hand which was gripping onto the glass. Nevertheless, my efforts at consoling you did nothing to ease the hurt that you were feeling. At that moment, I wished I had the ability to take away all your pain, that I could be the one to make you smile again.

Ignoring my own beverage which was fast becoming cold, I got out of my seat and slithered into the small booth beside you. Bringing you close to me, I let you cling onto me as you sobbed. I did not try to wipe the tears from your eyes because I knew if I so much as took a single glance at how sad your beautiful face was right now, my resolve would crumble and I’ll end up telling you how much I really loved you.

"I'm sorry to have wasted your day like this."

You were referring to calling me out at the last minute with the promise of shopping together and not going through with that promise. You didn't know that I didn't mind just sitting here letting you weep into my chest because you meant so much more to me than being able to complete some pointless shopping.


We do almost everything
That lovers do
And that why's it's hard
Just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know
That it hurts me too
It's hard to wipe your tears away
Knowing that you should be with me


After an indeterminable length of time, you finally stopped crying and tore yourself away from my soaked shirt.

"Gomene Gaki-san. Your clothes are a mess."

"Daijoubu Kame-han."

Giving you a small smile, I tried to make you feel better by calling out your latest nickname which we had thought up for each other.

"Arigatou Gaki-san. You're always here when I need someone by my side. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you as a friend."

Although the smile on my face remained intact, my heart was feeling terrible. It was as if someone had reached into my chest and was pulling on my heart, twisting and turning it until I could no longer breath. This sensation was all too familiar to me as I have ever experienced it before. It was precisely because of this that I didn't want to go through it again. Yet, I fell in love for the second time and once again, it was with somebody who would never reciprocate my feelings.


Now tell me why, why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why
Every time I find someone that I like
We always end up just being friends

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"Take a nice hot bath when you get home and don't dwell on it anymore."

We were standing at the entrance of your apartment building as I had insisted on sending you home. Nodding back at me, you waved before spinning around on your heel and pushing open the glass doors. Watching your retreating back, I had the sudden urge to tell you something.

"Kame!"

"Huh? What is it?"

Turning around to face me, you asked unsure.

Why don't you leave Tanakacchi? There is someone who cherishes you more.

Nonetheless, those words didn't leave my lips. A part of me wanted you to end your relationship with Reina and realize that I have been here all along. But another side of me was afraid that you would run to Sayumin after the breakup. She was so much closer to you as compared to me and I was certain she would treasure you more than Reina. If that happened, you would no longer need me. I would lose the role of being the person whom you could call on at random times to hang out with you.


I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love
Cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway
Somehow someway I've got to choose
(Got to choose) No matter if it's win or lose

"Good night."

"Good night Gaki-san."

In the end, all I could muster was an ordinary greeting. Sometimes I really hated myself for being so cowardly. Why couldn't I just come out and say it? Why couldn't I have been the one to tell you about my affections instead of Tanakacchi?

You walked up to the elevator and pressed on the button, not realizing that I hadn't left despite of the frosty winds that I was subjected to while standing out in the street. I stayed until you vanished inside the elevator before I departed.



Now tell me why, why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than what we are
And tell me why
Every time I find someone that I like
We always end up just being friends


-----

*Random Melody*

I fished out my cellphone when I heard jingle of my new message alert emit from my cellphone.

Are you on the way home? Let me know when you arrive okay? Oyasumi Gaki-han!

A smile crept onto my face as I read the short message. It consisted of only a few sentences but it was enough for me. You were never someone who relished in sending text messages thus receiving one from you was almost as rare as seeing a meteor shower.

I just entered my house. How is your bath? Don't fall asleep inside the tub again.


Yada Gaki-han! Stop making fun of me. Did you forget what happened at the concert? You paid for my meals again today as I forgot to bring enough money. Going out with you is better than with my siblings.

The screen of my phone lit up for a third time and I let my arm fall back to my side after reading your last message.

Good night for real Gaki-han. My eyelids are getting heavy...

I knew you would undoubtedly have fallen asleep by this time. Raising my head to look at your bedroom window, I saw the lights go out. Your mother must have switched them off after coming in to check on you. You tended to fall asleep leaving everything on.

After another ten minutes of staring at a pitch black window, I at last left the sidewalk which I have been loitering on all this time. I had lied about my whereabouts. While you were snug and warm at home, I had been battling the freezing temperatures as I stood beneath your apartment.

I don't know why I did this every time I saw you home. I just knew I didn't want to be too far away from you. I know I'm being silly to think like this but I couldn't help it. I didn’t want you to see me as a sibling or another good friend.

"Can you ever let me into your life as someone other than a dependable senpai?"


I don't wanna be like your brother
I don't wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end?
If I told you that I wanna be in your life?
Then you could be the woman in mine


I didn't realize that I had unknowingly typed that line into my phone. Deciding that it didn't matter since no one would be seeing it, I added another sentence.

I want to be more than a friend to you Kame.


(Why) Why are we just friends?


No sooner had I finished typing that, the sound of screeching tires exploded in my ears and I looked up just in time to see the headlights of a car coming straight at me...

Cover Songs by GakiKame

GakiKame desu~! XD Okay, that has no relation to anything but I just wanted to shout it out :P

I have liked this song by Tanpopo since a long time ago. But I didn't expect it to sound just as good with only one person singing. The title in English is 'the night the holy bell rings' and there is a line in it about illumination aka Xmas lights. This immediately reminded me of that pic on Gaki's blog where AiGaki were standing under some beautiful lights in the street. I think the bean wrote that she asked Ai to go admire the lights with her? Or was it the other way round? Whichever it may be, I'm just glad they went together. The whole image of it is just incredibly romantic to me. Personally I think it would be an awesome experience to walk with the person you like while soaking in the Xmas season :)

Another line, 'may love last forever', I truly hope it is what happens for Mr and Mrs Niigaki :P

聖なる金がひびく夜

For Kame's solos, I have not heard all of them. Out of the 3, I like them in this order. I thank the person who uploaded them otherwise I would not be able to hear them at all. Ojou 3 + Rika sang this before for one of the old H!P concerts and I loved it. I even showed it to a friend who isn't into H!P. And she agreed it was good. She could have been patronizing me but I'm still happy to hear that comment ^^;

香水

A classic Ayaya song. One which I used to play to death. So imo, it's another great choice by the turtle ^_^

LOVE涙色

Ahhhh this song. This one gives me mixed feelings. Risa sang it on 'Hello Pro Hour'. I thought it was just okay? But she did look gorgeous in it so I think that made me like it a lot more :P

恋の花

I'm probably gonna get ignored for the next few days or scolded for writing this but you 2 idiots! Go see a f***ing doctor already! I'm so damn pissed that you gals are so freaking stubborn/disobedient. Take a couple of days MC, stay at home and rest so you can recover fast. Why put yourself through needless torture? And don't tell me there isn't a need to visit the doc, you won't recover fast anyway etc. Follow the damn instructions strictly and you'll be good to go in no time. Don't throw this back at me cuz it's not the same scenario.

I wish I could tie you 2 to the bed and make sure you eat proper meals of the right food and medication. And no! I didn't mean it in a hentai way XD

And to you overseas person you (the one who told me that the weather is getting unpredictable and many people are falling sick), if you are also unwell, you better take better care of yourself or I'm gonna scold you too.

AHHHHHHHHHH, I'm so annoyed...

Gaki-san in Brown...

Brown hair that is :P Looks like she dyed her hair a lighter shade of brown :) So pretty!!

Thoughts were supposed to accompany this set of Gaki blog pics. But as I don't have the time to do so now, I'll have to come back and edit later ^^; Something more important has to be done right now. Hee hee. So for the moment, just enjoy the adorable Mame.

I said I was going to include comments about these pics and now I'm finally gonna do it XD

I couldn't stop laughing at this.. I mean, WHAT?!?! lol. Seeing her head in this shape reminds me of something. But I shan't say it here :P

I like her outfit here. And the way she tilts her head too. Gosh, this must be love huh? XD

KAMEMAME!!! *squeals* Looks liek these 2 swapped hair colours? I still prefer Eri with the lighter shade of brown. But she's still pretty. I heart her :D As for the bean, she looks good with any hair colour. And nope, I'm not being biased here hehe.

Duck lips spotted!! And plastic frames as well. Did her wifey influence her in terms of fashion now?

How nice if I could be that meat she's eating XD Is that meat? Or something else? Hmmm...

Oh man, if she doesn't stop being so adorable, I'm gonna do something drastic soon XD

K4!!! It's K4!! My top 4 members in MM. I think Sayumi and Ai switched hair accessories? But I can't remember if it was this pic or another ^^;

Almost the same pose? But I don't mind. She still looks way adorable in them. Lucky blanket there *is jealous*

I never got why Starbucks coffee is so popular. I find other brands nicer? And drinking coffee just makes me @@ Ahhh Gaki is wearing her white watch again. I wanna see her wear the gift from Ai!!

The bear that I want to think is a set with you know who's :P It looks like a very huggable bear doesn't it? I wonder if she prefers holding this or her Ai-chan XD

I have to admit, I don't know who the other person is. Kame?? Or Ai?? ^^;

OMGOSH! This is so rare! GakiShige is almost never seen. The bunny looks really pretty here *drools* Haha. She should be the spokeperson of some make up or something. Her looks are perfect for that.

Ooooh, I love such hats. Even better when a cute Gaki is wearing it :) Pouty lips for the win! Is that Oolong cha?

Is this the same outfit as the 2nd pic in this post? But the tshirt she is wearing inside looks different? Hmmm... Don't hide ya face! I wanna see ya cute lips :P

MM DVD Mag 34

Besides the girls all looking awesomely hot in the military and navy costumes and Gaki not being fat, what else is great about the current tour? The answer to that is DVD magazines 33 and 34!!

Because I got 34 first, I'll blog about it prior to 33.

This DVD was filmed as the girls were taking pictures for the 2011 calendar. Speaking of calendar, I'm pissed and worried! Why isn't mine here yet damnit!!! I hope it's not lost during the mailing process. It's Eri's last and these tend to sell out. Not to mention there are 2 sets in my order. God if I don't have it, I'M GONNA KILL SOMEONE!! KILL!!!

*takes deep breath*

Okay, I shall try to calm down by talking about good things. Good things like Sayumin. She looks yummy doesn't she? Yes, I can tell even when she's still far away XD

Here she's waving at you to come closer. Oh man, to be able to come right up to her is like a dream come true.

The gorgeous beauty staring at no one else but you *swoons* I'm pretty sure I forgot to breathe. Is that cleavage I see??! @@

GAH!! The smile... *dies* Personally I'm not a fan of moles. But something about the bunny's is really sexy :P It's begging to be kissed really =X

A somewhat moody shot? Or is it contemplating? Whatever it is, she still looks good.

Close up!

Next up is the turtle!

The one and only aho looking Kame :D She makes being blur so adorable. I heart Eririn!

I don't get why the phase 'if looks could kill' is always taken to be a bad thing. I don't mind being killed by one glance if it was like this one. She's oozing sexiness here. So hot I could melt XD

This scene makes people think in a dangerous way. Just look at that upshot. The sneaky camera people! Tsk *shakes head*

Eri tends to have this expression. I think it's the way she "makes" her mouth, for the lack of a better word. It's annoying on some people but when she does it, there can be no wrong XD

Now, who could this mystery person be? Nice legs by the way XD

AH HAR!! It's none other than the Mame princess! Looking mighty cute I must say :) I wanna pinch her cheeks :P Those on her face! Don't think dirty you perv XDDD

Another cute expression. What a great megawatt smile. I just love it when she wears hats. To me, she looks the best in them :D

Awww, what an adorable expression! I bet she's thinking.

Gaki: Neee...I wonder if Ai-chan will want to try out something new tonight...

I said I wasn't into moles right? But I am fond of eyes. Especially honey brown ones like Risa's. So pretty they are heavenly.

I don't know why but everything in this shot makes me love her more.

What's this? A forlorn looking leader? What the heck did you do again subu-chan?!!? :P

Oh but wait, is she breaking out into a small smile? Ahhh this must mean that you know who has found a way to get through to her. How nice if I had this talent as well.

I don't know what's running through Ai's mind here. I know what's going through mine though. How can someone be this perfectly pretty? It's probably cuz god isn't always fair? This is a fine example of talent with flawless beauty.

Oh no! Don't pout! Or you'll kill millions with it.

What did I just say huh? Are you bent on further depleting the world's already dwindling population?!

Hmmm, nice ring. Ai-chan has a nice collection of rings as I've come to notice. Not only do I want her wardrobe, I long for her accessories and of course the person that owns them all :P

Now that we've had a taste of the individual eye candy, it's time to move on to the fun segments :D

What does MMN stand for? Morning Musume Network, as Risa so cutely proclaims in her Japanese accented English :)

What came next made me squeal for joy. AIGAKI!!!

So it's finally my fav couple's turn to take pictures together. But an unexpected source of disturbance appears to ruin the moment. Thus, the gallant and brave Knight Risa grabs her princess and attempts to flee!

The 8kkies have come to interview them. Aika is being a pest (but an adorable one) by bullying Ai with the mic.

As the ever loving and protective bf, how can Gaki stand by and do nothing? Hence...

this happens XD

Because they are so in love that they can't bear to stay apart, Risa can't bring herself to let go of Ai so their hands remain entwined. They can't live without each other. Not now, not later, not ever :P

When it's time for the 5kkies to become interviewers. They wait for the perfect moment to spring the surprise attack!

Mame pulls a fast one with Kame. Hey, that kinda rhymes XD

And to take revenge, Eri stares at.....

Hmmm I wonder where XD

It's rare to see Ai playing a fool. I treasure this moment.

While she has fun, she can't help looking gorgeous.

And what's this?! Orange Crocs! Now I want a pair XD To be precise, I want the pair on Kame's feet :P

When it's the 6kkies turn, they end up fooling around. Can't say I'm surprised by this though XD They are a nutty bunch to begin with :P