Mame and Friends

2012-02-13T14:32:00.001+08:00

Sunshine fades and shadows fall
But sweet remembrance outlasts all

I want to believe this but can I really?

The Last Goodbye...

2012-02-12T13:18:00.002+08:00

When will we see you again?
You should have taken us along.
That scene will forever remain in my mind.

2012-02-08T20:57:00.002+08:00

I won't ever forget this day, this time, and how you had to leave us behind.

Sayumi's First Kiss

2012-01-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

Well, technically it's her first one with a boy since all of her past kisses were with the other members. The majority of those were with Ai xD Strangly I didn't scream, yell or start throwing plushies around the room when I saw that pic of her smooching the actor in her latest drama. I think the reason I was so calm was because of the angle that they took that screen cap. We can't really see her face thus there is a strong likelihood that they didn't really kiss. It was just the angle and a very common camera trick.

I'm gonna just go with that theory and ignore the possibility that the bunny was actually enjoying that scene. After all, any (normal) girl would love to lip lock with a cute guy. I don't think this guy was cute but I'm betting that Sayu thinks so.

Now that princess Sayumin (I don't know why I'm calling her that) has advanced on to skin / body contact, I wonder what her next project will entail. Hugging? A full blown make out scene or *gasp* a bed scene?! Yikes, I'm not looking forward to that but I guess I can't complain. Sayusuke is all of 22 and will be 23 years old in 2012. She's a big girl now and we can't expect her to remain pure and innocent can we. I just hope she ends up with a decent boy, someone good enough for her and who won't break her heart or make her wait. Geez, why am I getting melodramatic all of a sudden?? Must be the side effects ^^;

I wonder if I can remain just as calm as I am now when watching the scene in video form. It might be a good idea to keep all pointy and breakable objects away from arm's length xD

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我不要阿塔，我要你。
Can't believe I said that. A moment of insanity?? （ーー；）

Hye Mi x Baek Hee

2012-01-11T08:32:00.000+08:00

So far I'm okay with Eunjung paired up with (in no preference) Soo Hyun, Taecyeon and Jung Woo. BUT, I discovered that Hye Mi x Baek Hee is a rather popular coupling too. I don't know why it didn't occur to me earlier *whacks self over head* but they are really cute together as well.

Eunjung was so nice and considerate to post the below pic and message to garner more viewers for "Dream High." In the beginning the audiences' reception towards Suzy wasn't the best =(

“Thank you to everyone who watched ‘Dream High’! ♥ This is Yoon Baek Hee and Go Hye Mi’s best friend photo..!“

The ever playful Jungie also uploaded a picture of herself holding Suzy and tweeted, “Who do you think I’m hugging? Hoot. kekekeke. Hint: my girl _ _ _”

Moments later, Suzy commented, “kekekeke oppa (older brother) pose. Who is it who is it who is it”, playing on the fact that her eyes are covered in the picture.

Aren't these 2 cute together? In the drama, it seems like Hye Mi is the stronger party while Baek Hee is more vulnerable. So it would look like HM is the "guy" in the relationship and BH the girl. But in real life, Eun Jung could be the more boyish one who takes care of her. Check out her pose in the pic. Definitely very cool and man, lol.

Bonus clip of Baek Hee singing. Her voice is better than good =) Nice song too so double =) which equates to =D

What Next??

2012-01-10T19:32:00.006+08:00

I shall just jump right in and ramble on about stuff since I don't know how I should properly "open" this entry. So here goes...

I feel that things would change drastically after Risa is gone. Since I don't follow the newer generations that much, I can't say for sure that there is a voice among those kids which can replace hers. But just imagining it is hard. I really can't see any of them stepping up and filling the void would be leaving. It was hard to fill Eri's shoes, and now it's just ten times worst.

I guess Sayashi would be the one to take over Ai, as how the management has so obviously pushed for. But what about the members who were never the leads? People like KameMame and in future, Sayu? I have to say that things have been different ever since 2010 and it will only get more different.

4+ months left till the bean leaves... then what?? I know I'm gonna be aimless with a gaping space left within me. It's not so easy to let go of something you have been attached to for so long. I've started running this blog in 2008 and in the blink of an eye, it's 2012. To say that I've loved MM for so many years is not a lie, as I've been a mega fan of them even before 2008. I think around 2006 to be exact. Which means I've stayed with a single group for 6 years or more. Believe me, this is a major accomplishment for someone whom they say, has a horrible attention span.

I never expected myself to be so "faithful" and discovering MM and falling in love with them as well as much of H!P through these years made me realise many things. This big group of girls with various personalities brought me much laughter, joy, entertainment and smiles. But they also gave me a lot of heartache, quarrels and troubles. Strange you would think, as why would a girl group lead to so many things? But they did. And if you knew the full (and true) story of what happened to me as I followed MM (and H!P) as a huge fan, you would be stunned at my experiences.

Many times, I have wondered what my life would be like or how would it be different from how I know it if I didn't come across this Japanese girl group. For one, I would definitely be richer, have more space in my room and have made less enemies. I always thought that having a common like meant getting along and having fun together. But when differing opinions and preferences brought about ill feelings and silent distain, it ruined everything. Not to mention when more complicated things came into play. Humans, are funny creatures.

Towards the MM that I know and love, I have regrets. I couldn't attend their concerts in 3 different countries, I couldn't cry my heart out at the graduation concert of a member I love, and I couldn't hold their hands and thank them for all the happy times they brought me.

Why did it have to be May Gaki-san? Why did it have to be you?? If only you and Sayumi could graduate together in October and in a country outside of Japan. Then I would only be left with 1 regret out of the 3.

Alas, life never goes how we want it too. That's why the wise men say, don't rush in, don't get attached, and never ever fall in love.

Woojung Couple

2012-01-09T12:55:00.012+08:00

I've noticed a difference between Kpop and Jpop. Besides the music style, dance and costumes, Kpop fans are generally more accepting towards the couples that they like together. On the other hand, they can also be quite scary towards couples they dislike together.

Strangely, I seem to be able to accept my favourite Kpop singer put with guys than I can watch K4 with any guy ^^; I don't know why. Could it be that I don't like Jungie as much as I do K4? But I really really adore Jungie now. So that probably isn't the case.

I think the reason is how the Korean programs portray the couples. They make it impossible to dislike them. Or maybe, I like Jungie so much that I can like anything or anyone that comes into contact with her XD

It's obvious the hubby loves being around Eun Jung. He grabs every opportunity to cuddle her, kiss her, carry her, hug her, etc. Landing this variety show was the best thing that happened to him. Being able to be a couple with Jungie who is cute, pretty, adorable, fun, beautiful, humorous and more! *sigh* Lee Jung Woo, you are darn lucky!!

Helping the person you love dry her hair is one of the sweetest things ever. At least to me ^^; Poor Jungie was so tired till she couldn't help but doze off while filming ZIA's music video.

Jung Woo definitely got brownie points here for bending down to help Eun Jung zip her coat. Awww at how she hides her face against the pillar. Is there any action that this girl does which isn't cute?? She even looks adorable asleep =P

You should never make her cry Jung Woo! That's a cute plush you got for her. At least you did your homework. That's her fave character =)

I definitely prefer this PV to the original =P The creator is a genius! Eun Jung looks so pretty behind the car window in the rain. I'm seriously awestruck.

I think it's funny how Lee Jung Woo tried to hold Eun Jung's hand but she didn't oblige. Smart girl for using that method to not let him get his way. Jungie is such a smart and witty girl! =)

Goodbye My Little Omame...

2012-01-09T12:27:00.003+08:00

When the news about Risa graduating broke, I was a little skeptical about it's authenticity. After all, it has been barely 6 months since Ai left the group. I didn't think that the bean would graduate so soon. I thought that she would at least be leader for a year.

After the news was confirmed, it seemed that she had planned this all along. With Ai that is. Apparently they had wanted to graduate together. But after discussing, she had decided to stay behind until the newer members became more stable. I guess May this year is the time she thought that her presence was no longer needed. Yet I beg to differ. Even if the 9th gen were okay now, the 10th gen couldn't be independent yet could they?

Somehow I think Risa isn't too comfortable with singing and dancing songs like the recent release. She is 23 years old, 24 in 2012. Does she really want to continue performing such songs? Although I should be sad that Mame-chan will no longer be in MM, I can't say I'm overly depressed about this.

I don't know if it's because I've become somewhat numb with all the graduations. Or that this isn't a surprise with the one girl (or more) leaving pattern every year. But yes, I'm not killing myself over this. In fact, I don't feel as devastated about Risa graduating as compared to Koharu, Eri and Ai in the past.

Perhaps this is due to the current MM not being the one which I love. So even if she left, it wouldn't make a difference. In a way, I'm hoping for Sayumi to grad as well. Why can't they let GakiShige grad together. Then there will be closure for me.

With the amount of work Sayusuke has over the rest, I don't see how she can perform the tasks that comes with being leader. Maybe the company took this into consideration and will let Reina be leader instead. And that's the reason why the next leader hasn't been announced. I know Yossui and someone else ever remarked that the bunny would make a good leader. I don't doubt her capabilities, I just wonder if she would have the time and energy to do it, without KameMame by her side.

Will the little more than half a year period be enough for Sayumin to pick up everything that she has to know from Gaki-san if she indeed became the next leader? Only time will tell. But one thing's for sure, 2012 will be a new era for H!P. One that doesn't have both the MM and H!P leader as the same person. Will this new beginning be something good for the entire H!P? I hope so. Because even if all my favourite girls left, I don't want to see what they have worked so hard to create fail after they have gone.

Ganbatte in everything you do after graduating from MM Gaki-san. You are a special individual and no matter what some people might say, MM without you, isn't the same.

EunJi's Health

2012-01-02T15:58:00.013+08:00

Is it a coincidence that both Eun Jung and Ji Yeon have to go to the hospital at the end of the year? For 2011 it's a hurt ankle and almost collapsing due to fatigue. In the previous years it was a busted knee and dehydration.

Even more crazy incidents include falling off a horse or down the stairs. These girls work too hard. I'm positive if they weren't so tired all the time, such accidents won't happen as much =(

I wish they had the time to rest more. But I guess when you are one of the most popular and hottest idols at the moment, everyone wants a piece of you.

I just hope both of them get recover fast.

Ji Yeon looks like she is going to faint at any moment. She is so pale, almost as white as sheet. But I've got to hand it to her for making through the whole performance even if she couldn't do the same for the "We were in love" perf after this.

I was seriously worried when JY stood behind Hwa Young with her head bent low. She normally looks all cool at that part of the song. When she put her hand to her head (while standing behind Hyomin), I suspect she already couldn't take it then. Cuz this girl doesn't like her hair messy. So she wouldn't make it messy for no reason ^^;

Hyomin looks so different from usual in the sense that she seems harried. Usually she's the composed one. I think all the members knew beforehand that JY wasn't feeling well. The part where she signaled to the dancer, I think she was telling him to watch out for JY fainting and grabbing her before she hit the floor. I like a HY who is concerned for JY. She shot up for me because of this =) So she gets forgiven for swinging a light bulb around, lol. Just kidding =P

Later when JY did that sliding move, I thought she wouldn't be able to get up, but she did. My admiration for her sky-rocked then.

The hanky part and when JY removed her jacket, again you can tell that she's at her limit. She didn't even have the strength to toss her jacket behind nor couldn't she bend low for the dance. I'm surprised she could even sashay out and still look incredibly cool doing it.

From her eyes, it's clear how tired she is. That sheen of sweat on her forehead makes it all the more obvious. There were quite a couple of times she looked like she would just fall over or faint. *heart breaks* =(....

My heart was in my mouth again when she put the back of her hand against her forehead. I know that's part of the dance, but somehow, it just doesn't feel right. I expected her to fall during those moments. Somewhat like what happened to Krystal from f(x). If she did, I doubt we will get to see this perf as it would most probably be pulled.

But luckily when the song ended, she seemed a little bit better. Gosh, Ji Yeon-ah, please please please don't be so weak! You don't know how many hearts are in pain seeing you like this ^^;

Man, I typed a lot about JY, what about EJ then? XD I'm less worried about her as she doesn't have to appear for all the Cry Cry and Lovey Dovey promos since she isn't the lead. Which means she can rest more. Also, her Queen Insoo filming should be wrapping up soon (I hope).

I thought how she wore hot pink slippers with her gown while MC-ing for the show was cute =P Only EJ can be this adorable. It's not her fault for the funky dressing though. It's the people from the show who promised her that they wouldn't take full body shots. Tsk, how could they lie to EJ!??!? No one should lie to her, it's Eun Jungie!!! XDD And that horse she rode on for the drama is a bully and meanie for making her fall. Bad horsie. It's a good thing she didn't suffer serious injuries. Falling from horses is really dangerous.

I think her ankle isn't healing that fast since she has too keep the ice pack on. She and JY can sleep on one bed and rest together =P EunJi is the best!!! =D

New purpose...?? =)

Cry Cry + Lovey Dovey Movie Version

2012-01-02T15:02:00.006+08:00

I love it when music videos have storylines in them but the latest T-ara ones take this to a whole new level. It's almost as if I'm watching a movie. And the effects and budget aren't shabby. I'm thrilled that there is going to be 5 (?) different videos coming out.

For Cry Cry, I'm really happy that Ji Yeon was the main character. My only complain is that they gave her a really bad wig. Still, no one else could pull such a hair style off. Which is proven in the 2nd part =P

2:58 min when JY appears the screen is practically overflowing with coolness and attitude. Man, this girl is good. She's a natural performer.

Woo at the skin at 3:16 min XDDDD And is that a tattoo I see? Fangirl screams at when she wears those shades. So cute!!

I don't know how Hyomin is connected to the story. And is this the last we see of her, or will she reappear in another part?

JY deserves a best actress award for her efforts from 12:45 min. All that emotion, and the scream, woah she was good.

What's the young guys relation to JY? Was he her dad's right hand man in the past? Gah, if only there were subs.

After viewing the entire vid, I'm not so sure I approve of JY liking the ahjusshi XD

Qri really isn't the best actress around. She could hardly emote. No wonder EunJi are the members with more acting offers ^^; Eun Jung was awesome! Her acting and physical appearance were great! Physical as in her hair etc and not something else XD

If Ji Yeon drove the car off the cliff, does this mean that the 3rd part won't have her? NOOOOOOO!!! I need my EunJi =P The anticipation for the next part is killing me. And I only just finished watching this one XD I also don't understand why Ji Yeon had to change her face. I know they did it so that Qri could have a role but what I want to know is, how is it connected to the plot??

It was smart of the company to include making off portions at the end. It's a good form of fan service to allow the fans to see how their fave girls behave off camera. Ji Yeon is so darn adorable!!! While Eun Jung is cute, crazy and a fan girl, lol. I would like to think that the reason for her being so excited is cuz she was watching JY film the emotional/fight scene. She even got Hyomin over to watch the filming together. Ahhh my EunJi fantasy XD

What I don't understand it, why must Ji Yeon be around during the scenes with only Eun Jung and Qri? If they had planned this better, then maybe JY would have some time to rest and wouldn't have to be sent to the hospital on NY's day. The poor girl is overworked =(

Sayumi the Actress?

2011-12-31T11:17:00.006+08:00

It would be one of my wishes came true if Sayu became a full fledged actress who starred in dramas which aren't produced by UFA and screened on prime time slots.

There was a drama which was aired on Christmas day this year in which she portrayed the evil (?) younger sister of lead actress, Ishihara Satomi. I'm guessing "Kare wa Imouto no Koibito" is about Satomi liking the lead actor but Sayu comes in and tries to steal the guy.

It seems like ever since they were kids, Sayumi had always been the pretty one, popular one, and most loved one by their parents or other people. Such a storyline would probably make viewers detest Sayu and support Satomi. Although I'm not too happy about this, but this character has been what the bunny had always portrayed and in a way, it is good that she is getting more jobs and exposure. I just hope she doesn't get too extreme negative responses for her role.

Episode 1 of Kare wa Imouto no Koibito

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Another drama which Sayusuke is starring in is "数学女子学園".

I'm almost positive this production is affiliated to UFA since many H!P girls make cameos. It is about the two 6th gen members being students in a school and revolves around Mathematics. Not too sure what else the drama talks about so I'll have to wait and find out.

Hmmm, didn't Sayumi once say she liked Maths the most? And since she isn't as dumb as she acts, she could emerge as the smarter one between her and Reina? Maybe ^^; Then again, Tanakacchi is the lead of MM now so that probably might not happen =(

CM for Suugaku Joushi Gakuen

Suzy - So Many Tears

2011-12-31T11:08:00.004+08:00

This is a song that I keep playing recently. The melody is sad and so so beautiful. I feel that Suzy sang with a lot of emotions which really fit the lyrics. Who says being the face of a group means you can't sing well. The cutest neko in Miss A has proven otherwise.

FNS + The Chicken Suit

2011-12-24T07:17:00.010+08:00

It's been a long time since MM last went on FNS. This year, they managed to secure an appearance. That's the only good news. The down side is they never got to sing since they were just 陪跳 for DMM. Maybe I should be thankful that they even got to be backup dancers considering Reina did get one line. BUT! It irks me that the H!P costume was so bad as compared to KARA and SNSD's.

Why couldn't UFA's costume designers update their skills and fashion sense? Those horrid furry garments have been in their performances since years ago! And stop letting the girls sing LM and RR21. They are 10 year old songs and the members aren't all below 14 anymore. It's ridiculous to pick such songs when MM has better music to offer.

I can't understand what the management is thinking. It really saddens to to see the other guests (especially the males ones) unable to take their eyes away from the Korean acts. I've always been a Jpop supporter and I love MM. I really hate to see how badly they are standing against the flood of Kpop groups entering the Japanese market and succeeding with mind boggling sales figures. Please Tsunku, do something right fast if you don't want MM to become a joke in the industry. Either that or graduate Risa and Sayumi so I can stop following the group. It hurts to see how much they have slided. I hope that MM can regain their former glory. I want MM to be popular again.

As if the FNS perf wasn't bad enough. What's with the crazy bright yellow chicken suit?! I know I've mentioned something about this recently but it's really too terrible to bear. It's not just the dress, it's also about the yucky chicken feet and head gear. Maybe it's a duck and not chicken but whatever it is, it's bad. Does Tsunku and UFA really think such a concept will sell? It doesn't take a genius to know it will fail. Big time. Even if MM is not compared with the Korean girl groups but with their own. They still lose to AKB in terms of song and costume. The school uniform and plaid might be dated but at least it's still somewhat hawt and provides a little bit of lolliness. May I know what fowl suits provide? It just makes people think they are selling fried chicken. Agh, stop ruining the girls like this. I think they might be embarrassed to go on shows wearing those outfits.

Aren't you supposed to be talented Tsunku? Then show me what you've got!

The Turtle's Day

2011-12-23T05:43:00.000+08:00

Dear Eri-hime

Happy 23rd birthday!! I still miss you so, so much. If only you came back.

I hope your friends like Sayusuke and Gaki-san other than your family spent this special day with you and you will always be healthy and happy. Don't be sad over your grandpa anymore.

Loving you forever...

With best wishes,
Hammy

Heartless Cad!!

2011-12-21T09:32:00.003+08:00

This was one of the saddest scene in the series imo. While watching, I seriously wanted to sock the guy! How could he reject Hyun Jung? And in such a cruel and heartless manner too. I can't like Pulip because she knew right from the start how much her best friend liked Baek Hyun. GRRRRR!!! To think that after HJ found out she still tried her best to be a nice friend to PL. Gah!!! Makes my blood boil! XDDDD And I keep thinking Pulip sounds like Tulip. Funny name =P

The words HJ said were so heartbreaking. Made me so sad SOBSSSSSS!!!! You aren't a burden! It's the dumbass guy who doesn't know how to cherish you.

HJ: "I'm very sorry for ever liking you." <--- This line made my heart shatter and drop to the floor. If you heard pieces of glass falling, yup, that's mine. =(....... From this sentence it's clear that HJ has given up. She has been hurt too deeply by the guy she loves and her friend. It's not gonna heal that easily =( BOO HOO HOO!!!! *cries like the rain* Lol. What?!?! I'm sentimental XDDD

This is one of the Korean ballads that I love a lot. If I remember correctly, the song title is called "Because I'm a girl." No idea what the lyrics is about but if it's talking about how because as girls, we will be depressed over relationships that don't work out, then we should all become guys since they have it so easy. Lol. And ewww at the bloodied toe! *faints* Haha just kidding. That ain't so bad, seen worse =P

Another scene that stuck in my mind was when the guy was carrying HJ to school so that they could take the exams.

BK: Are you feeling okay?
HJ: I'm feeling great... (This shouldn't be the reply as she was sick. Even if she did not want him to be worried, people would normally say, "I'm okay" or something along that line. But do you know why her reply was so??? Read on...)

HJ: ...because you are carrying me. (*BAWLS* NO!!!! This is too sad and heartwrenching!!! How could she feel great when she is ill just because he piggybacked her???! *sigh* Because she likes him that much.)

This actor somehow just rubs me the wrong way. No matter which drama he is acting in, I can't stand him =P And I'm annoyed by how Ji Yeon is always acting the party that is rejected by the guy. This makes no sense. I mean, JUST LOOK AT HER!!!! Lol. The casting is all wrong, seriously XD How can they expect me to believe any sane person would reject someone like her? Tsk XDDD

The cast of Dream High 2 is out! And yay Ji Yeon is in it. But boo that she's not the lead. She's probably gonna get the evil girl role and be the one bugging the lead guy.. She should have gotten the lead role damnit. That lead actress is so not nice *yucky face*

Storyline at Last

2011-12-18T18:27:00.005+08:00

Hmmm I'm both excited and dreading the new DMM single. Looking forward to how UFA finally gives their group a PV with a storyline. And it's rather interesting, as it looks like a guy Rika likes has visited the nightclub where she is working at. But he entered with Kei and Koharu. She wants to confront him or something but Yuko stops her while Mari looks on.

For one, I think Rika's acting has somewhat improved, since she was really bad before =P Yuko was cool! And she could emote quite well. Mari was believable too. I wonder how Nacchi and Miki will fit into this. Makoto and Kaori too. Can Yossui be the pimp? =x Just kidding. It's kinda funny that the guy would pick Kei over Rika though. Maybe she lied about her occupation so he doesn't know she works here. But if that were true, then shouldn't she try and hide instead of going up to him?? Hmmm, so many questions.

The most intriguing portion will have to be Ai's appearance. She isn't dressed like a hostess. So is she the new girl who is on her first visit to her future workplace? Or is she here to look for someone? Perhaps one of the hostess is her sister? Or mom? =P Her outfit reminds me of High King. It's nice, I like it =) But I don't hope that they put her in the group. Being solo seems to be better for now.

And so it seems that MM's next single will have horrible costumes. And I do agree. What is that yellow thing?!?!? Unless they are gonna get a good deal promoting KFC, I seriously think they gotta change the clothes. What's wrong with the management??? Do they really think such a cover will attract buyers? OMG.... Please rectify the mistake soon! I don't want to see even more dramatic falling sales figures =(

Ji Yeon's Attitude?

2011-12-17T12:29:00.005+08:00

Apparently there was some news about Ji Yeon being criticized for performing halfheartedly on live shows. I've seen a few of such videos and I have to admit she didn't look like she was in a good mood. Neither did she bother to smile or dance properly. Still, since we don't know what happened, we can't really judge or slam her. It's only humans to have their not so good days.

Cheer up girl! You still have loads of fans who support you despite of what antis might say.

This is one of those performances. She was still awesomely hawt and sexy though =x

Sayu's Shock?

2011-12-17T10:13:00.004+08:00

There was this clip of Kaori talking about how Sayu she didn't turn up for practice and I saved the link for it intending to post it up as both of them had really interesting expressions. But ARGHS!! I somehow saved the wrong link and I can't find it again =(

I wonder if Sayusuke got a scolding for skipping practice. At that time she was still sorta new judging from their hair and outfits. She sure has guts to dare to not appear? Shouldn't it be Reina who is doing such things? She's the yankii no? XD

But I did find another clip of how she had this classic expression when the little girl said she liked AKB over MM. I loved how she did a double take. But man, that kid sure doesn't know a good thing when she sees one. It's Sayumin in the flesh!!!

Discovered a nice OPV of my favorite bunny. The creator is right, we can't hurry love. But oh how could anyone bear to not love this girl??! I would love her immediately ^^;

EunJi Couple

2011-12-16T17:55:00.011+08:00

The thing about Korean OPVs is, they call it FMV (fan made video) and from what I've seen, the editing is really good. They manage to cut scenes from different shows and combine them to make it look like the 2 of them are in the same series. But most of the songs aren't really my cup of tea. Still there are ones I really love.

Like these. Beautiful and touching melody or heartbreakingly sad =(

I'm not sure if my favourite T-ara girls are called EunJi when together as I've seen variations, but I think I like this term the most. You can't believe there is a 5 year age difference between them can you? I'm guessing Eun Jung is childish hence she can get along with the much younger Ji Yeon XD

Random hilarious clip. Lee Jin already told her not to tear the tape with her teeth yet she still did it. And the funniest thing is, she obviously couldn't do it but she didn't stop. Lol. Cute.

Gaki's acting

2011-12-16T05:45:00.004+08:00

I thought Risa did alright in her movie with Nakki where they were students who encountered some ghostly being? I loved the bit where the body splattered in front of her face and the blood splashed onto her. It was one scene where I was greatly impressed.

But I never imagined that she would improved by so much more since then. Her acting in the play was almost to the level of awesomeness. There were still some parts where she wasn't as convincing as she should be. But overall it was a job well done. I simply adore her fighting scenes. Very smooth and believable. I wonder if she practiced the moves outside of rehearsal. If so how and with whom? =P Ai-chan maybe? Just imagining them being rough with each other is... XD

The beginning was funny when the bottom of the wooden bucket flew off. Hey Gaki-san, you have comedic timing. Why not consider a career in comedy as well? =D

I've not been able to sit down properly and watch through the entire vid yet. But I know I would be impressed with the bean =) From what I've seen, she looks tiny among the rest of the cast. And she would probably end up with a sorethroat with all that screaming. I wonder what she must shout in such a low voice. And ouch when she got kicked. I hope she didn't get hurt during practice =(

Bae Suzy, Dream High

2011-12-13T21:06:00.006+08:00

Bae isn't unheard of for a Korean surname. But somehow when it's said together with the name Suzy, it makes me think of Suzy is bae-ing. As in the horse kind =P But don't get me wrong, I quite like Suzy. She's so pretty and sweet looking. I love how she looks like the girl next door. And when she smiles with her two front teeth showing, she reminds me of an adorable bunny =D

I noticed her during "Dream High," which was the same show which made me like Eun Jung. If only the plot was about these two ending up together instead of Suzy and either guys ^^;

"Maybe" and "dreaming" are nice ballads. I know there were more nice songs in the drama, I just need to find them.

Happy birthday Ms Ham

2011-12-12T21:49:00.004+08:00

I wanna giggle every time I see her last name. Ham...reminds me of me xD Hammy likes miss Ham Eunjung =D

Happy happy 23rd birthday!!

Is it a coincidence that I like so many idols born in 1988? Or does the year of the dragon produce more awesome idols? ^_-

Backlog of FICs + Alphabet Purses

2011-12-11T08:47:00.004+08:00

It's been years yet I have not completed my chapter FICs >_< Pending ones include MGR, DD and Midnight. I suspect I left out more but these 3 are those I really wanna be able to have an ending. Why am I so inefficient!? Perhaps if.. didn't happen then things would have turned out differently.

But I have started thinking though DD and MGR. Maybe I can start writing them again during...
I think I know how both FICs should end. Surprisingly it's different from what I thought in the past. I guess experiences do change people and how they think?

Ganbatte yo hammy! You must must must finish these FICs. GS and GA can't be the only epic FICs from you. It would be a waste. And you need this or there will be nothing left.

I can't believe I found those purses that Ai bought for herself and Risa! The white hard canvas ones with the letters G and R printed on them. I still remember how Ai said she didn't buy the A purse as it didn't look as nice as the G. I even secretly hoped that she chose that letter cuz it represented Gaki =P I wonder what are they using them for. Make up? Most likely so. But I didn't buy it on the spot as I didn't have a use for it. But now I'm regretting as I'm afraid it will be gone if i try and find it again. And the worst part is i dont think I will go back there =( I'm regretting so much for not buying Ai's heart necklace when I could. No one understand the joy of finding something that your idols use. Unless it's similar thinking people. But those are hard to come by.

The Month of Plays

2011-12-10T17:34:00.005+08:00

It's funny to see how Gaki doesn't bother to change the title of her blog posts when she's writing about her play. I didn't expect her to be the type to just reuse the same title. She must be pretty busy and tired on most days to resort to this.

Up till now I have no idea what it's about except that there are a lot of people involved. I'm guessing the storyline is about a group of bodyguards and how they protect the person they are supposed to keep safe? But why do these 8 bodyguards dress differently? Are they from various time periods? If that was the case, then perhaps Ai could have been one of the 8 and she could continue wearing her Sara outfit =P

Somehow I think it would be awesome if there was a play focusing on Gaki's character and Sara. The plot could revolve around how Risa was an imperial bodyguard who stumbled across and fell in love with a vampire-Sara. I know Ai is human in her play but we could always tweak it a little. And so the entire town wants to eliminate Sara due to fear and not understanding that she is a kind vampire who doesn't feed on human blood. By standing by her love, Gaki ends up being ostracized by the people and the 2 of them have to run for their lives. Of course in the process of escaping to another place where no one knows them, a lot of fighting, blood, "love scenes" must be included =P I would love to see a scene of AiGaki baring their souls (and possibly their bodies as well) to each other on stage. They wouldn't be naked for real, but some strategically positioned lighting and good nude bras would come in handy ^^;

Why couldn't UFA had come up with such a play when both AiGaki were still in H!P? Fans would be super happy to see such a production especially if a kissing scene was included. Damn, I wanna see this so bad! I like both Ai and Risa's costumes in their respective plays although the beans would have been even more epic if her boob area was more filled up xD

If only I could attend the viewing of these plays. Watching my favorite girls in the flesh would be such a treat.

Hamtop brand matchsticks and sotong brand xx xxxx. Brings back memories.

Sayu's English Level

2011-12-07T18:13:00.003+08:00

Teehee. I don't think anyone thinks Sayumin is anything but cute singing the alphabet song this way. Somehow she sounds similar to Risa when the bean sang this song too. Do all Japanese pronounce "C" as shee? XDDD

Sayu's Secret Fantasy?

2011-12-07T18:04:00.006+08:00

Sayu: Maasa is a very physical (touchy) person. She will be like "Michishige-san!" and then slap me on the butt.

Maimi: Doesn't Risako do that too?

Sayu: No way? I wish she would.

HAHA OMG Sayu!!! is that your secret fantasy?? I don't get what's so attractive
about Risako though =x But she was one cute kid.

Special thanks to Onlymshige for putting up the clip and translating it. Onlymshige is a really nice username. I like it =)

Mobekimasu

2011-12-07T16:50:00.006+08:00

You know when people say kids learn better when they see both visuals and sound? That's right you know. Cuz I couldn't for the life of me remember the H!P group name until I saw the Hey!x3 episode that they went on. After the groups introduced themselves individually, their name finally stuck in my mind. I don't understand why C-ute is represented by "ki" and not "kyu" though.

Let's talk about impressions. Gaki looks good, amazingly =P Both her hair and size aka figure is nice. The only bit that made me go a little hmmmm was during the perf when she tried too hard...again ^^;

Sayumi was alright. Pretty overall but I couldn't see much of her. Not a single scene during the song at all =(

Reina seriously needs a new hairdo. She is smart to wear a garter? Too bad it wasn't as sexy as it shouldn't been. Perhaps it would have worked better if someone else had it on =x

UFA really doesn't know how to educate children. How could they put Riho in the middle of the entire mess of people???! This would make her think that she is the ace of H!P. Even if they intend to mould her as that, they shouldn't make her big headed so soon. Anyway, Airi is a more talented artiste and the kappa-chan should become the face of H!P more than Sayashi.

Miyabi's chin seems be have shrunk =x She is more beautiful now. The short bob really suits her. I like Masaa. I do. But that girl and Risako both need to go on a diet...badly. Seeing how long these two have been tipping the scales, it only goes to show how lax their management is. The girls should go through some form of Kpop girlgroup training. That way, they might become more successful =x

I'm surprised Momoko wasn't around. It couldn't have been because of age, cuz she definitely isn't that young. Did she have other job commitments? That card she drew was ultra adorable. It's surprising that she has taken over Kei as the butt of jokes. I thought such roles usually went to the non-babes? But since she's good at it and seems to be able to take it, I hope she becomes more popular after people watch her on shows.

Maimi was stunning! But somehow I kept mistaking her for Airi during the dance ^^;

Mano looked good too. Athough her skin seemed a little bad. I can't figure out why she is pretty every other time except in that Kamen Rider movie I'm so looking forward to watching. To think that movie could have given her a shot at international fame since the franchise is known overseas. *sigh* She either doesn't have the luck, or someone is out to sabotage her.

Nothing much about S/mileage except that most of the girls in this group look quite nice.

I'm more than a little shocked that I can hear quite a number of females in the audience screaming. But whatever interest the non-fans might have gotten after watching the talk segment would have flown out the window after the girls removed their outfits onstage. UFA sucks at marketing and promotion >.< If they had to include that portion, at least let the camera feature the girls doing the actual removing of costume? =P

The song is only so-so. And sales wasn't great at 54,000+. Will H!P never see the day of million copies sale again? *Sigh* Unlikely, possibly never in my lifetime =(

2011-11-26T19:16:00.004+08:00

“笨蛋，哭什么啊？我不是还好好的吗？”

高桥温热的手附上新垣沾满泪痕的脸，小心翼翼地拭去了还未干涸的泪滴。

是不是有个人在自己心里占的位置太重要了，就会患得患失呢？

泪腺自从生命里出现高桥爱这个让自己爱惨了的人之后就变得十分发达，即使新垣一再抑制也徒劳无用。

孱弱的笑容扩散出让新垣心痛的分子，手不禁捂住胸口，任凭高桥挂着笑容的脸渐渐模糊不清。

哭泣，只是对你一个人的懦弱。

总有一天，会因为你而心痛致死。

高桥原本用来安慰新垣的笑容突然掺杂了某种一切都了于心中的意味。

“知道么，我的这里……”

高桥勉强撑起身子，手指了指自己的胸口。

“只为里沙一个人痛。”

寂寞寂寞就好 - 田馥甄

2011-11-16T17:19:00.011+08:00

The song speaks for itself. Beautiful instrumental music and lyrics.

詞: 施人誠

曲: 楊子樸

編曲: 鍾興民

還是原來那個我不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果

會有什麼什麼都沒有
早點看破才看得見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的我總會把你戒掉

還是要幸福 - 田馥甄

2011-11-16T16:48:00.010+08:00

This is the 3rd song by Hebe that I love. The first two being 替我爱他 and 寂寞寂寞就好。

曲：張簡君偉

詞：徐世珍/司魚

編曲：盧家宏、JerryC

不確定就別親吻感情很容易毀了一個人
一個人若不夠狠愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍

你留下來的垃圾我一天一天總會丟完的
我甚至真心真意的祝福永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕別跟著我銘心刻骨

你還是要幸福我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據你的篇幅
明天開始這一切都結束

還我鑰匙的備份我覺得再見可以很單純
我甚至真心真意的祝福永恆在你的身上先發生

你還是要幸福你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕別跟著我銘心刻骨

你還是要幸福我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據你的篇幅
明天開始這一切都結束

你還是要幸福你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕別跟著我銘心刻骨

你如果很幸福半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆
因為你的悲喜已經有了容身之處我也能有最純粹的孤獨

最孤獨的孤獨

最出的回忆 - 大风吹

2011-11-16T14:50:00.008+08:00

Gomene to Mame-chan and her friends for posting non-related H!P stuff ^^;

Beautiful song. Pity I can't find the mp3 nor a video without talking =(

《最初的回忆》
作词：洪美燕
作曲：龔振良
演唱：大风吹

当熟悉变成了距离
未来被定格在原地
过去任性逃避
回忆背弃

拼凑的画面像空气
思绪洒落零乱剧情
努力瓦解每段回忆
寻找你的呼吸

删去全世界依然无法忘记
虽想你谁是你

时间流逝在宇宙也不畏惧
虽唯一只靠心感应

删去全世界依然还要重新
邂逅爱上你
睁开眼是你
最初的回忆

The line I like the most is the last stanza and 删去全世界依然无法忘记 (Even after removing the whole world, I still can't forget).

After the touching song, here is something funny.

Me: The only show I'm chasing is 行医.

K: You like Christopher?

Me: .... *breathes* ... I like the chemistry between him and Jesseca.

It's bad isn't it, to like Jesseca and not Chris ^^; Yabai na.... >.<

Sadistic Ai

2011-11-16T06:01:00.009+08:00

Wordpress sucks! So difficult to post on it with Aiphone. Shouldn't have been a smart Alec and used that instead of another blogspot blog.

So Ai is violent both awake and in her sleep. Who knew she was intrinsically so? Can't judge a book by it's cover ne~. From her physical appearance, she is definitely the softer and party who looks like she needs protection. I don't get it, Gaki doesn't really like Ai in "that way" does she? Then why does she take all these from her? Once again I'm baffled and impressed by the bean. Like factor raises a notch!

祝你生日快乐。

Yoshitaka Yoriko

2011-11-12T23:21:00.009+08:00

This is bad, I'm starting to like her more and more. I don't want to end up buying her dramas and finding out those shows are all bad =x I mean, most plots don't interest me that much and I usually aren't that fond of the actors in Japanese dramas ^^; But she is just so pretty! I love her eyes, nose, lips, dimple and the way she kinda pouts. Then again, all Japanese girls pout or at least do something with their mouth. Her eyes aren't exactly huge but they are so black and pretty. Gah! Why are some girls so darn beautiful? It must be wonderful to be blessed with almost perfect features.

Still, "mioka" seems to comprise a story line I can accept. The guy isn't great but I guess I can live with it. "love shaffle" is another show that looks alright. Though I have the same opinion about the lead actor as the other show.

An incurable disease and suicidal tendencies. I like xD

Came across these words. Sounds suitable for the prologue of a fic. Maybe I'll have Yoriko star in a fic? But I'm gonna have problems including a guy. How would a MM x Yoriko fic sound? ^^;

Happy birthday to BOD. She must be enjoying herself watching Selena Gomez XD

When life is coming to an end, 当生命即将流失。。。
Will you treasure (live) each moment, 能否把握住时间。。。
Like it's the last? 珍惜仅剩的时间？

Reina bday

2011-11-11T20:14:00.003+08:00

22 years old. It's a really young age yet Tanakacchi has been in showbiz for 8 years @@ What a veteran huh? She is of drinkable age and somehow I get the feeling that thus girl can hold her alcohol. I could be wrong though but... nah... this seems right =P

Since I don't visit her blog, I have no idea if she posts about the presents she receives. Hmmm, maybe I should pop by soon to find out?

Happy birthday to MM's only yankii for now. Who knows if any of the 10th gen members are anything like their purple and pink loving senpai xD

Yoshitaka Yoriko vs Kamei Eri & Random Ponderings

2011-11-09T15:16:00.015+08:00

I saw an episode of Tokyo Dogs and decided I was going to continue watching it. Not because of the 2 supposed hunks in the show, but rather because of the quite cute actress. She was also born in 1988, which makes her the same age as my beloved KameMame..

At first, before I did a search on her, I thought she was at least mid to late twenties. Imagine my surprise when she was so young. Her height is 157 cm, this is really close to Eri, who is 158 cm. However, in my opinion, I find that Kame is much, much cuter than Yoriko.

I don't know if I'm biased, but I really do think so. Even in terms of body proportions, Eririn wins by a mile. And Yoriko seems to have rather thick legs as well. Still, I prefer Eri's thunder thighs. The legs of the turtle are too sexy ^^; *drools just thinking of them*

Because I think that Kame is so darn adorable, it reminds me of the age old question which I have been asking myself all these years. Which of the 3, namely Ai, Eri and Sayumi, would regular females like the most? I don't mean talent, personality or dress sense. I'm talking purely about physical attributes.

I'm inclined to think Eririn will emerge winner, judging by how many haters Ai-chan has XD Then again, minus the narcissistic character portrayer Sayu is so good at, she could be victorious. After all, she does possess awesomely silky jet-black hair. Isn't that a popular hair length and texture? Furthermore, she has the best height standing at 162 cm. She also has that lanky built that should look pretty good with most clothes on. And I love, love, love her milky white skin + those rosy cheeks of hers.

Still, Kame has a body to die (kill) for (I'm addicted to her abs). So does Ai. Yet, I'm guessing that Ai is a tad too short for the average female's taste. ^^;; I just have one issue about the turtle's body. Her toes look a little strange.

Thus in conclusion, assuming it's a package deal, meaning no swapping of heads and bodies XD Looking like Sayu...or Eri, would be a dream come through. Hmmmm...Eri?... or Sayu?? XD

MM Alohello 5

2011-10-27T04:27:00.003+08:00

I watched the last part of Alo Hello 5. Couldn't obtain the rest of the vids due to megaupload problems again. Why can't mediafire be used? =( The jackets that Ai prepared were sweet and they were all in their respective colors. I wonder if they were all of the same size as some of the girls looked like they were swimming in it.

Ai looked good with that accessory on her head, I didn't like Risa's hair and Sayu looked pretty.

But during the portion where the members wrote letters to Ai, Risa was gorgeous. I was kinda hoping she would cry, but she didn't =( It was heartbreaking when Ai pulled her hood up and started tearing. She is so emotional and sensitive. There wouldn't be another like her =(... Only Ai-chan can look so beautiful when crying.

Sayu was adorable in her brown bikini. I loved her little skirt that went along with it. Risa's wasn't as nice. And I still don't like the bun hair. Just like how I didn't like her hair in MM's latest single. Her gold outfit was nice but the bun hair wasn't. Maybe there are people who like it but it's not my cup of tea.

Judging from their physique, it looks like Erina's is similar to Sayumi. They are fair skinned and slim but with a little fat on their tummy. Riho looks to be like Reina. The straight down body without a distinct waist. Kanon is still too chubby to really tell. Mizuki would probably be like Gaki. When she puts on too much weight she won't look good in swim wear. Aika has nice curves. Similar to Kame probably.

Can't say more about the DVD until I manage to watch the complete video. But so far it looks quite promising. I hope the pictures from the photobook are revealed soon. I'm bursting with curiosity. Especially for the AiGaki and GakiShige shots.

Jishin Motte Yume Motte Tobitatsu Kara & more Ai-chan!

2011-10-26T15:03:00.008+08:00

I finally watched Ai-sama's solo PV and I only have one comment for it.

I LOVE IT!!!!

Whoever came up with the concept for it is a genius!! Well, it is considered one of the better ones (if not the best) PVs to come out of UFA.

First of all, Ai-chan's outfit was cool to the max. I like the spinning and glittering effect throughout the vid. It didn't make me dizzy nor did it cause Pokemon fits XD And they made her look tall inside =x This could really appeal to the fans who like androgynous female artistes. Wasn't there a girl group who debuted dressed up like guys yet they could sell bikini photobooks as well? That is some really good marketing strategy. One which UFA should really pick up on. Where's the girl on girl fan service??!

The lyrics suit Ai's situation when it was released. She was about to graduate and she loved MM. Also, she didn't know how to put her thoughts into words and the years went by until this day. Tsunku wrote this song right? He really knows her well huh.

More lyrics which I found suited our fave monkey.

That was a long time ago, I've grown up a little now
I wont show my tears, I'll just go on my journey

I'll take flight now, with confidence and dreams

Ah Im a little embarrassed to say it now Im going

But I love you and this place

When I took down the photos

I'll carry my hopes, stay hopeful

And find a way to see you again

If I fall I'll get back up

And move on to the next stage.

I'll be confident, I wont give up

May my future be bright

I adore how she couldn't pronounce "Thank you till now" and "Thank you tonight". The best touch of the PV is the photos of Ai during the various stages of her MM career. Whoever got to keep them after the shoot must be in Ai-chan heaven. So many photographs and with Takahashi being such a photogenic beauty, one can be sure they will mostly be incredible pictures to collect.

They should have given a DVD with the PV for the version which had Ai on the single cover. That would surely boost sales and at the same time it provides a great memento for all of her fans to cherish.

She really likes plastic frames and that hat huh? I always wondered how she keeps it at that angle without it falling off? Clips? But how? Hmmmmm. Those fans who wrote those messages are really sweet. I was kinda expecting Ai-chan to start tearing. Her voice did sound a little off at some points. Maybe she was really touched, like how I was too. *sniff*

I don't know how she manages to make the hat and glasses match the somewhat casual outfit. I guess she's a true star huh? Possessing the ability to make anything look good.

2011-10-24T21:41:00.008+08:00

Why do AiGaki have hair that grows so quickly? I like how Risa curled her hair in e latest pics on her blog. It looks almost exactly like the awesome hairstyle she had when singing 'best friend' except for the darker shade. I wonder how many Mickey related tops she has. Seems like a lot.

I dread but am also curious to see Sayu's latest pb.

2011-10-22T13:17:00.002+08:00

Sayuminglandoll which has the full name of "land of sleeping with a Sayumi doll" is gonna be released on 27 Oct. When I first read that it would feature shots of Sayu being all doll-like, I was quite excited to see what this pb had to offer. I had expected it to be better compared to the usual pb. But when the cover was revealed, I was disappointed. Despite her having a great figure, and though I still love her milky skin and pinchable tummy, I found that the image didn't suit her. In short, it wasn't a nice cover to me. It didn't make me want to purchase it =( Also, in recent blog entries, Sayumi didn't look as good as she normally does. I'm not sure it is her nose or eyes. But something seems to be different. I hope it's just my small phone monitor giving me a false impression and that the bunny really isnt any different from her usual gorgeous self.

I missed posting on Risa's birthday! I hate myself for that. And I hated that Thursday. In my mind I was thinking it would be ironic to have a death anniversary on the same date as my Idol's birthday. Ai-chan and Sayu both wished her happy birthday. She met up with Eri for a meal. I don't know why the company doesnt allow Kame's pics to be on their blogs. But at least she posted up the present that the turtle gave her. A Pooh-chan cushion! A weird selection but since it's Eri I guess that's understandable. Does Gaki like Pooh bear? I wanna know what everyone else gave Risa! Im also curious as to how she spent the day. Did she go on a date with a special someone?

2011-10-18T17:35:00.002+08:00

Maki Goto and Tsuji Nozomi appeared on DMM's concert. And Nakazawa Yuko made a funny comment to the wotas. "You guys sure didn't make as much noise when it was only the 9 us." xD So I take it that Maki is still super popular in the eyes of the old fans. Does this mean she will make a comeback under UFA? After all she is no longer with Avex. Another news about her is she became a lingerie model. Hmmm, she did get more curvy and top heavy since xxxx year. I'm not sure when the transition began.

Miracle-chan caught stomach flu. Was it really due to stale rice? I'm glad she alright now. That isn't an enjoyable illness.

2011-10-17T22:45:00.003+08:00

I like Eripon. I can't believe I would feel anything for 9th gen let alone like someone from this generation. But reading about Eripon always being worried that the other members didn't like her stirred something inside me. I don't know if she made the first move to be closer to Risa or did the bean try and include this kouhai more to ensure that she didn't feel so insecure. Either way, the blog pics that came out of it are really cute. I also love how Pon Pon uses her own money to buy Gaki merchandise. It reminds me of how Gaki-san too bought MM goods in the past with her own money even when she was already in the group. Would this pairing with a 9 year age gap work as well as AiGaki or KameMame? Only time will tell...

Loving You Forever

2011-10-16T14:55:00.009+08:00

"1,2,1,2. Yes that's the way. Now from the top."

As we returned to our starting positions, I stole a glance at the mirror and saw her reflection. Coincidentally, she chose the same time to look up and our eyes met. Winking at me, she grinned, our secret signal that we will both work hard at the dance steps until we broke for lunch.

Satisfied with her encouragement, I took a deep breath and concentrated. Determined to nail the entire routine before the dance instructor pointed out my mistakes.

"Alright, we'll stop here for now. After lunch, we will start with the second half of the concert songs."

"Hai~! Arigatou."

"You've worked hard!"

After thanking the teacher, everyone started packing up their belongings and heading out of the studio. Similarly, I gathered up my towel and hung it around my neck. Stuffing my jacket into my bag, I zipped it close and got up from my kneeling posture on the wooden floor.

Scanning around the room, I looked for my best friend as we would always go for meals together. Noticing her near the corner, I was about to walk over to her when the manager intercepted my plan.

"Michishige, I need to talk to you about the change in tomorrow's schedule."

Although reluctant, I could not go against the manager's wishes. Catching her gaze, I bowed apologetically.

It's okay. I'll meet you in the dressing room later.

She flashed me an understanding smile and motioned for me to quickly follow the manager before I got an unnecessary nagging.

Some time later, I was the only person left in the room as everyone had gone on for lunch in the cafeteria. Sitting alone in front of the dresser, I glanced repeatedly at my cellphone and wondered why she hadn't appeared. Did she get stopped along the way to discuss about work too?

Mulling over whether I should message or call her, my thumb hovered above the dial button, worried that I might interrupt an important meeting.

At this moment, the door swung open and I turned around in my chair, filled with anticipation at seeing the person I was waiting for. Instead of her, it was someone else.

"Ehhh, why are you still here Sayusuke? Have you had your lunch?"

"Gaki-san? Have you seen Eririn? She was supposed to meet me to take our meal together."

Staring back at me with her eyes wide and a shocked expression on her face, Risa came towards me and placed both hands on my shoulders. Massaging them gently, she said.

"Have you forgotten, Eri isn't with us anymore. She graduated last year."

At her words, time seemed to stop and the room fell silent as I took in what she had just said.
Isn't with us... graduated...

"B-ut..but...but I saw her just now! During rehearsal!"

Bending down and wrapping her arms around my torso, Risa snuggled her face in the nook of my neck.

"It's okay to miss her. We all do."

Raising one hand to pat me on the head, my senpai continued.

"Let's ask her out this Thursday. We can go for breakfast, shopping and a movie after. What do you say?"

I couldn't respond to the suggestion as I had started crying, my voice choking up and my body trembling with the effort it took to keep my sobbing down.

After I had regained enough composure to speak, I looked up at Risa's concerned face and asked her a question.

"Do you think we will grow apart? Will she forget me?"

Stroking at my fringe, Gaki-san reassured.

"She most definitely won't forget you. This is Kame we are talking about."

Tugging at a piece of tissue from the nearby tissue box, she dabbed at my tears and teased.

"Sayusuke is the ichiban kawaii right? How can you go around with swollen eyes? I'll accompany you to wash up then we'll join Ai-chan for lunch. Sound good?"

This time I managed to nod a reply. Just as Risa was about to straighten her back and stand upright again, I threw both arms around her neck and pulled her near.

"Arigatou Gaki-san."

My voice was drowned out from speaking into the front of her tracksuit but I guessed she still heard me as she helped me up from the chair and pushed away slightly to look into my reddish eyes.

"Anytime Sayusuke."

As we approached the exit, I looked over my shoulder to stare at the mirror. And once again, I saw the person I couldn't live without smiling back at me while mouthing a sentence.

Loving you forever.

"Me too Eririn. Forever..."

2011-10-16T13:31:00.007+08:00

Miori Takimoto is pretty! Looks good as a guy and grew up so much since Sweets. I wish Ai-chan got the role. It would have been awesome. It's interesting to imagine Gaki as Ren, Sayu as Shu and Kame as Yuki. Why do people always like the person who treats them badly? Shu is so much nicer and sensitive to Mio's needs as compared to Ren. I guess it's true that love is blind. It's always the not worth it people you end up liking and getting hurt because of how callous their treatment to you is. Shall go find the show. Need to see Miori on big screen!

A KameShige Story

2011-10-15T22:02:00.001+08:00

Did Sayu say that Eri pranced around in her underwear wearing her cute mouton boots or did she say the turtle was not dressed in any garment at all while walking around in her house wearing those boots? Either way it's omg. Literally.

Do good friends look at each other's naked bodies so comfortably?! And apparently Eri herself said that she stays over at Sayu's so often she should just move in. And what about the other members thinking that their relationship is at least a little weird?

It's pretty obvious those two share an amazing and close relationship. And as much as I hate to admit it, what the bunny and turtle have surpasses that of the bean and monkey.

Looking back at their past, I think I have a rather good idea of how these girls ended up sticking together. From the temple training audition period, the 3 didn't put in as much effort as the 5th gen when it came to practicing. My guess is, Reina went in thinking that she was gonna get picked, Sayu figured that she wasn't (due to her bad singing and two left feet dancing) while Eri was just glad that she made it this far. Afterall, she was incredibly shy then. And because they didn't go in to win, they could let their guard down and make some friends.

Right from the start, Shige gravitated towards the turtle. I think Sayu made the first move to talk to Kame, considering what an introvert she was. I bet Sayumin was the type who couldn't stand being alone for too long, thus she had to pick someone to approach and make friends. Kame was the obvious choice as Reina looked every inch the yankii with dyed hair, funky earrings and a perpetual scowl.

Since Reina was the lone wolf type who couldn't stand losing and wanted so much to be lead, it was hard to be close to her. Instead, the eczema kid + kid who was bad at everything except being blessed with a cute face and rosy complexion needed each other to feel safe. Days became months which turned into years and finally they became what we see, KameShige.

Each time I watch Eri's graduation DVD, Sayu's Homey or OPVs of them, my heart breaks and I tear a bit. It's not right that they should be broken apart like this. I know that they can still meet up or call/text each other. But it's not the same as seeing each other daily. It's terribly difficult to find someone you can click with, whom you can be yourself and act without inhibitions. They found that soul-mate in each other and I hope they never lose that beautiful relationship.

Eri: Happy birthday, Loving you forever...
(I didn't expect her to say this. It touched me, I think it did the same to Sayusuke)

Sayumi: I realize I won't be able to do things or go to places because Eri was there
(This turned on the waterworks. I think life would have been worth living if you met someone like this.)

Thank you for an amazing OPV KuteKim. Please don't give up on MM.

2011-10-14T23:14:00.010+08:00

Eri and Rina really don't look alike. Could it be that they look like either parent? That melon pan is huge! Did they make it or are they at some bread shop/cafe. Why can't Gaki-san put up proper pics of Eri? Did UFA lay such a rule? Why should it matter when Kame isn't even an artiste with another company?

2011-10-13T20:50:00.005+08:00

Ai-chan has a new regular job. So does Sayusuke.
I'm happy for them.
What would Sayu be like as a guy?
She would most definitely be a tall, lanky and considerate boy.

2011-10-09T02:12:00.003+08:00

小爱现在在做什么？

AiGaki's 2nd Honeymoon in Korea ~ Part 1

2011-10-05T13:45:00.021+08:00

Thank you so much for the subbed version of Hello Time #23!!!

I enjoyed myself viewing it without subs but the entertainment level shot through the roof when I could understand what the girls were saying.

I must say that I LOVE LOVE LOVE Gaki with hair in this light shade of brown. I can't believe that I said she didn't look as good as Kame with it. After her appearance singing 'Best Friend', I totally fallen in love with her this look. It's such a pity she didn't keep it for a longer period.

Is it weird that I've dreamt of the crown Ai-chan is wearing on her head for 2 nights in a row? I even dreamt of the price! It costs $12.xx lol. I wonder where she got that. On the plane? Or a gift shop on the way out. If it's from a shop inside the Korea airport, I'm so gonna get myself one if I ever visit the land of Kimchi.

Such big bags for just a 2 day 1 night trip? These girls must need a lot of stuff when away from home. Are their bags the same design but in a different color? The pink one is cute but like Ai, I would probabaly get a color that didn't scream out ^^;

LOL at Ai feeling embarrassed after yelling out "LET'S GO!" I love how cute and duck-like she sounds while Gaki's English intonation was too perfect.

Awww, isn't it sweet how Risa knew what were the things Ai wanted to do and even thought of more fun stuff to add on? I'm so envious of their relationship.

I couldn't stop replaying this scene! It's the cutest ever!!! Gosh, I can't stop blabbering about how adorable their interaction and expressions are. Especially the bean when she pouted and looked annoyed that Ai was peeking at their itinerary XD

Karupichipul?? Lol again at Ai's way of saying that. She is so playful. This isn't a side we normally see of her. It must be because she is with Risa huh? One of the rare persons she can act so comfortably with.

Ai being all pleased with herself. She must be happy that she managed to decipher the destination. Her clapping and Risa trying to drown out that with her own "ahhhhhhhhh" makes me all fuzzy inside. AiGakiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!! I love them so so much!!!'

Tee hee hee at the eating chilli bit. It's obvious Ai watched Risa's expression before deciding that she was going to try the chilli too. I couldn't take enough screencaps to capture every moment of this wonderful scene. It's just too cute and funny! And prior to that, how the bean "offered" her wife the first bite was funny too XDDD

You are probably wondering why I took this screencap. It's cuz of Ai-chan's outfit! It almost looks like it were a PJs top =P So sexy walking around Korea in this =x

I don't know how she did it but Risa made me laugh even with the part where the owner of the stall chose to answer the phone first before settling her payment XD Oh Gaki-san, why are you so darn adorable!?!??

What is so surprising about Ai wanting to shop? Lol, sometimes Risa just asks the funniest things. Look at the furry red heart (?) pillow at the top left corner of this screencap. Why would Ai need this? To nap on the plane? They provide mini pillows no? She should have brought along her red towel instead of a red cushion =P

Boots! Boots are one of the awesomest footwear. That's a Dr Marten's aint't it?

I almost went ballistic when Risa said "HK stations are like this too." Thinking, OMG she went to HK?!?!? Then I remembered MM did travel to HK for one of their FC tours. I wonder if she visited the country again for a personal trip.

I like their bags. Coincidentally both are pink. Ai's has studs! How cool is that. And Risa's resembles a bag by Marc Jacobs. Initially I thought it was that and almost rushed to get one. Then I realized the print says something Hawaii. Did she purchase hers in Hawaii during one of the AloHello PB trips?

I thought Ai wanted it for herself. In the end it was for her sis. Somehow I can see her carrying it? ^^; I'm sure I will see this bag being sold somewhere sooner or later.

Apparently such cosmetic stuff are really cheap in Korea. My friend said people ship them back home in cartons @@

LOL! Everyone go buy it? Really, Gaki-san, how much earbuds can you use in a lifetime? XD

So thrilled by the FOC mirror. We have Etude here too. Too bad no AiGaki is shopping inside.

I still don't know what brand Risa's watch it. Anyone who knows please tell me? Although I'd much prefer the gold Mickey one that Ai gave her. And what does the black leather bracelet say? Be....what? Be mine? Did the wife give it to her? =D

Couple's watch =)

Guess what's the best part?

THIS!! Makes the pain easier to bear. I love how cute they look. And I can think of the monkey and bean whenever I see them =D

When You're Gone

2011-09-30T01:58:00.004+08:00

The room is silent, the lights off as I sit on the floor at the foot of my bed. Tears start to slip from my eyes and slide down my cheeks. As I tilt my head downwards from looking at the space on my bed where you used to lie, I could feel the cool water land rhythmically on my thighs. I'm crying... alone. I used to feel more comfortable that no one was watching. And you knew to let me be. But now... I miss you being around. I realized that I want you here... with me. As when you are by my side, the days don't feel as long or tiresome.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

I still remember the last time I saw you like it was yesterday. How you turned away from me with sad brown eyes. As you walked towards the exit of the dressing room in Budokan hall, I knew you were crying. I wanted so much to tell you to stop, to come back and that this wasn't the end. Yet I couldn't bring myself to say those words that I've been hiding deep within my heart.

Do you know how much I need you right now Gaki-san?

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

Now that you're gone, my heart aches with every second that I think of you. I miss your face, your breath, your everything. Why didn't I cherish the times when you would nag at me, when you showed me concern and asked if I was okay.

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

I must be crazy. As I am reminded of you wherever I go, whatever I do. In the kitchen while pouring myself a glass of water, I recall how you spilt your drink all over the counter top and on your hands when I crept up on you and poked you at your side. AI-CHANNNNNNNNNNNNNN! You would whine with the cutest pout as I grinned back at you, only able to reveal my mischievous side with you.

Pushing the crystal glass away, I left it standing on the marble surface as I dragged my feet zombie-like back to my room, the need to quench my thirst no long important. As the door swings open with a soft creak, I notice your pajamas bottom and the tank top that you last wore when you slept over lying in the corner. The green and gray screams out to me, reminding me of how beautiful you looked in them. The material accentuating your curves and taut body. Bending down to pick them up, I bring the soft cotton to my nose, breathing in deeply.

"Come back to me Risa. I was stupid to not realize sooner how perfect we were together."

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do, reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

We could read each others' minds without saying anything. You would understand what I wanted, needed with a single glance or change in expression. I guess I took it all for granted, as I never once told you how much I appreciate all that you're done for me. Perhaps I never thought a day would come when you wouldn't be there for me anymore.

I've never told you how much you mean to me, that the only reason why I could give my best on performances or live my life to the fullest was because you were there for me. I want you Risa, I need you.

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

I'm no longer like how I used to be. I'm no longer whole. A part of me has died since the day you left. It's as if I've become blind, deaf, when I can't see you or hear you on a daily basis.

I could give everything up just to hold you in my arms again, to be able to bully and smack you on the head. If I could start over, I would tell you... how much you really mean to me and that I loved you and will still love you, for the rest of my life.

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

1 more day to D-day + Evil (?) Airi

2011-09-29T15:48:00.007+08:00

This is the best AiGaki clip in ages. I love how huge and round Ai's eyes were when Risa appeared. The smacks on the head she gave the poor bean were ultra cute. It's clear that Gaki had tears in her eyes as she looked at Ai. I love how she went to hold leader in her arms. Awwwwwwwwwww it's so sweet. I almost shed a few tears myself when Risa said it was lonely that everyone is graduating or has graduated. Though Ai says it will be alright, I doubt sub-leader fully believes it at this point. It's hard to when the most popular member and her longest comrade will be leaving tomorrow!

4:36 min Schoolgirl Ai is cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love her oufit. Why does she always get the best clothes??

Damn UFA for releasing more concert goods only now (it's too freaking late damnit!) when there is no way for me to beg anyone to get them. I'm in love with Ai's solo poster and the photosets of her with Risa and Sayumi. And those heartshaped keychains!!! THEY ARE KAWAII!!!!! I NEED THEM!!!!!!!!!!!

Why am I not living in Japan =( Or better yet, why isn't MM a local group =(

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This new movie has Yurina as the lead and Airi in a smaller role. Is she 2nd lead? I have no idea. But boy can she pull off the evil look. Is she the evil girl in the movie?

I think it's proven that the evil expression is easiest to do that's why no matter how bad an actress someone is, they can always succeed in evil roles.

Oh yes, how are they gonna find a guy tall enough for Yurina? And is everyone else gonna have to stand on a step ladder to film scene with her? =X I wanna watch this, along with the vampire movies. Why can't local theatres scene them?

Kame Kame Kame!!!

2011-09-26T21:06:00.007+08:00

Found a fic featuring Eri and a Kpop boy band member. I don't usually like to see the girls paired with other people outside of MM but surprisingly, I wasn't put off by this story. In fact I find it quite believable and enjoyable to read. Watching the trailer which was made for it by one of the readers of the fic, I'm both in awe and ashamed that I could never produce something of such good quality =(

I hope to discover more FICs with Kame, Gaki, Ai and Sayumi. K4 saikou always!

And I miss the turtle! How are you getting along these days Eririn? I want you back in idol world! Actress, singer or model. Anything! Just please come back soon =(...

Love's Obsession (2)

2011-09-24T17:59:00.004+08:00

8.35 am on a Monday morning and I'm stuck in the ladies, puking my guts out. After an unidentified period of time, I flush the wc and staggered unsteadily to the sink area. The cold water makes me feel slightly better as I rinsed my mouth and splashed the liquid on my face. Staring at my reflection in the mirror, I was shocked to see the extent of my pale skin. On my way back to the office, I run into another colleague who didn't belong to the 'three musketeers' I usually go for lunch break with.

"Are you okay? You look really pale."

Her words sounded echo-y and her face blurry as I blinked to combine the multiple images of her standing before me.

"I'm fine."

Forcing a smile, I sent her on her way and returned to my seat. Inside my cubicle, I take a small sip of warm water hoping that the hot drink would ease the turbulence in my stomach. Unfortunately it didn't and fresh tears threatened to slip from the corners of my eyes.

No! Not now, not here!

These words repeated themselves in my mind as I tore at a piece of tissue to dab at my eyes. I couldn't let anyone see me in such a state or they would ask me what was wrong. I didn't want to explain myself or tell them why I was being so upset. Turning my face towards the computer terminal lined up against the wall, I hid my teary eyes and prayed no one would look for me until I had significantly calmed down.

It was always the same, I would never have anyone by my side when I feel sick or depressed.

The vibration of my cellphone brought my attention to the little device and I picked it up and to read the message that had come in.

How is Kame today? Gaki saw a cute French guy at the airport! He was so gentlemanly.

It was surprising that she would send me a message out of the blue. Tilting my head sideways to glance at my desktop calendar, I realized it was Friday and she was probably on her way home from work.

Kame is unwell and wants to go home. Did you get French guy's number?

You will be knocking off soon right? Nah, Gaki doesn't like guys.

After a couple more messages, she stops replying and I figured she must have arrived home. Gaki, full name Niigaki Risa, is a straight A student. Currently she's also working at a shop set up by her college at the airport to train business students on how to run a retail store. She has to work there once a week so she usually messages me when she is on the train travelling home.

Gaki and I share a weird friendship. We don't speak a lot, as she doesn't reply to text messages often. We hardly even meet since she is a homebody who doesn't like to go out and people. Yet she somehow understands where I'm coming from and on the rare days we manage to hold a decent conversation either through Skype or text messaging, I'm usually telling her about my troubles.

"Eri, you want a lift from me?"

My thoughts were interrupted when I looked up to see the smiley face of a married colleague. Returning her a small smile, I promptly agree and began packing my belongings. Although I've not completed my work, I'm really not feeling well enough to do OT.

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On the journey back, the car is silent as neither of us spoke. I feel bad about not engaging in small talk but I'm really too brain dead to say anything. I'll just have to make up for her kind gesture some other time.

As she drops me off near her home, I begin walking to the nearest train station. It's packed as always and whilst I stand on the platform waiting for the next train, thoughts of her enter my mind.

~Flashback~

"Shelter yourself too!"

She says with a laugh as she tries to push my hand such that the umbrella I was supporting also shielded my torso from the falling rain. It was obvious that I had angled the brolly in a way which only kept her dry.

"It's okay. Let's walk faster, or we'll really end up drenched."

We started running towards the nearest building and in the process, our shoulders brushed against each other numerous times.

~End of flashback~

Stepping into my empty home after fighting through the crowds on the train and bus on the rest of the way home, I'm suddenly overwhelmed by a wave of nausea. Dashing for the bathroom, I throw up what little I had eaten for lunch as well as some whitish fluid streaked with red.

Great, this just never ends. Allowing my body to slip down onto the cold tiles of the bathroom floor, I leaned my back against the wall and closed my eyes.

~Flashback #2~

"What are you planning on ordering?"

She looks down at the menu in concentration and pauses for some time before meeting my eyes.

"Katsu-don?"

I chuckled at how she ended her sentence with an unsure tone and waved the server over. Once our orders were taken, we settled down and lapsed into an easy conversation. The minutes flew past and before we knew it, it was late and time for her to go home.

"Bye bye?"

Once again, her reply caused me to grin. Walking her to the train station, I watched her retreating back as she walked towards the escalator. Not realizing that it took longer than necessary for me to tear my eyes away, I turned on my heel and started on my way towards my own destination. It was only the second time without the rest, yet somehow, it felt so right.

~End of flashback~

That night she messaged me. And that was how, everything I once knew began to fall apart...

Risa: That's how it is, Ai: Our song

2011-09-21T17:24:00.011+08:00

Just 3 days to the Fukui concert and 9 more to the final graduation concert. *SIGH*

I never wanted Ai to graduate, not without Risa by her side. But I sorta knew they would never make it a double graduation like Makoto and Kon Kon or EJL. One reason could possibly be, Ai is much too big a star to have to share her big day with someone else. And another factor could well be that the management weren't confident that a Sayumi x Reina leadership would be the best option for now.

Although I'm more that certain the bunny would make a reliable leader, judging from how well she takes care of Eri in the past as well as her more than good relationship with the remaining members. She probably doesn't have enough experience on how to manage the younglings, hence Gaki should be at the helm for now.

I read this interview of the current leader and sub on the bus and I was touched to the extent of almost bawling my eyes out. I think the portion which affected me the most was how the two could understand what each other was thinking without saying it out. The word used was telepathy and I wholeheartedly agree.

AiGaki hotexpress interview

It seems that they had spoken right from the start, at the temple training during the 5th gen auditions. I didn't expect this to be the case considering they have a two year age difference between them. With so many girls there, I'm sure some others would have been closer in age and less intimidating or weird to start a conversation with. So I guess it was already written in the stars that these two would end up coming such a long way together.

Some mention worthy moments.

--Incidentally, from Gaki-san's point of view, what kind of leader was Takahashi Ai?

Niigaki: The closest one, or how should I put it....a leader who's very close to her juniors. Aichan personally doesn't have the sense of “Because I'm leader,” rather, it's like, “Even though I'm leader, it's easy to talk to me.” It's easy to consult her. She's a leader that the 9th gen can get close to, going, “Takahashi-san!” In that sense she's become a leader who wants to create a cozy Morning Musume. There's still the senior-junior relationship, but in a good way and without creating barriers, she watches over everyone, and everyone also loves her dearly. I really think she's that kind of leader.

---You've conveyed it perfectly.

Niigaki: That's how it is.......

*Niigaki is crying out loud*

Niigaki: But somehow, what is it.......It's difficult, though! Really. Putting it into words.

Now this part, makes me feel that Risa really observed and noticed the type of leadership Ai chose to go with. She put it so well that I want to give her a hug and squeeze (no dirty thoughts please XD) for saying it.

Niigaki: We've come along having worked hard together like that, so she also does things like worry about our future. I myself am also very uneasy.....but we were able to work hard and come this far, even while worrying, “Will it be ok after she graduates?” so I think we'll be fine. [We'll move forward] so that we don't worry her about anything,

That's why I think because Ai-chan also worries about this Morning Musume that has been built up, we have to continue it properly so as not to worry her. We'll move forward in a very positive way.

Awww, it's touching how they try not to worry the other. This is really what true, close friends are made of. Always having the other party on your mind and wanting whats best for them. *SNIFF*

---Moreover, the duo Takahashi Ai x Niigaki Risa from that album will also be shown during the tour, right?

Niigaki: I'm very happy that at the very last moment a song was written for the two of us. Moreover, singing it feels really good. We're singing it with great care during the tour.

Takahashi: It's an extremely happy song. I think it's also such a blessing to be able to say that it's “our song.” Furthermore, we get to harmonize. When it comes to harmony, it's not right unless you both depend on each other's melody, right? Gaki-san can be very reliable when it comes to that, so although I say, “it can feel really great singing it in concert,” I'm singing it just naturally, so there are times when it's like, “Eh? We should harmonize at that part, right?” (laughs). The two of us can sing with a natural feeling to the point that we don't even worry about that.

I'm happy for the last AiGaki duet. I'm sure it will be beautiful *sad smile*

Sayu's 爱

2011-09-21T17:05:00.005+08:00

I usually don't love any pairings above my AiGaki, KameShige and KameMame.

But this perv fic by Rokun was really all kinds of win. It was really quite sweet in the beginning then it turned into this incredibly...I-don't-even-know-how-to-explain-it kind of awesome XD I'm predicting it will turn into that kind of awesome cuz I have not even read it to the end yet, lol. I just decided to blog about it cuz I'd expect that I'll want to reread it again but I might not be able to find it again then.

I think I'm in a lame mood cuz I find the title for my this post quite smart.

Sayu's 爱 = Sayumi's Ai = Sayumi's love. XDDDDD

What beats staying in bed and sleeping in on a rainy day?

Staying in bed, reading great fics featuring my fave MM girls on a day where no one else is home. Now, if only the annoying aches would go away.

Last Chance

Sayumi walked slowly through the dark, watching all the late night revelers as they went about whatever “business” they had. Most didn’t seem to hurry where they were going, but sometimes she would hear footsteps of people – usually couples or groups – running and laughing, or crying out at whatever craziness they were up to.

Sayumi sighed wistfully. It seemed a world so foreign to her with the restrictions of being an idol. She couldn’t just be free to see whomever she wanted whenever she wanted, or go to parties or just have a romping night on the town. Parties that were much more than the one she just attended, at least.

She glanced again at the person walking next to her, who almost appeared to be brooding. Seriously, how did the girl manage to do that so often? She was probably lost in amazement that someone actually bought her a cake and recognized her birthday tonight.

“Ai-chan!” she said, poking at Leader’s arm.

“Mm?” the girl replied smoothly, as if they’d been in conversation the whole time.

Sayumi brandished an arm at her, her bag waving from her wrist. “I’m surprised you don’t have more to say about tonight.”

Ai gave her what almost appeared to be a bewildered expression. “About tonight?” she asked blankly. “Concerning what?”

Concerning what!? Sayumi felt like smacking her with her bag. No matter how cool she looked walking with that slouch and hat and hands in her pockets. Instead, she restrained herself. This was not some host she needed to antagonize on TV; this was Ai-chan, Ai-chan who was her dear senpai and friend, and whom she had loved for most of her life.

She pulled her cell phone out and checked the time. An LCD 23:56 shone back at her. “You know Ai-chan, you’ll be twenty-five in four more—”

“Three,” Ai shot back right away, her never-changing stare directed straight ahead. She smiled. “It’s become three since you looked at your phone.”

Sayumi checked it again. The girl was right.

Not wanting to spend too much time thinking about how she knew that, just filing it away as another surprisingly unsurprising thing about her Leader, she continued on with what she was going to say.

“It’ll turn while we’re walking here, you know.”

“I expect it will,” Ai replied. Her calm, non-chalant precision was almost maddening sometimes. She was really such a geek. That was one reason Sayumi sometimes wondered why she even loved her.

“Well…” Sayumi said, as usual thinking fast to keep up with the girl. “What if I said I have a present to give you right when it turns midnight?”

This made Ai turn to her, and Sayumi saw a smile of pure happiness and the sparkle in her eyes. “A present?” the girl asked disbelievingly. “For me? Really? I feel like I’ve already gotten so many presents tonight…” she pondered, looking back ahead.

“Only from Aika,” Sayumi replied quickly. “The DVD was certainly thoughtful though. Well, and the cake, and the takoyaki I suppose…”

“Takoyaki…” Ai murmured, and Sayumi could almost see the wheels turning in her head, bringing the fond memory back to the front. Aika had really cooked them quite amazingly.

“Ahe~m!” Sayumi said, clearing her throat, and drawing the girl’s curious attention back to her. “I believe we were talking about my present.”

Ai suddenly fell into a relaxed smile. “Of course, Sayu. But really, you shouldn’t have.”

Peering subtly down at her phone again with her bag, and seeing that it now said 0:00, she looked up and, without a moment’s hesitation, leaned forward to press her lips against Ai’s.

Ai was too shocked to avoid it, and when Sayumi pulled back with a smile, the girl was staring at her wide-eyed. “Happy birthday,” she said quietly as the two girls stood nearly frozen beside the street. For the first time Sayumi became aware that someone else nearby could have easily spotted them, but thankfully no one seemed to have been close enough.

“Sayumi…” Ai said, trailing off in stunned silence.

“Gotcha again,” Sayumi joked, attempting to ease the tension. For some reason it didn’t work though. For some reason, the tension felt like it still hung in the air, heavy as ever.

Ai blushed, and glanced around meekly. “That was reckless, you know,” she said, once again the chastising senpai. “This isn’t a concert set up for entertainment. It’s our private time. It’s just us.”

“I know,” Sayumi replied, gazing steadily at the girl. “It is just us. Ai-chan,” she began, swallowing a lump in her throat. This wasn’t supposed to be so hard! “Ai-chan, I love you. I know it sounds silly, but it’s true.”

“Not at all,” Ai replied, narrowing her eyes a bit at her. “I of course love you too, Sayumin. I’m going to miss all of you so much…”

Sayumi shook her head vigorously. “No. That’s not what I mean. I mean… There’s no way I could ever be worthy, but I love you. I want to be with you, like… like a man loves a woman.”

“Sayu…” Ai murmured, seeming at a complete loss.

Sayumi could feel tears beginning to come to her eyes. “I know it could never be, but I just… before you left, and there won’t likely ever be as perfect a time like this again with just the two of us before all the chaos, I just had to make sure and tell you. I wanted you to know.”

“Sayumin…” Ai said, and took a step closer.

Sayumi really was beginning to cry now, and took out a tissue to try and stifle her sobs. Ai still stood there, right in front of her, such emotion in her face just like always… She really would make such a good actor. And not just that…

Damn the girl for always managing to look so insanely cool… and hot.

“Sayumi, stop it,” Ai said, and Sayumi felt arms around her as she pulled her into a tight hug. Sayumi clung on tight, worried that she’d never get the chance again, and somehow the sobs she expected never fully came.

Then, still embracing, Ai pulled back to gaze into her face, long-lashed eyes shining with moisture staring straight into her own. And, though Sayumi could scarcely believe it, she felt hot lips upon hers once again. This time though it didn’t break, and the two girls, lost to time and space, for the first time fully took in the sensation it created in them. For the first time, they truly kissed each other.

At first their lips were still, but after a moment it developed into gentle caresses. Sayumi didn’t know who did it first, but their lips parted and they tasted each other. Wanting more, not knowing any better, Sayumi slid her tongue through the crevasse created between Ai’s lips, and soon tongues as well as lips enjoyed the soft caressing.

When they finally did part, they held their faces still close, Sayumi breathing quickly, Ai barely seeming like anything had changed. “What…” Sayumi began, trying to form a coherent thought. “What was that…?”

“I don’t know,” Ai murmured, ending with a soft titter. “It was just… something I felt like doing.” Then she looked intensely into Sayumi’s eyes, this time almost completely stealing away her breath. “Sayumi…” she said, and Sayumi recognized Ai’s serious mode. This made her not just a little bit concerned.

“Yes…?” Sayumi mustered with what breath she had left.

“Do you want to really give me a birthday present tonight?” Sayumi’s eyes narrowed slightly in confusion, but Ai’s gaze never wavered. “Teach me…” the girl began. The arms around Sayumi now seemed to be burning into her flesh. “Teach me how to love.”

Sayumi blinked.

“Um…” she said finally. It was now completely impossible to think. “I can’t.”

Ai’s features fell slightly, disappointment crossing her face.

“I mean,” Sayumi interjected quickly, brain whirring into action again. “I can’t… teach you something I don’t even know myself.” She felt like she was going crazy. Here she had Ai, in the most perfect situation at the most perfect time, and she was a failure. Why did this even need to happen? She knew she was inadequate for someone like Ai, someone nearly so perfect, so why did it have to get driven in even harder like a stake to the heart after the coffin had already been nailed shut?

But then,

Suddenly, Ai smiled.

“Then let’s learn together.”

…

Come again?

“I’ll be graduating soon,” the girl continued, a haunted look coming into her eyes. “I’m so scared. I’m terrified. I know what it is I want to do, but this is virtually all I’ve known. I wonder… I wonder if this is one thing I can do to prepare for what’s to come.”

“You want…” Sayumi said, brow furrowing. “You want… to practice? Practice on me before… before the real thing?”

Ai blinked, and she seemed to think again. “No.” She shook her head. “No. Of course not. That’s not what I meant. I’m sorry, that was dumb. There will be so many questions in my life, things I’ll be experiencing for the first time. Maybe… maybe this doesn’t have to be one of them.” She looked up into Sayumi’s eyes again. “I’m twenty-five now. Maybe this is one thing out of so many that should have been settled long ago… that doesn’t have to be a question.”

Ai looked at her, anticipating a response, but as none came while Sayumi just stared dreamily back, she continued, “…Are you all right? I’m sorry. I’m just being stupid again, aren’t I?”

“Shut up,” Sayumi interjected suddenly, cutting her off completely. Ai looked querulously up at her. “Shut up…” Sayumi repeated again, shaking her head slightly. “And just kiss me.”

Ai’s eyes widened, but it was only a momentary hesitation before she did as ordered and kissed her again, Sayumi now feeling as if impossible dreams had somehow come true.

After realizing they’d been out in full public view for long enough, they soon made their way to a nearby hotel, and after short negotiation at the reception found themselves in a room with a large bed in front of them as they held hands before it.

“So…” Sayumi said.

“Yep…” Ai replied just as pointlessly.

“What… do you suppose we do now?” Sayumi asked, looking down at her companion.

“You’d think we’ve never shared a hotel room before,” Ai commented wryly.

Sayumi giggled, and pulled slightly at the girl’s hand as they turned to face each other. She glanced at the loose collar of Ai’s t-shirt, and down to her shorts and the thin chain dangling from the pocket before moving back up to her face. Then she reached up to pull off her hat. “Well to start with…” Sayumi began, tossing it aside, a blush rushing quickly to her face as she continued, “Maybe you can take my clothes off?”

Ai cocked an eyebrow at her. “I’m surprised you’d even let someone else touch them like that.”

“You’re the fashion diva,” Sayumi mumbled in reply, looking pleadingly up into her face. “Mou~ do you really have to make this harder than it is already?? Doesn’t every girl long for her prince to come and just whisk her away?”

“Every girl?” Ai asked with a smile, but stepped closer to her. “Or just a princess?”

Sayumi blushed once again.

However, it was short-lived as Ai reached up to her collar. She carefully began undoing the buttons of her blouse, smiling reassuringly the whole way until she got to the bottom, and then pulling it apart to reveal the light strapped shirt beneath. She tenderly slid the blouse down her arms, followed by the spaghetti straps of her undershirt until her shoulders were exposed.

Now for the first time Ai appeared nervous also as she continued pulling it down past her lacy blue bra until it sat below her belly button. Sayumi could hardly contain her anxiety, as well as her excitement, but did her best to stay still as Ai rested her hands at her waist a moment, her eyes fixed there as well.

“And now my skirt?” Sayumi managed to request, wondering where the bravery was coming from.

“Um, of course…” Ai replied, and reached around her waist. After loosening the band, all it took was for her to remove her hands before it fell to Sayumi’s feet, revealing the somewhat lacy but generally plain panties to match the bra. Sayumi was now a bit embarrassed she hadn’t worn something more… inviting… but she couldn’t have imagined she’d be having sex tonight!

Suddenly she froze at the thought. That was the first time she’d completely thought of it in that way. She was hopefully going to have sex tonight! With Ai-chan! The air of unreality hit her with full force once again.

“Are you okay?” Ai asked, her face twisted slightly in worry as she held her hands still after they had begun pushing her undershirt the rest of the way down.

Sayumi looked up at her and blinked. “Um, yes… Everything’s fine.” Then she put her hands atop Ai’s, helping her to push the shirt down past her panties to join the skirt at her feet.

When she stepped out of them, she looked back into Ai-chan’s face, which was still directed below. Feeling self-conscious again, Sayumi crossed her arms below her chest. She knew it. She’d gotten this far, but she should have known it long ago. She wasn’t satisfactory enough for Ai-chan.

“Mou~” she said, trying not to sound too pathetic. “Stop staring!”

Ai seemed to break out of a trance and looked up at her again. “Sorry. It’s just… you really are beautiful.”

“Liar,” Sayumi whined, but in her head she was screaming “So freaking cool!!!”

“Not at all,” Ai replied, and stepped forward to take her in her arms once again. If she thought Ai’s touch felt hot before, it was nothing compared to now against her bare skin.

Ai leaned in to kiss her, for the first time since arriving at the hotel, and as it quickly deepened she was very conscious of hands wandering over her back. She could feel fingers pluck lightly at the strap of her bra until finally they deftly undid it, and after the straps fell to her sides, Ai pulled back slightly to let the entire garment fall to the floor between them.

Sayumi did her best to lose herself in the kiss and not anticipate what might happen next – it was actually rather easy since Ai’s tongue was delicious as well as insatiable – but when she felt a hand envelop her breast there was nothing she could do to prevent a moan from escaping into the other’s mouth.

Perhaps encouraged by the sound, Ai squeezed her hand gently around the soft flesh, and when a thumb flicked over her nipple Sayumi felt her body tremble and her legs give out slightly, momentarily breaking the kiss.

Ai looked into her eyes as if to make sure everything was all right, but in response Sayumi grabbed her free hand in both of hers and slid it down her stomach, brazenly stuffing it beneath the lace of her panties. Ai paused in surprise, but it was nothing compared to what Sayumi felt when the girl’s fingers incidentally came into contact with the tender flesh she had been aiming them toward.

“Rub me,” Sayumi commanded, now giving herself over to lust, and after a moment Ai did as she was told.

Her hips gyrating with the girl’s finger motions, Sayumi now felt a burning need to feel the other’s skin, and so grabbed at the hem of her t-shirt to tug it and what was beneath, if a bit awkwardly, up and off, until all that was left above Ai’s shorts as well was her bra. She leaned in to kiss Ai’s neck just as her moans continued at what Ai’s fingers were doing between her legs. She circled her arms around the tautly-muscled body, once again fleetingly feeling unsatisfactory herself, and clumsily pulled down the sports bra to reveal Ai’s glorious chest.

Sayumi spent only a moment admiring it though before immediately taking a nipple into her mouth, making Ai now begin to moan along with herself.

The two girls continued pleasuring each other this way until Sayu pulled away to sit back on the bed. Scooting back until her head reached the pillow, she laid back and spread her legs before Ai, a pleading, desperate look on her face.

Ai stared at her a moment, whether studying her or without thought Sayumi couldn’t know, didn’t care at the time, but then climbed onto the bed to join her lover. Seeing Ai still in her shorts, Sayumi cursed before leaning up, pulling a confused Ai to a sitting position to undo the shorts. Eventually she managed to drag them down her legs, leaving the older now in only panties as well, before sitting back once again with her legs spread.

Ai now had the grace to blush at being exposed to her companion, but Sayu didn’t want to let her get away with that for long. Grabbing lightly at her wrist, she drew the girl’s eyes to her own. “If you don’t do something to me soon…”

Almost before she could get all the words out, Ai slid up to capture her lips in another kiss. Sayumi gave a short cry at the sudden movement, but soon the feel of the girl completely on top of her took over.

Ai didn’t spend much time at her mouth though before kissing down the middle of her neck and the valley between her breasts. Sayumi gave a short gurgle of disappointment that she ignored the nipples, but Ai’s advance soon calmed any of that.

Down her stomach to her belly button, and on down from there. Sayumi did her best to keep from squirming, embarrassed at how sensitive she was while imagining Ai’s abs. Mmm.. abs…

When Ai reached the hem of her panties she trailed slow kisses along them as her fingers hooked into the elastic. Sayumi eagerly lifted her hips as they began to be pulled down, and Ai followed them with her lips past the thin bush and on down her thigh.

Sayumi awkwardly tried to kick the underwear off, but Ai had to help her. Afterward, she grabbed at the girl’s light-colored hair to pull her between her legs. Ai easily resisted her though, instead grinning up at her while pushing her legs further apart. “Easy now,” she teased. “I’ll take good care of you.”

“You better,” Sayumi growled in desperation, before relaxing her legs in hopes the girl would keep to her promise.

Boy, she sure did.

The first thing Sayumi felt was a slow lick along her slit, and she could certainly no longer relax. Ai held her legs down as she nibbled at the flaps over her entrance, and it was a good thing she did so. When her tongue poked inside, Sayumi began grinding herself against the girl’s mouth as well.

Looking down at the sight of Ai’s hair bouncing as her face buried itself into her crotch, Sayumi nearly exploded right there in amazement at what was happening. It was truly like a dream come true. A really hentai dream. From a real hentai. Yep, that was Sayumi.

Then she really did explode.

…

The next time she opened her eyes, she stared up into soft features that relaxed in relief. “I thought you’d passed out…” Ai said worriedly.

“I did,” Sayumi replied, eyes wide as they gazed dreamily upward. “I was in Heaven…”

“Um…” Ai mumbled, starting to look very uncomfortable now.

But then Sayumi’s eyes focused onto her own, and the bunny smiled. “I still am.”

This time Ai completely blushed, but Sayumi barely saw it as she pulled her down for a deeply tender kiss. As they kissed, Sayumi made sure to squeeze her tightly, feel as much warm flesh as she could. It felt like Ai did the same. Then she did her best to roll over, finally managing to come out atop the shorter yet older woman. Breaking the kiss, Sayumi looked down into her eyes.

“You really are my prince,” she said with a wide smile. When Ai smiled fondly back, she continued, twirling a finger into her boyish locks, “And you’re one of the few girls I know who would completely take that as a compliment.”

“What can I say?” Ai replied. “I guess I’m just one of the boys.”

Sayumi immediately flashed a wicked grin that wiped the smile from Ai’s features. Then she thrust her hand down between the other’s legs, though above her panties. When she began to rub slow and hard, the other gasped.

“I beg to differ,” Sayumi said in a low voice, and leaned down to kiss the other’s neck.

As Ai began breathing heavily, Sayumi sucked gently at her neck. She made her way deliberately down her collarbone until she reached the top of her chest. The suctioning kisses then continued up the soft flesh to her nipple, which Sayumi vacuumed greedily between her lips.

Ai now began moaning at Sayumi’s aggressive sucking, not to mention the pressure between her legs, but Sayumi herself was presented with a dilemma. She was afraid her tongue wasn’t yet adequate for what Ai had just done to her, so instead of risking embarrassment – whether Ai actually complained or not was not even a factor – she wedged her fingers underneath the elastic of her panties, cupping her soft mound for a moment before sliding down to her moist prize.

Ai’s body now tensed and almost arched, and Sayu’s envy at its strength almost overcame her. Well, to the point where she became even more aggressive with her actions at least. Sucking as hard as she could, even biting from time to time, she wasted no time in thrusting a finger in past Ai’s folds.

Ai cried out – very un-princely – time and time again as Sayumi sucked and thrust. After Sayumi switched to her other nipple only moments passed before the girl convulsed, fluid seeping out to drench Sayumi’s fingers – and Ai’s panties. Sayumi didn’t stop though, and after a minute Ai came once again.

“Sayumi…” Ai breathed, moaned, cried out desperately. “I can’t…”

With a plop, Sayumi’s lips detached from her nipple. “You can’t what, Ai-chan?” she asked with a smirk, pulling the cum-covered hand out of her panties and bringing it to her mouth as she sat straddling Ai’s waist. She peered at the shining liquid a moment before sticking a finger fully in to suck it dry.

Ai gulped beneath her.

Sayumi wasn’t done yet.

Scooting back, she grabbed Ai’s soaked panties roughly and pulled them down her legs, Ai giving cute little yelps as she tried to maneuver her legs to help. Then Sayu held the fabric up to her face, inhaling in a long sniff.

“You’re gross, you know that,” Ai said, finally sounding amused.

“Oh really?” Sayumi replied. “And who just came twice into her panties and onto my fingers?”

Ai went scarlet, but Sayumi threw the garment aside and leaned down to lie comfortably beside her lover. One leg straddled the others’, and her burning loins pressed comfortably against the side of Ai’s hip. Still incredibly horny, Sayumi humped it slowly, the taut muscles feeling wonderful against her, and making it damp as well with her own seeping moisture.

Kissing Ai’s cheekbone, she played her still-damp fingers along the girl’s lips. “I love you, Ai-chan,” she said over and over, as she one by one slipped each finger into her mouth. Then she lifted her head and kissed Ai’s moist lips.

“So,” Sayumi breathed, just above the other’s face. “How many questions do you still have left to ask?”

Ai smiled at her, reaching up to brush strands of silky black hair behind her ear and down her back. “Well…” she began, and Sayumi lightly kissed her nose.

“Yes?” the bunny replied, eyes sparkling.

“Maybe one less.”

At the response, Sayumi snuggled her face into the crook of Ai’s neck. “Ai-chan…” she purred.

“Mmm?”

“Make love to me again.”

“As you wish.”

…

…Kakkoii.

Ai, Momo, Vampire Stories and a Lack of Bean

2011-09-18T12:49:00.005+08:00

Da fuck! This expression is so damn right. After watching that clip of Momo being made a fool of and practically abused on national tv makes me so damn pissed! How could UFA send their girls onto such degrading programs??! I always knew that in Japan society females are so called more worthless as compared to males but what the f***!? They shouldn't be kicked around and dragged across the floor! I remember one of those bastards used to do similar sick actions to either Mari or Kei. This whole so called manner of entertainment makes me sick! It's totally uncalled for. I don't know if Momoko is the only one from Berryz subjected to this form of torment but none of them should have to. I doubt they would have asked Miya to do it. She would have gone ballistic. What irks me is how her team mates could laugh along? Even if it were an act, it's still sick. I hope C-ute and MM never have to go through the same shit. Gaki-san and Sayu, please just quit if they ever forced you to appear on such crap variety shows.

After watching Ai's handshake event held at Fukuya bookstore, I wish I was the owner of that chain of stores. Imagine having all your favorite girls come to your shop and holding a whole event! Does Fukuya only sell photobooks? Cuz we don't see such events being held at Kino ne?

Ai was as always oh so adorable. Especially in her light brown hat. She seems somewhat pale on the cover of her pb. And the color of her lips! I dont know why but her skin and lips color made me link that image to her being a vampire. Wouldn't that be sexy? A love story featuring Vampire Ai with mortal Risa. Throw in some fighting, excitment, blood, explosions and car chases and you would have an incredible movie! Oooh I will be so anticipating the kissing scenes. It's obvious Ai-chan was caught off guard when the reporter asked her about Kago. Where is her manager or staff?! She shouldn't be left to fend off surprising questions that she can't answer on her own. Man, how I wish I could attend such handshake events for either Gaki, Sayu or Ai. Hmmm, must plan the trip such that it coincides with an event.

The trailer and navigation clips of Brothers and Chasers look promising. Hopefully Airi and Reina would end up getting more movies. I want them to get to act in dramas next! And become popular and 强手!

Wonder why Mame didn't blog for so many days. Is she too busy with filming her movie? I can't wait to watch it or know what it's about. Please be successful *prays*

How nice it would be to be in Japan when the vampire movies are screening. Or Risa's movie. It would be the best trip ever to be able to include concerts, events, H!P movies, H!P shops, Ai's play, shopping and hot springs in the same trip. Did I leave anything else out?

Happy Music 17 Sept 2011

2011-09-17T23:32:00.009+08:00

It was only 1:30 min but MM's rendition of 'Best Friend' sounds really sweet. I cried before Reina even started singing. Somehow she sounds lower than usual. Perhaps she has yet to fully recover from her flu? Gaki wasn't as good as she usually is. Maybe she was too overwhelmed by emotions. Sayu was... Cute. Because she managed to make a mistake barely halfway into her line. Then again, she wouldn't be Sayu if she were a fabulous singer. Aika wasn't around yet it didn't look weird. That sounds mean doesn't it? But I didn't mean to sound so. Hopes she recovers soon.

Risa looked surprisingly gorgeous. I couldn't tear my eyes away. Awesome hair for once. Ai-chan really is a crybaby. But it's hard to blame her. It was a touching perf and the mere gesture of it means so much. Don't lose contact with the rest Ai. It's not easy to find true and worthy friends. Though Gaki might be bossy and what not, at least she's always there. And Sayu is someone anyone would wish for. Eri is so lucky to have her. I doubt 'Happy Music' sees many graduations and sad farewells cuz it would be downright ironic to name the show happy something when everyone is crying and being upset.

Ai really has "face" to have so many OGs make a special clip for her. Wonder why Yuko and Nacchi didn't make an appearance. Did the oldest yankii put her foot down?

Love's Obsession (1)

2011-09-17T22:58:00.005+08:00

"Did you forget to bring your phone today?"

A colleague asks as she notices that I didn't place my mobile on the table during lunch. The rest of my coworkers stares my way their interest piqued by the ongoing conversation.

"No. I just didn't bring it along. Left it in my drawer."

Seeing their perplexed expressions, I continued.

"There isn't a need to bring it since I don't get any messages."

Shrugging my shoulders and flashing a wry smile, I lowered my head and starting tucking into the food in front of me. In no time, the trio of ladies too began work on their lunch while their fingers danced over the keypad of their shiny blackberry cellphones. Watching them smile and grin at their screens, I force myself to concentrate on the plate of unappetizing rice.

It's okay. It won't hurt anymore one day.

-----

I swing the door close after stepping into the quiet apartment. The clock strikes 9.30 as I hang my keys on the little hook in the wall and kick off my shoes. Walking further into my empty home, I place my bag on the dinner room chair and head into my room. Thankfully my family members are away and I didn't have to content with answering stupid questions tonight. I'm exhausted from working overtime and the pounding in my head isn't helping matters.

Too tired physically to shower, I stripped off my outer coat and tossed it in a corner. The laundry will just have to wait till I'm feeling better. Realizing that I'm quite soaked from the sudden storm which had drenched me from head to toe, I decided to not ruin my bed and just settle by sleeping on the floor. Taking a pillow and resting it on the floor, I laid down on it.

Lying down on my side, I closed and eyes and waited for sleep to kick in. Unfortunately sleep did not take me and I reopened my eyes to search for my medication. Removing tablets of different colors from their packaging, I threw them into my mouth and swallowed a whole cup of water. I hated pills and it irritated me to have to take them on a daily basis.

The throbbing in my head seemed to lighten and the medicine seemed to help the stabbing pain in my stomach. Now if only the nausea would stop too. Lying down on my left side once more, I stared into the whitewashed wall until the image of a familiar raven haired girl appeared.

"Did you only just get home?"

I nodded wordlessly as our eyes locked. Feeling my orbs turn moist, I blinked repeated to stop my tears from flowing.

"I only have you. I wish I could hold you. It hurts...so much."

My words didn't make sense and no one would be able to understand what I was trying to say. Yet the new arrival didn't have to ask to know what I meant.

"I know it's painful but it will stop one day. I will be where you want me to be and I will do what you want me to do."

"Really?"

I replied with my voice wavering. I was desperate, lost and hurting. My entire being hoped that my heart and mind could forget everything that was tormenting me. That I could escape the physical pain that my body was subjected to.

"Promise. Now close your eyes and sleep. Feel better tomorrow."

I stared at her again, my vision transfixed on her beautiful features.

"Please never leave me..."

Those were the last words I remembered uttering as I drifted off to an uneasy sleep.

小爱25了

2011-09-14T06:57:00.003+08:00

小爱生日快乐。

不知道阿垣怎样为你庆祝不过希望那是个难忘的一天。
重来不觉得你像25岁。现在也一样。
年轻真好。

祝你毕业后会更成功和有人气。
也许明年能够在日本看到你精彩的演出。
我期待再次看到你和绘里。
请等等我。
就算只是我一个人。。。

Androgynous Ai may work. If other countries can have successful female singers who go down this route, why not Ai-chan? Height isn't even an issue. She can be just as handsome and cool as the others. Please give her a good image, songs and dance. I want to see her succeed and be popular. She can...she will...

2011-09-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

I thought AiGaki went overseas for a holiday together. Turns out it was for work. But at least they were the only ones if you don't include the staff. Is there a salonplas stuck on Ai's neck? Gosh, Risa really shouldn't be so rough. To make up for the strain Gaki should give Ai a massage instead of letting the poor girl rely on medicated plasters since they don't really work. That is my conclusion after trying them so many times. I love the pics on Ai-chan's blog. They both look so gorgeous.

好像是说明天或后天可以回家。
看吧。

爱 Believe...

2011-09-04T03:03:00.003+08:00

It's fast huh, already two of the current MM concerts are over which means just 8 more to go before leader graduates =( I still can't figure out why they only have 10 concerts?! It's much too little. After seeing the concert goods going on sale, I cant believe how much stuff I want. Of course the wristband and MM shirt set is a must have. I love how they incorporated the heart design. Pure brilliance really. One of the rare moments UFA comes out with good stuff. Gosh the cap! Its awesome! If there is only one item that can be bought, this has to be it. I only like Ai's uchiwa and all three of AiGakiShige's shirts and microfibre towels have to be purchased! Notice Risa's hair is the lighter shade as compared to the uchiwa. I guess this means the pictures were taken at different periods. I adore Ai-chan's outfit in here. The little bowtie adds on to her overall cuteness =) Oh Sayu has a bowtie too =D and Gaki's outfit isn't too shabby either. Kyaaaaa~! I also need the individual photo sets of AiGakiShige! They are all so beautiful! The group photo sets look nice too and it's only because of these three =x And after buying a truckload of stuff, it's only right if they are placed inside the shopping bag to be carried home xD The theme this time seems more kiddish. Is it to cater to 9th gen? I prefer sexy but since Ai makes most themes look good I can still accept this =P Sigh, Ai Believe... the mere mention of the title makes a part of me die inside. I'm gonna miss one Takahashi Ai =(...

Saw a pic of AiGaki on stage from the current tour and it made me sad! Ai looked like she was crying and it made me tear too. I thought Risa put on more weight and was relieved that she didn't continue down her scary weight lost route. But apparently fans who attended the concert commented that she was way too thin. Nooooo! I don't want Gaki-san to remain like this?! She must go back to her healthy BMI soon or it could really harm her health =(

2011-09-03T04:07:00.006+08:00

A string of pb pics were posted on Ai's blog and they mostly look beautiful. Really envy her manager for getting to take such photos of her. Love her in the white dress which is too gorgeous. Those fluffy things, are they a hair accessory? They remind me of ear muffs people wear during cold season ^^; The bikini shot was o.O I can only say wow wee..

Why is it that I check AiGaki's blogs multiple times a day and Sayu's once every few day when I like Sayumi more than Ai-chan? Never understood that.

Is Risa the lead in that new musical? Hope that isn't her hairstyle for the actual play. There will be a DVD for this right? I'm annoyed that I can't get AiGaki play DVD. No Ai, Sayu and Aika tour either. And mm DVD 36-38 nor Eri graduation related stuff. Multiupload hates me and I hate it too.

2011-09-02T21:37:00.006+08:00

Risa has a new hair color. At first i thought it was the light in her blog pics. Now i know its for real and it looks strange. Im certain Ai and Eri had It before. Possibly Reina too and they didn't look bad. So why Gaki-san? I guess not everyone suits the color? And why are you so skinny?! Please don't be overly stressed. H!P and MM won't ever return to it's peak and no one should blame you for it. Nor Ai-chan. The two 5th gens have done too much to be targeted for the disappointing sales and lack of media exposure. Oh and she changed her parting too. Used to be on the right along with Ai and Eri while Sayu and Reina had it on the left. I always wondered which side looked better on which girl and I still can't really decide.

There is this short hair craze going around. Ikuta and now Mano too. Makes me go 0.O

DX is perhaps one of my more liked recent concerts. A lot of new songs are sang and a couple of oldies. I think having the 5 senior members in the spotlight more makes it better. But I still wish it was Eri in it instead of Aika or even Reina. 5 people just somehow looks right on the stage. Pity it will never be.

Only You Solo PVs

2011-08-25T15:36:00.004+08:00

Before I start on the post proper, just lemme say this. I SAW THOSE BUNNY EAR AIPHONE 4 COVERS THAT RISA AND HER IMOUTO (or was it imotou?) OWNS! I wouldn't bought it but I had to keep reminding myself I don't have an Aiphone 4 =( Fortunately I managed to prevent myself from buying something I couldn't use at all. BUT I still ended up buying something. As if I have any use for a Stitch Aiphone lanyard thingy. GAH! *slaps self*

Finally started to watch the solo PVs of Only You. And I have to say...although Gaki-san was so darn cute in the original PV, those who aren't diehard fans should really not watch her solo angle ^^; It's not that it wasn't good, but she just wasn't as stunning? I wonder why =(

Ai's was as expected, good. This woman just oozes attitude and smexiness =P I loved her little head flick right at the end of the video. And although her hair colour screams hay, it strangely doesn't look hay-like. It was actually kinda nice though somewhat poofy. I know some fans aren't exactly taken by leader's short blond look. But hey, she'll be the best looking JE member on the block no? Hee.

Unfortunately I hadn't gotten around to watching Sayu's. And I didn't even manage to download Reina's to the end. Talk about being annoyed. Then I had to discover stuff that I wanted wasnt there but other stuff I didn't want was. Man was I irritated. Good thing you actually replied when I sent you a message. I was surprised cuz I didn't expect you to. I'll "Ren" two more days like you said. You gotta message me then okay? Or I'll just die!!! Lol, I'm being dramatic xD

Someone told me to go YouTube to watch videos and I did. But I always ended up searching for mm related vids ^^; I'm too much of a Momusu lover to pay attention to anything else. And another someone asked me to go watch XXXX concert but noooo. My heart remains with MM. I might attend XXXX's (coincidentally it's a four letter name too) though that's only a MIGHT. And I don't even know if this four letter name group will visit this country.

I'm quite satisfied with today though last night was an absolute horror. Good thing that's over now. I hope it doesn't return. Yep, please don't =(

So I was watching MM solo angles and some old clips and I can't help but think of Eri. Gah! I miss the turtle. I wanna know what sort of hair she would have in Only You. Or if she has experimented on a new shade of brown. What fashion style is she into recently. And if she has stumbled upon a new craze. *sobs* Kame! Come back?

To think I named this blog Mame and Friends yet I think the majority of my posts involve Eri ^^; It's okay though huh? Cuz KAMEMAMEHA wouldnt mind this.

Tomorrow and Sat will be long days again. Tuesday come on! And MM DX con DVD come on too =D

An Idol's Influence

2011-08-19T13:03:00.019+08:00

Hands up all of you who have seen an accessory or clothing that your idol have worn and wanted to own it as well. I know I've thought that numerous times. And because my idols are living in Japan, it gets even more exciting when I stumble upon the exact same item they have used either in their photo books, blogs, live performances, pv, tv shows and the like. If it were their own choice to purchase those objects, the feeling of owning the same design piece as them makes me incredibly happy. I know, I know, I'm just insane.

Case in point, after seeing Sayu wear those neon rubber wristbands in a pic on her blog, I immediately bought them when I saw them being sold at a store. They come in various design themes of band, dinosaurs, cowboy, etc and even kitty-chan! Later, Ai also wore them during one of the recent H!P concerts. And boy was I gleeful to discover that. Pity Gaki-san didn't wear them as well. KameShige wore gold plated necklaces with their names for some time. I can't recall if Risa had a similar one. Anyhoo, I made a silver one with the turtles's name ^^; It doesn't look as nice though. Probably without such a beautiful wearer, anything won't look as pretty.

I went "I know where to get that!" When I saw Ai-chan wearing Q-pot's Peace Chocolate "Pray for Japan" band. I'm still wondering if I should have gotten it then. And I've also come across something similar to that blue beads bracelet that she is so fond of wearing. What about her Marc by Marc Jacobs "Lips" Iphone 3 cover?

Recently her sis bought herself and Risa matching iphone 4 covers. Those are so darn cute with bunny ears and that tail XD Pity mine is 3GS and not iphone 4 =(

Leader fans are lucky cuz she puts up all the brands of her regular 'my coordinate' series. That makes it easier for fans to buy the stuff she has. Pity that many of those brands aren't available where I live.

Apparently AiGaki got somewhat matching purses with a letter printed on the outside of the material. By right Risa should get R and Ai A. But the ultra adorable Ai-chan felt that the letter A wasn't cute/nice and decided on G instead. Isn't that just so cute?!?!? It's kinda suspicious why she didn't choose any other letter and got G. Hmmmm, maybe she wanted her purse to remind her of Gaki-san =D

I'm pretty sure that are other items that I have come across or own that are same as the MM girls but I can't remember what they are ^^; Oh yes! I can't decide which pair of Converse sneakers to buy. Sayu has a light cream, light blue and red ones. Eri has white. Ai has gray? I think. Hmmm what does Risa have? XD Time to flip through all the photo books to make my decision, lol.

Ai-chan went to London!!! I think besides Eri who has been to Canada and Ai's recent trip to visit 2 very lucky H!P fans, oh yes, and her LA photo book shoot, I don't think the rest of the MM members got to travel solo to a more "exotic" country so to speak. Guam, Hawaii, France, Shanghai, Korea, Taiwan aren't counted as most of the girls got to go as well. I wonder when they will come here. We have okay beaches too? And some weird tourist locations XD

A Bean's Infatuation

2011-08-13T18:03:00.004+08:00

When I first saw Risa dressed in that dog (?) suit I thought it was for some MM event. It's only today that I realized she did it for Nacchi. It's almost crazy, but it also shows how much she loves her senpai. I never understood how or why she is so enamored by this particular senior. Was Abe her idol right from the start? And that infatuation had lasted all through her days in MM with her and even up to now? Had Nacchi been that kind and nice to Gaki which caused her love for the older woman to span over ten years? To tell the truth, I had ever suspected that the bean's open show of affection for the once face of MM was just a way of gaining more fans. But today, I'm convinced that it's possible to like a person this much. And it's also possible to keep giving and not expect anything in return. I'm sorry for not trusting your feelings Risa-chan. I have been a bad fan.

Her hair looks so Korean now. The color and the style both looks like something a Korean celebrity will have. But I prefer it on Risa. Maybe I'm biased but I really think so. Why did you have to go to Disney Sea? It's almost as if her blog entries are mocking me. Is that your regular nail artist? You must be on really good terms to go to the themepark with her. Somehow, I'm envious of such a relationship. At first I thought Risa draped a towel over herself and wondered why was she so crazy inside Disney Sea. Could she really be so nuts about the place? Then I realized that blue garment was really a jacket. Silly and blind me.

That picture of her with her sister. It looks a lot like Mr and Mrs Niigaki doesn't it. If only it was. That would have been sweet.

After seeing Maimi's latest solo DVD cover, I'm surprised her hairstyle is still a short one. I thought most Japanese girls preferred long hair. And so did their fans. Why did the C-ut(i)e leader decide to go against the norm? Was she influenced by Ai-chan? Who also looks incredible with a short length. And I don't remember Maimi ever dying her hair brown. If so, she, Airi and Sayumi are one of the few left who stuck with black hair. The look good like this. But I can't help but wonder if they would be even more stunning with dyed/highlighted locks.

Happy Birthday...

2011-08-09T20:12:00.009+08:00

To my country...

She might not be perfect, but she's still wonderful in so many ways.
Thank you for being my home.

After being patriotic, it's time to talk about MM. First up is Ai-chan's hair. She dyed it red I think. And permed it as well. Strangely it looks pretty good. I guess anything will look good on this girl. With those oversized plastic frames on her face, she looks like a Kpop boyband member. If I were to like any of those guys, it will only happen if leader was a real boy in one of those groups.

Recently Gaki has a liking for putting up blog pics with the 4 section effect. Does it look familiar? That's because Ai uses that effect a lot. I'm positive the bean "imitated" her wifey in that aspect. I'm totally agreeable since they look way better than the blue ghostly effect shots Risa used to post. What can I say, it's obvious Mrs Niigaki is the more artistic of the pair.

Speaking of the wife, I'm highly anticipating her Guam photobook. The previous few entries shows her in an awesome looking dress and that headband thingy which makes her look beautiful. Lucky manager-san for being able to be so near her and to have the privilege of taking her private and candid photos. I want to be a MM manager too! I'll be glad to slave away for AiGakiSayu. Eri too if she were still in the group.

Only You/Maji Desu Ka?!

2011-08-07T09:00:00.014+08:00

I realized I have not written anything about MM's 46th single when I like it a lot. I should have gone to find what the lyrics mean yet I hadn't. But the title sounds like it should be a love song about liking just that one person? Maybe.

I love the costume and the shoes. Open toe boots look awesome on them since they have such pretty nails. And the 5 older members got dresses while the 9th gen got shorts. The skirts look way better. Very feminine. Gaki was smoking hot IMO. The way she braided a bit of her hair is so adorable. And as usual those lips make me wanna... =P Why couldnt she have this hair for her Mahalo pb? Funnily I find that Sayu's hair started to grow on me after watching the pv n times when I didn't like how it looked at first. And her dancing seemed good! Did she improve or did the editor do a good job of cutting out her better moments? Ai was darn cool. Her smile at the end of the vid stunned me and gave me goosebumps. I can't quite explain what that smile meant but it was too great. I didn't notice that the background color switched between red and white. Guess I was staring at the girls too much.

Can't remember if I ever blogged about 45th so I shall just talk a bit about it here. The outfits remind me of NCK and Gaki-san's looks the most normal to wear out. Pity that her hair for the pv was that chicken style one and not those she had for lives cuz they were so much prettier. The song was meh to me in the beginning. But since I knew that for Tsunku creations, it will never be a fall in love at first listen thing, I gave it more chances. And sure enough, the song grew. Of course the pv helped a lot since the girls were funny and cute. Most memorable moments have got to be Ai's jump across the screen, Sayu's cleavage and Gaki's dumbo wide beams.

2011-07-31T00:08:00.003+08:00

After seeing the list of releases set for Ai-chan's graduation, I realized that there isn't a 5th gen photobook. I'm hoping that the news isn't out yet but someone reminded me that 6th gen consists of 3 while Gokkies are 4. Does this mean no AiGaki photobook? Sobs I really wanted to see a whole publication dedicated to them. It would be my last photobook.

The last MM concert is out on DVD. I have yet to order it. But now I'm not sure if I want to see it. Will I be disappointed with this line up and the way they perform? Singing technique, dancing skills and emoting expression all need a lot of polishing up. And there's no Eri =( What's more, I will be reminded that the next MM concert will be Leader's last. Every time I think about not going to Japan and all those related stuff I can't help getting upset. Really a big dumbo ne. Someone asked me why Im not going with them and I couldn't reply. How could I say the reasons?

Don't know why I keep getting the image of Ai hawking some sort of breakfast when I see her in the chicken suit. It's incredibly cute but it somehow reminds me of KFC? Why am I not Prince? Life would be so much easier as Ai-chan's pooch. I won't feel or know anything. Worry free.

Saw pictures of Gaki-san on her blog today and I'm shocked by the extent of her skinniness. I love her outfits in those 2 shots but her legs are so thin it's kinda scary. Is she stressed or overworked? Can't be too busy since sadly MM doesn't have that many jobs nor are they that popular =( I hope she takes better care of herself. Don't want her getting any health issues.

2011-07-26T21:33:00.004+08:00

On the way to work i kept thinking about Reina and her passport issue. Since i dont check H!O a lot now im not sure what is her status. But I'm sure she was super angry on that day when she realised someone lost her passport which made her unable to reach Hawaii on the first day. Of all people it had to be the Yankee. Poor staff member who had to endure her wrath. I wonder how she demostrated her unhappiness. Threw things, screamed, scolded or kicked people?

No matter how much weight Gaki loses or how skinny she is, her waist can never be as slim as Ai. Neither can Reina attain such high levels of the perfect figure. It's stranger for Tanakacchi since she is so much thinner.

2011-07-24T21:57:00.007+08:00

Read an article saying Asians shouldn't have blond hair or brown eyebrowns. Don't really agree since some Asians can look good. Leader for one looks awesome. I think Tanakacchi would too.

Recently there seems to be more AG pics on their blogs. I really love the one Risa "blamed" Ai-chan for the rain. No words can describe the sweetness of it. I guess they know that the remaining time is short. I still wish Ai didn't have to graduate. MM wouldn't be the same without her. And no matter what antis might say, she will always be the best mm leader to me.

2011-07-15T22:51:00.004+08:00

久住小春19岁生日快乐。
变成大女孩了。

H!O Problem

2011-07-15T05:55:00.005+08:00

H!O forum definitely has a problem these days. Besides the fact that it's mostly xxx stuff, it's also always down. Agh! I need my mm info, news and fandom!

Where did all the loyal and passionate mm fans go?! =(

They are the second pair that I know who got together cuz of mm. And they are even more drastic than the first. A country move too?? @@
Boy what did I miss? Where have I been?

Did Ai-chan dye her hair again? She must go to a really good hair treatment place. How is it that her hair never appears frizzy after going through so many hair cycles?

Gaki-san seems even skinner than usual. What happened? I wonder if she will gain some weight this winter. Maybe she's too upset about Ai's impending graduation to eat =(...

2011-07-13T21:42:00.007+08:00

阿垣好久没增肥了。

到底是谁告诉她肥肥的样子没她苗条时可爱、性感？

应该是某个小爱吧。

祝你生日快了！

沙油最可爱、最性感了。

22岁的雪白美少女。

Fan Stories

2011-07-11T03:30:00.004+08:00

I like reading about fans meeting their idols or obtaining some form of their personal belongings. But some things should be kept a secret. I wonder why no staff were around to prevent that from happening and why didn't other fans say anything.

I'm sure the two of them will hear of this as there are Japanese fans who frequent the board as well. I hope they don't find overseas fans scary or creepy, the girls included.

Still, I must congratulate them for managing to pull it off. I wouldn't have thought if it. Nor would I have the guts to do it.

二

2011-07-08T05:38:00.010+08:00

其实自己也不明白为何会喜欢上小爱。虽然她非常的完美。只少在我眼里是这样。

「新垣，这份报告很赶。今天内一定要准备好。」

「是。」

老板的一句话又把我想准时下班的打算扰乱了。为何要我来收拾其他人惹得货？难道我就那么好欺负。明明是一肚子的不满却还是乖乖的答应了。

8：30pm

足足比我应该收工的时间迟了3个钟头。看样子今晚一定不够睡。

将报告放好在老板的桌子上后就开始收拾包包。希望巴士和地铁能早些到。不知为何开始有一些不舒服。头晕晕的，肚子也一阵阵地刺痛。

走出办公室才法现原来老天爷在落泪。真是不走运。雨伞借给了个同事又忘记跟她拿会。没办法，就先淋雨吧。

「真狼狈，阿垣变成落汤鸡了。」

在等巴士时传了个短讯给小龟。雨一直没停，巴士也很久没到。突然觉得很孤单。除了小龟之外，我也没几个朋友。就算想跟她聊天也困难。因为毕竟她还在读书。不能期望她会很快的回付我的短讯。

不知到小爱现在在做什么，肯定不是在想我。冷笑了一下，然后对着远方发呆。不知不觉得回想起我们四个人刚认识的起情景。

小爱和小龟是在网上论坛认识的。而我会跟小爱有接触是因为小龟的缘故。就因为一次我和小龟出去吃晚餐的时候，她叫上了高桥爱。

本来我的人生是多么的的平凡。但当我介绍了以为是好友的田中丽奈给她们以后，一切都改变了。我的人生，再也回不到重前那样。

一

2011-07-05T05:57:00.005+08:00

熟悉的铃声把我的思悬转移到现实和正在发光的手机上。

本来一直没精神的对着天花板发呆，现在却充满精力的拿起手机，

「会不会是她？」

「阿垣今天好吗？小龟喝了一大瓶可乐哦 (^o^)」

虽然传短讯的人不是我思念的那个她，心情也很差。不过不知为何一看到这个人的短讯就会露出傻傻的笑容。

「你怎么又喝那么多？也不明白你为何那么爱喝可乐。」

龟井绘里。少根粳。但当我许要她正经时她也能变得非常严肃和可靠。就这样我们一遍聊着天，我就一遍把闷在心里不舒服的心情告诉了她。

「虽然很不容易。不过你一定要切段你们之间的所有联系。」

其实就算小龟不说，我也明白这是最好忘了她的方式。只不过说比做难好几百倍。

已经喜欢那个她一年多了。不是说忘就能忘的。也不知道自己是怎么对她产生好感。能肯定的是，我以爱上了这个人。因为我无时无可都在想着她。

这个她，就叫高桥爱。

序

2011-07-02T03:17:00.011+08:00

当你没有利用价值就不管你死活。

好虚伪、好现实。

以为开始脱离，却仍然那么痛。

好想消失。反正也没区别。

只能怪自己傻。肯本不该相信、渴望。

终究只有早安最可靠，最值得珍惜。

好想念你，小龟。怀念你带给我的欢乐。

突然想到一句话。。。原来最瞎的不是我。

祝她们幸福。

Ai Spills the Mames?

2011-04-03T12:06:00.025+08:00

0:01 min - Awwww KameMame up to their antics again :D Teehee, the bean and turtle ninjas are here!

0:18 min - Hmmm, Aika and Nakki actually look kinda cute together. Could this be a possible budding relationship? :P

0:35 min - These 2 look too much like a couple. Whispering sweet nothings into each other's ears XD Reina's smile at Jun Jun was really cute. I think anyone who had such a smile directed to them would melt instantly.

1:12 min - AHHHHHHHHHHHH AiGAKI KAWAII!!! Patting the bean's head to get her to look into the camera was adorable.

Lol at Ai fumbling over her words again XD OMG when leader rested her head on Mame's I died. In the exploded from joy way.

Risa's expressions throughout this portion I love. She was too cute. Really cute. Did I mention that she was adorable? :D

That smack at the back of the head was loud! XD And Gaki looked really surprised. Like "What the heck? That was way to hard!" XDDD Is Ai gonna make it up to her later that night in one of their rooms? :P

2:50 min - Woah that's A LOT OF HAIR XD And Ai's 'excuse me' was filled with attitude lol. Nice jacket, nice bag and oooooo short shorts XD

3:57 min - "Aichan come here." That's totally like the S character that... she never is. XDDD

Seemed like leader didn't know what the bean was getting that at first until she asked "You're not down right?" then Ai immediately got it. See, they ARE close and can read each other's minds.

"How do you feel?" Just a single sentence but it holds so much more. I especially like the part where the 2 said nothing and just exchanged looks (the expressions they had on were awwww).

Nothing more needs to be said. I think at that moment, Risa understood that Ai would be okay. She just need a bit of time to get over it. Nice that she lightened the mood by asking about the toothbrush she was holding. But the stupid editing people had to go and cut the scene. *annoyed*

PS: Ai's t-shirt was darn cute! And happy birthday to Mizuhara Kana, LOL.

Another Side of Sayumi

2011-04-03T11:44:00.011+08:00

Although the bunny portrays a certain character on TV, there are also times when she reveals a side to her that is very different from what you normally see. For example, she once said something like this, "We aren’t alone, I think. we’re all tied together; and the tears happening now, I believe they are connected to the smiles of the future." Food for thought huh?

In the clip below taken from her new DVD Homey, she talks about her wish for MM. Someone translated it on the forum so credits to the person who so kindly wrote it out.

Sayu's dream is for people, that don't know about Morning Musume, to discover Morning Musume. People in Japan and overseas too. First off, she wants lots of people in Japan to know momusu...like really know them and not just by their established name. She feels that Morning Musume is not only good at singing but also cool. Sayu feels that Morning Musume is truly awesome and it would be a waste for only her to know that...(a side from the current fans of course). She wants a lot of people to learn the good parts of current momusu and not just the old Morning Musume.

This is also my wish for MM. The girls might not be the best there is, but I truly think they are good enough to deserve more popularity, sales and fans.

Another trivia about Sayu. Seemed like during the first concert today (day concert) for MM's Spring 2011 tour, there was an announcement about a possible aftershock during her perf which caused it to be interupted. I think she started from the beginning of her song again after it was deemed safe enough to continue.

Hello! Cover ~ Ai-chan

2011-04-01T18:41:00.013+08:00

I always thought that the cover songs released on itunes would never change. But to my pleasant surprise, Ai-chan got to try singing 2 songs which the other girls didn't get to for their cover songs album.

Dearest

This was originally an Ayaya song, quite an old one too. I don't know if I'm being biased but I prefer leader's version? Aya is a very competent singer, there is no doubt about that. But perhaps something abt Ai's voice I like more? And it is possible that after being a MM fan for so long, I can feel the emotions that she puts into her singing and hence it touches me more? Yabaii, I'm rambling again ^^;

Aya's redition with english lyrics. Although it's not the full song, it gave me a good idea of what the song is about. This makes for good fic material :P

Well what do you know, Lin Lin attempted this song during one of the FC tours.

Akai Nikkichou

This song is really old. It was from way back when there were still such a thing as shuffle units and when Maki was still in MM. I always thought the front speaking lines were cool and since I always adored Ai-chan's English, having her sing and say the lines to this was awesome. Granted she wasn't able to articulate some of the words very well, but at least she sounded really cute while trying :D

Some of the words she spoke which stood out to me are as follows:

Hey
Ask You
But
Heart
Thing
Still
I love you
More

Lol! Yeah I know, I'm quite lame to specify them out XD Why can't UFA release actual CDs damn it? Having just the mp3 isn't enough. I want gorgeous album covers and stuff *grumble*

Majidesuka SUKA ~~

2011-03-27T16:26:00.022+08:00

MM's 45th single Maji Desu Ka Suka! released on 23 March 2011 and first song with the new 9th gen members. There are a total of 4 LE and 1 normal edition. There are usually single V DVDs but this time I have not heard news of one yet. Could it be that because the various PVs are already included in the LEs, there won't be a single V? All the LE come with one of the Kyukkies solo interview. I wonder what is this application card that comes with the NE? Is it a photocard? But it sounds like some gaming thing. Hmmmm.

Limited Edition A
Close Up Type 1

Limited Edition B
Dance Shot Type 1

Limited Edition C
Close Up Type 2

Limited Edition D
Dance Shot Type 2

Normal Edition
Application Card

I like the covers in this order. D, A, C, NE then B. I can't wait to see all the different PVs. The song is catchy and makes me grin while watching. Some of the antics the girls get up to are pretty funny. For example Ai and Sayumi :D Gaki looks good too so I'm happy about this. But why is she singing in such a low voice? Her usual voice is already not high.

PV from Bijo Gaku

Melodix Talk and Perf on 26 March 2011

Why was Sayu's ears so red when she spoke?

Risa's outfit looked the most suitable to be worn out. I love her hair but why does she seem so thin? Yabaii is she on a diet or is something wrong? *in worry mode*

Ai looks good in red. Pity they decided to give the color to Riho.

Aika's hair is hmmmm :P

I only stared at Ai, Risa and Sayu. Strange that I kept noticing the bunny's cleavage ^^; After watching the rest, I think it's because her tube top isn't tight fitting unlike the others. I wonder why. Oh and for some reason she appears more cool and unfazed when dancing/performing now. Shabodama was the 19th single so she took 26 singles to achieve this :P

Happy Music on 2 April 2011 (I think it was aired on the 2nd, I can't remember)

Gaki is just wow. Her hair is great and she looks great. She is totally worthy of someone taking her picture to the plastic surgeon and asking to become her :P But it's strange because Risa doesn't seem to be overdoing her moves? Did she tone down or is something wrong? As much as I prefer her to not overexert and make me laugh while watching her ^^; I don't want her to be feeling ill or anything. *worries more* Why was the sound so bad when she was singing her line? Blah, bad sound system XDD

Ai is definitely in top form. Look at that smile, that face, her hair! XD Yep, her current hairstyle certainly gets better as I see it more. I wonder when she will perform with her new funky pinkish-orangy dyed ends hair.

Like the other perf, Sayu's jacket still wants to run away from her XD I think the bunny was more eyecatching in the Melodix perf for some reason.

Zukki is a dork XDDD I think I can say I'm okay with her and that Eripon girl now. But I'm still if-fy about the other 2.

AiGaki KameShige OPV

2011-03-26T09:48:00.002+08:00

Yay, more OPVs of my shipped pairings. Pity there still isn't a AiGaki La La La Love Song OPV :(

I'll Never Go

Only Reminds Me of You

Thank You for the Memories ~ Part 1

2011-03-14T16:24:00.043+08:00

These pages of heartfelt words allowed me to understand more of this incredible individual named Kamei Eri.

Eririn えりりん showed me many sides of the turtle I never knew existed and let me know more about her childhood and the things she had faced. Her many insecurities and how difficult it was to get to where she was later. I have new found admiration for Kame, and I still think she is someone worth loving. No matter as a fan, or as a friend.

I apologize in advance if there are mistakes in the translations.

Kamei Eri's History ~ Part 1

The memory of holding a cup, standing on a DIY stage and singing along to kiddy programs is vivid in my mind. Along with the posters on the wall. This is strange as I'm supposed to have a bad memory. Maybe it's because I have watched videos of my childhood. So did I remember everything? Or it is due to watching the videos? I can't recall at all. I'm really a person with bad memory *laughs*.

Singing and dancing is something I've liked a lot since I was a child. I've learnt the piano, ballet and jazz. It started out as mummy's interest. When she came across a good recital or performance, she would bring me along. Mummy never said no if I wanted to learn something. I took 5 or 6 classes at the same time and in order to complete my primary school commitments, I had classes everyday. I didn't have any free time but I continued them all because I couldn't bear to give up any of the classes. Though when I think back now I still think that those times were really happy and enriching, there were hard times too. Whenever I felt overwhelmed, I would run to grams house nearby and rest. When mummy discovered it she would lecture me *laugh*

In kindergarten, before I stepped into class everyday, I would surely cry and shout "I don't want to go into class" when mama was around. And when she left, I would continue crying while shouting "Mama isn't here." I would cry no matter what and this habit is still with me to this day.

Because I wasn't very good at learning or saying interesting stories, I was once very bad at speaking in front of people.

I was timid, talked softly and never dared to voice opinions. And because I wasn't good at learning, I felt very bad about myself/had low self-esteem. Although I'm not like that now, at that time, how people looked at me was very important. I wanted to become someone with no flaws, that's why my inabilities at learning made me feel small.

But as I wasn't fond of studying subjects like math, social studies, etc, even if I was hardworking, I could never get the results I had hoped for.

In primary school, as I was so shy, I could never speak up. Even when it was my duty and I had to stand in front of the class to say greetings, I couldn't. There are many classmates who can remain cheerful and say funny things to make the class laugh even when they don't know the answer to the question that the teacher asked. but who can. But I couldn't even do that. I'm not humorous nor cool. Whenever I was in class, I was very afraid of being called and would remain silent as I didn't know how to reply. This situation lasted till I was in primary 4.

I had 3 good friends at that time. One of them was from the same kindergarten as me while the other 2 were from the same childcare center. They were all good at studies except me to the point that the teacher would tell my mama during parent-teacher meetings; "How did Eri-chan end up in that group when the rest are all so smart?"

Our group of 4 were pretty well known and were on quite good terms with a group of 4 cute boys. They were all in the scoccer club. Although I was in it too, like learning, I wasn't good at soccer as well.

I had my first crush in primary school. It wasn't one of the boys in that group. I liked him all the way from primary 1 till primary 5. But in primary 6, I suddenly didn't like him anymore. That boy was closer to my sister. They were both the youngest child in the family and seemed to have a lot to talk about. From that time one, the way I looked at him became solely friendship based. I gave me valentine's day chocolates in all those years and he was the only one I thought as someone I would like.

In kindergarten, there was also a boy I was fond of. But he kept going to play with other girls. It made me feel jealous to see that.

In kidergarten, I liked handsome boys. In primary school, it was tall guys. Now it's interesting boys, who are cheerful, humorous and can play with me. But the most important is the inside/character.

The 3 girls from primary I still keep in contact with them now. About 2 years ago there was a class reunion but I couldn't make it. A few of those who are close to me specially had a get-together so I could go. The feeling is very comfortable when I meet them. We can talk about anything. Friends from when I was young are really good. Everyone has gone on different paths, some became OL, one of the guys from the 4 boys became a soccer coach. Became I joined MM from when I was 13 years old, when I see my friends who work hard towards their dream job, I felt they were admirable. If it were me, I would surely be unable to do it.

Recently I've been meeting up with secondary school friends. I realized that everyone is in different worlds and have to consider different things.

The first time I saw MM was during LOVE MACHINE. From that time on, I would notice the member's fashion, hair color and make up and think to myself I would try that style too one day. I admired Yaguchi-san the most in that period and would definitely sing MM songs when I went to the KTV. Pretty soon, I became a fan.

I never thought of auditioning for MM though I had considered becoming a talent. I never took singing classes but I went to the KTV a lot and sang at home. Even when I was bathing I would sing. And the next day, the boy living nearby would say "You were singing yesterday weren't you?" That made me think of entering auditions. I did sign up for one previously but didn't get it. I kept thinking someone like me would never be picked and this made me depressed.

I watched the 4th gen auditions as an entertainment program. When it came to the 5th gen auditions. I chased the show religiously. What grabbed my attention most were the lessons the participants had. For singing and dancing, I could try my best to do well. But performing was harder as I was painfully shy. While watching, I thought "If it were me..." to have my emotions and behaviour captured on national television, it would no doubt be very embarassing. I still find it unbelievable that I had entered the audition. Maybe it was due to the strong feelings of not wanting to lose and at least try once which made me do it.

And perhaps because the winners of the 5th audtion were close in age to myself. Seeing how they, like Gaki-san who was the same age as me, had already knew what they wanted to do and how they worked hard towards it, made me feel that they were cool and I was envious about this. I think it must have been these strong feelings which made me do it.

When it was down to 5 finalists from all those who auditioned, I was the only one who didn't talk much. Reina and Sayumi used to say I was the weirdest. I was the only one from Tokyo hence evenyone's dialets was new to me. Reina and Sayu had awesome personalities. I couldn't compare. Because they were so vibrant, I felt it was difficult to express myself.

When it was said that I was very common/normal, it made me sad. I didn't know how to discover my personality nor did I know how to portray my character. Even in the single "Joshi Kashimashi Monogatari" the lyrics related to me spoke about what exactly was I trying to portray. Tsunku was probably thinking why I have yet to have a character fixed. I knew I couldn't continue like this yet I didn't know how I could change it. In the end, I just left it as it is - this is how I am. This is how my character is.

It was nerve-wrecking to work with Nakazawa-san. When she asked "Eric, what will you do the next time?" I would really think about how I was going to do it. HaroMorni was the place that nurtured me. The me who was shy and afraid, changed because of the concerts and my senpais.

I really think entering MM changed me. Iida-san told me when greeting people I should at least say my name loudly. If people didn't hear me, it was the same as not greeting them. Having a soft voice is not an excuse.

Once, I was lectured about speaking too softly right before a concert. Because I was embarrassed, and sad that I knew what my problem was but I still could not do anything about it, I hid in the washroom to cry. But the various portions in the concerts allowed me to build up my courage and confidence and I learnt how to portray myself.

Am I no longer the timid and shy me of the past? Sometimes I think that part of me still exists. But I am still changing little by little. Will this lead up to the me of the future? Or will I remain as I am now. This is something I sometimes think about.

THANKS from Kame

2011-03-13T10:24:00.011+08:00

I never liked saying goodbyes. Especially if it to the MM members I adore. Does that sound mushy? XD

Released on 10 December 2010, THANKS is the turtle's graduation memory photobook. It's also her 10th solo pb as well as the pictorial which houses the final official photos of her career as a Morning Musume member and Hello! Project girl.

I didn't really want to blog about THANKS as somehow it would become official that Kame is indeed gone. But after I obtained the scans, I was both shocked and happy to realize that the writings inside were in a language I could understand. I think the nice people who scanned it must have taken great pains to do the translation. These pages of heartfelt words allowed me to understand more of this incredible individual named Kamei Eri. I'll probably post about those pages in another entry.

For now, I'll focus on the pictures that I really like :)

Front Cover

#10

Her expression in the top portion is a little off XD But I do like the 2 pictures below. It's rare to see the girls in the recording studio. And I like how Kame looks with headphones :)

I'm cheating here by including 3 pics instead of 1. But since they are similarly themed (Read: bikini shots :P) and I really can't just pick 1, I've grouped them all under #9. Doesn't Eri have the best body? ^^; Plus I really like her hair. Both the color and style.

Another groups of photos ^^; Isn't her writing cute? I also love how the candid shots are laid out in time order so you can follow her day as how she went about it.

The first page remind me of a taiwanese music video, so clean and white. The real little turtle makes me smile as it's so symbolic of our turtle :D Imagine staying home and being accompanied by her like this. I think the second page speaks for itself doesn't it? Every section on it showcases Eri in a gorgeous, sunny and healthy manner. Gawd, I love this girl.

The dress is beautiful. So is the young woman wearing it. The flowers is a nice touch. Such an 'arty' shot.

The way she looks up is like a small puppy. Makes me wanna hug her so bad. She even makes the stairs look good XD And those legs are just so...... :P

Kawaii~~ Why does she looks so darn adorable even though she's hiding her face?

Hershey milk chocolate I like. But the Kame lying there I like even better. Again with the legs...and thighs~!! Ahhhh I'm really dying here.

Nice bikini. No I mean it, it's nice. Although having Eri wearing it makes it so much better ^^; I think if a bikini shop used her as their model their swim wear would sell like hotcakes. How does she manage to make such hawt expressions? It looks so effortless but man, the effect is thremendous.

This face shot is wow. Her eyes, her lips, her nose, her brows and even her chin. Every feature on her face is flawless. Kame is truly perfect to me.

Earthquake Situation in Japan 110311

2011-03-12T17:45:00.015+08:00

The first time I heard about the earthquake that tookplace in Japan was via text message. I wasn't too surprised since it's pretty often that earthquakes hit the country. That night, when I watched the news, I still wasn't very worried since the devastation footage didn't look too bad. And since I was confident that one of the world's most advanced countries would have prepared itself for when disaster strikes.

But now after the initial earthquake, I'm feeling more and more disillusioned with the unfolding events. The earthquake itself was bad enough. With the tsunami, things were made worse. And now Fukushima nuclear plants have run into trouble with problems with the cooling mechanism and keeping radiation levels at a safe level. I'm beginning to think that things will only continue to spiral out of control. Sure, for now the girls in MM, Berryz, C-ute, Mano Erina, etc and the rest of the Japanese population are safe, but for how long?

I don't want Japan, or any part of the world to be faced with a crisis of such a magnitude. And I'm made more anxious with the various conflicting reports which can't seem to come to a consensus on the number of killed and injured or how many times the radiation levels have risen in Fukushima and the surrounding areas.

But the one thing that irks me the most is inconsiderate individuals gloating about the disaster. On all accounts, this is a tragedy. And despite what has happened in the past, it should not be carried over to the current generation. Everyone should do their part be it in terms of praying for the victims or helping out in monetary forms or through actions.

Please don't continue saying that this horrible event happening to Japan is retribution for events which have taken place in the past. People should look to the future. And now, the most pressing issue is stopping the spread of radiation and saving people.

AiGaki Best OPV & Pics

2011-03-09T10:53:00.012+08:00

I didn't make this awesome OPV. It was MessyCookie's work and I thought it was beautiful. So beautiful that more AiGaki fans should see and appreciate it. This vid never fails to touch me and make me tear. The song, feelings that have put into singing it, the lyrics and the visuals. Everything came together to make the most enchanting OPV I have seen in a long while.

Couple with the best AiGaki pics in recent times, this post is all about MM's best couple.

Too many crappy things have been happening in the world and in life. And since I dread tomorrow as well, I need loads of Ai-chan and Gaki-san to cheer me up. Aren't these pictures just so great?

Ai is definitely gorgeous. I can't find a single flaw on her perfect face. Pity Risa's page wasn't uploaded too. It would be nice to print these out on photo quality paper.

Awww, intwined hands. So sweet :) The bean is just as pretty as the monkey for once :P

I like how they both supported their faces with their hands. Does this proof that a couple in love does the same actions? :D

I wanna hug the photographer for getting these two to lie back to back and take this shot. I LOVE IT! It would make a great drama or movie poster. Gosh, I would do anything to get Mr and Mrs Niigaki in a good show together. Both their smiles are so beautiful. I could stare at these pics all day and night and day and nite :)

And tee hee hee at the tiny pics of them playing a fool :D Don't they look so happy and blissful? So adorable, so cute, so AiGaki *wink*

MM 45th Single: Maji Desuka Suka! 《まじですかスカ！》

2011-03-09T10:34:00.006+08:00

Hmmmm so I knew I didn't recognize this song while watching the rehearsal of 9 gen and their senpais. Then later I realized that it was the new single! Talk about being slow ^^;

Judging from what little I could see from the clip, all 4 seem to be quite okay dancers. In fact they beat their seniors when they first started. The only one who appeared not as fluid in her movements was.

The highlight of the video was when Ai and Sayu came!!! It's telling from the paper bags they were carrying that they went shopping before coming XD They must have had a radioshow recording then went for lunch and a bit of a buying spree :D

Awww, I miss Eri and her dancing :( On the bright side, Gaki looked pretty good. Outfit and all :) I loved how she tied her hair and how cool she looked.

Aika reminded me of Yossui for some reason. And she looked taller. Or are the 9 gens just short? XD

I quite like the way they split the screen into 4 boxes for the PV. As for the costumes, they remind me of NCK. And for some reason my eyes zoomed into Ai's legs immediately and my mind screamed FISHNET STOCKINGS!!! Lol.

I know another pair of legs which flashed past had them on too but my mind couldn't register who that girl was :P Only after countless repeats of the very short CM did I realize there were at least 2 others in those, Sayu and one of the new girls. I'm pleased with Gaki's hair but not the color of her jacket. They better not make this a permanent thing -_-;

Supaaaaa Sayu??

2011-03-09T09:42:00.003+08:00

First post of March 2011. And the honour goes to...*drumroll please* Sayumin!!!! *thunderous applause* XD

She totally deserves it no? I mean, look at her! She's pulling an entire mini bus by herself! Though it's called a mini bus, that thing is by no means mini XD And this is coming from the girl who has zero athlectic talent XDDD

I hope she didn't suffer from sore muscles that night. If she did she must be thinking why is herself and the sole 8 gen member the only ones in MM who can give a decent massage. I'm sure she would prefer Eri to massage her as compared to Aika :P Yeah...ma...ssage....(Are you thinking what I'm thinking B1? Yeah, I think I am B2) LOL. I'm being lame again ^^;

The bunny definitely looks shocked at her success. Hell, I'm shocked too. Frankly I wondered if someone was inside the vehicle and driving it slowly :P But nah, I think once she got the momentum going, getting the wheels turning wasn't impossible. And I think she didn't even break a sweat? XD Atta girl, at this rate you're be an Olympic star in no time XD

Daily ChioBu: C-utie Leader

2011-02-12T20:36:00.013+08:00

I'm so sad when I see the number of posts I have for Feb. It's so lowwwwwwwwwwwww!!! XD Damn me for not blogging more. Feb 2011 will always be a blemish in the history of my blog. LOL! I'm being nuts at the moment so I'm talking rubbish. It's all thanks to being XXX and XXX that I couldn't update more often. But hopefully that will change. Cuz I got a plan....kekeke :D

So onto the actual topic of this post. Daily ChioBu: C-ute version. I had originally wanted to see if Berryz Koubou or C-ute had any members who made it up this blog but I totally forgot about it until this came up in a conversation I had with someone some time back. So ta---daaaaaaa~! Here is Maimi in all her glory :)

I can't remember if I have the scans of her 17 pb. But I do know I have her 1st photobook on my shelf. It's still brand new and sealed by the way. So if anyone wants to take it off my hands I'll let it go at a good price :P I still like C-ute and Maimi of course, but the other groups can't seem to hold my attention and love as much as MM does ^^;

So, back to Maimi. I always thought that she could look non Japanese? And her appearance is rather versatile. Cuz I can totally envision her as a lady in the olden/ancient period or a modern woman. That said, this girl needs a drama period! And I don't mean that vampire chaser/killer one or the recent show where she was dressed in a cheongsam for the DVD cover.

BUT!! That torture scene is gonna get some people...*trails off* LOL! And what is it with putting Maimi in roles which are sadistic? Does she give off the S vibe? XDDDD

I mean a real, good plot *ahemcoughidoldramacough* series (with another girl, prefably Airi) acting the lead, LOL!! Can you tell I want a XXX movie featuring the H!P girls really badly? XD See, the below movie would have been tons better if the other lead character was played by a H!P girl. *nods head* I'm actually pretty exicted to watch this one. I wanna know if Airi can act :P And the show actually looks pretty interesting. Unless I'm just being a sucker for such plots :P Pity this is a straight to DVD release. I would love to go to the cinema to watch it and eavesdrop on what other moviegoers think of Airi and the show. And is it just me or does the other lead girl look like Mano Erina from some angles?

A Bean and her Pet

2011-02-06T14:20:00.005+08:00

Kame eating spicy senbei and making the most adorable expressions and actions. LOL at her whacking Gaki on the arm as made continuous itai noises :D

This isn't the only time I've seen Risa rubbing her nose in such an ungirly fashion XD I guess I should want her to stop doing that but then, I kinda find it cute? ^^; What can I say, I love every aspect of the bean.

I don't know why I found the interaction between KameMame similar to an owner and her pet? It's like Risa is the owner getting her pet doggie (or turtle in this case XD) to taste a new treat. The end result is the pet Kame not liking the tidbit and making all sorts of whiny sounds about it XD AWWWWWWWWWWWW the ultra kawaii turtle bean bag pair. *Sobs* I miss seeing them together.

It's a good thing there is a somewhat regular dose of AiGaki recently. I should write a post about these sweet couple soon. Ahhh mac mac, please get well soon. I can't live without you. My MM fandom depends on you a lot so hurry and recover! XD

A nice OPV featuring darling Eri. Although I can't agree with how H!O bans users, I admire the Kame fans who still post in her thread. The turtle might be gone for now, but she'll be back one day. And until then, we (loyal Eririn fans) will be waiting.

Sayumi at Home... (with you?)

2011-02-05T18:42:00.007+08:00

Homey...is there such a word? From the way I decipher it, this DVD is gonna have loads of various scenes of Sayu in a home. Damn that owner of the house. Having Sayumi's scent and dead skin cells (LOL) all over his home and possessions.

This time they gave her darker eye make up. Even her brows appear more charcoal black than before. I have to say that emphasized those mesmerizing eyes very well. And the light pink lipstick. Gosh, they make her lips so very enticing and kissable *heart goes doki doki* ^^;

I didn't really like the socks she had on with the white top and blue skirt outfit (Those look so much better with the right shoes). But this is Sayu. So who cares about the weird socks, she makes most things look good no? :P

My favourite has got to be the ending scenes in which she wore the black dress (It's see through damnit! XDDD). Something about the aura surrounding her made her seem so much more mature. And the way she gazed and sorta smiled into the camera...omg...if my heart was going doki doki before, it has definitely popped by now XD

That last bit where she yanked the white (see through again!) curtains in front of her to like hide herself from you (meaning the camera XDDD) was pure win! It was too smart a move. I bet everyone viewing the clip would have fell over and died from either blood lost, an over beating heart or both ^^;

AHHHHHH SAYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU IS HAWT!!!

As if that's not the most obvious thing in the world (lol). She is okay... XD

FanKora Special Edition

2011-02-04T15:31:00.006+08:00

I finally had time to sit down and watch the special edition of the H!P 2010 Summer FanKora concert DVD. My first impressions after letting the video run was, "My eyes!!! They are going blind!" XD Hee hee the outfits this time were really a mix up of colors and most of them didn't go very well?

Surprisingly the girls still looked good though. See, this is the advantage of being pretty. They will look good no matter what they wear.

For some reason I found that there was a lot of S/mileage and Mano Erina in the video? (Or was I being biased without realizing it XD) I would much rather have more of MM ^^; Despite saying that, I liked almost all of the songs that these 2 acts performed. Very good choices there.

I'll comment on my fave K4 and maybe a few of the other H!P members. I'll see what I can remember about them XD

Ai-chan: This woman is fierce! I loved it when her hair was messy and flying all over the place as she was performing. It was just so darn sexy XD When she had the pink bow on her head, it was a little distracting but nevertheless she was still super duper cute. How can Ai be 24 and still look way younger? @@ She was perhaps one of the few who could maintain her singing throughout the vid. Most of the rest had cracking voices and panting sounds *ahem Mano and Sayumin ahem*, lol.

Gaki-san: Omg, her costume was the worst. The worst! Lol, but at least her hair was nice? And it's a bonus that she wasn't chubby :P Risa was awesome as long as she wasn't in that horrible multi-colored top with leopard/tiger/cheetah prints. When she was performing the ZYX song, I was worried she would run out of air during the part where she had to go "woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh woah woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~" lol. Thankfully she survived XD

Eri: Ahhh Kame, she had this crazy weird but very nice looking top. Either she had the better set of clothes or she made the outfit look better than it was. She does have that ability so I wouldn't be surprised if that was really what happened. I don't know if I've noticed this before but Kame has very little hair and a lot of forehead? XD And when she sweats, her hair ends up sticking to her head which isn't necessarily the most flattering. BUT, she beats any other person with thin hair hands down in any situation :D

Sayumi: She is the luckiest girl in the world cuz she doesn't have to be afraid of putting on weight on her legs. It's as if Sayu would never end up with fat thighs. She isn't exactly tall but whenever I look at the bunny's legs, they seem to go on forever and are so silky white and smooth. Gah... I should banish these thoughts from my mind XD Oh and I don't know why the fact that she has this little bits of fats at the part where the top of her dress ends (above her boobs and beneath her armpits) make her so much more adorable. If I'm weird for this at least I'm not the only one cuz OD agrees with me on this XDDDDD

I said I might talk about the other girls? But I think I won't after all. I realize I can't really remember anything much about the rest XD My mind is always focused on K4 only ^^;

I wanna watch the full perfs of all these songs! UFA should follow WWE and make it a pay per view thing XD Cuz if they adopt this method, there would be some way to enjoy these performances completely.

MM Kimagure Princess

Daily Chio Bu?

2011-02-02T12:13:00.012+08:00

Wow, who would have guessed that members of MM would make it up on this blog? Does this mean that local guys like Risa and Sayu's look? Not surprising since they do look more gorgeous than normal girls.

What shocked me was, why wasn't Ai, Eri and Reina featured? Considering they are the more popular ones in the group.

Ex-MM members who were also featured include Maki and Miki.

Here are the 3 posts with 2 on the bunny and 1 on the bean.

I found it amusing that whoever maintained the blog would come up with such a post every week. Are there that many pretty girls in this world? Hmmmm...maybe. But to me, MM girls are the prettiest. K4 to be precise :P

Reina's "Attracted"

2011-02-02T09:47:00.006+08:00

How long has it been since I wrote a post featuring Reina? :P

I was wondering when she would release her next PB since she did say that she wasn't going to shoot any more of those. The upcoming E-lineup DVDs would include one of the kitty cat's.

The cover is really cute even if I do say so myself. And naming it attracted? I bet they mean the scores of Tanaka Army fans who have been completely enthralled by this young lady. I love her outfit and great job for not putting a bikini pic on the cover.

Frankly after watching the preview, it seems like this entire DVD series would consist of very little talking or doing anything in particular except filming of the featured girl in various outfits. Hmmm...hmmmm....XD I would prefer them to be actually doing something but I guess getting a DVD would be better than none?

Sayumi would be getting one such DVD too. Ai-chan would definitely get one as well. I wonder if Gaki-san would get any. I hope she does and with a nice hairstyle :P

Reina strikes me as a Maki lookalike in some scenes. Is it the hair? Not surprising that lying down scenes would be included XD

A Cartload of MM Goodies

2011-01-23T17:08:00.002+08:00

Oh I don't know. Somehow I find the 9th gen aren't as thrilled about receiving those items as I hoped they would be? If it were me I'll be ecstatic? I mean, some of those CDs are hard to find! And first press releases too. Lucky kids :(

The middle one (she's the Egg right?) and the right most girl are definitely more enthusiastic as compared to Riho though. That girl still rubs me the wrong way. She isn't that cute or pretty appearance wise. She better make up for her annoying haughty air with really good singing and dancing skills.

On the other hand, I must say that she is smart. Declaring she wants the position of leader on her first public appearance. That makes people take notice of her. Even I remember her name when I still can't figure out the faces and names of the rest. That being said, it doesn't mean I like her :P

*Sigh* I miss my K4.

An Open Display of Affection

2011-01-15T14:23:00.004+08:00

Besides the fact that both Ai and Risa look darn gorgeous with that hair and outfit, the best part about this clip is how they were hugging.

Pay special attention to how tight their embrace were. I loved...

a) The way Mame staggered backwards when Ai bulldozed into her XD

b) How Risa patted and rubbed her wife's lower back

c) The smile they exchanged. I can't see Mr Niigaki's expression, but from Ai-chan's, I think it would have been just as adorable

d) Naughty Ai-chan smacking Gaki-san on the cheeks. Twice too XD You have to be close to be able to do that

I wonder what thoughts were running through Sayumi's head when she witnessed this.

a) Chee...Ai-chan already hugged me first

b) Ehhhh?!?! Why didn't Ai-chan hug me?

c) I'm so gonna kill that bean! Yup, boil and cook her into green bean soup

d) I shall kiss Ai-chan like crazy after this. Pay back for not getting to hold her now

Ai Is Graduating??

2011-01-09T16:30:00.020+08:00

I can't believe this? Ai is graduating in autumn of 2011. And it has been confirmed? Cuz the announcement is up on the official site. I had hoped that there wouldn't be any graduations in 2011. But then this had to happen! I've lost Eri. I can't lose Ai!!! What's gonna happen to Risa??? What's gonna happen to MM??? What's gonna happen to me and all Ai fans? Without Ai-chan, I dread to see the sales of the next few singles.

I don't know what is next for Ai. Will she continue to be under Upfront but in another company? Or will she leave Japan to study? SOBSSSSSSSSS!!! I am seriously shattered. For selfish reasons, I hope she continues her entertainment career. I want to still see her? Can the ass****s of the people in charge of managing the girls give her a good solo career?! Don't waste her talents. I'm sure she could shine if given the right opportunities.

A part of me...no wait, make that all of me wants to see Risa, Sayumi and Reina to graduate too. Like now! Just make MM a totally new group. Add those Eggs, 9 gen and what not. I don't want my 56kkies to remain in the group if it's gonna be like this.

According to OD, Tsunku told Ai-chan to decide on the timing of her graduation. And apparently Ai already had plans on graduating since last year. OD thinks she would definitely get a solo career. And we are both baffled as to why the announcement is made so early? What is UFA thinking??

If it wasn't for 9th gen, Ai-chan would have left during Haru concert xD

Omg who's gonna be the subleader!?

Sayu or Reina!?

OMG, THERE WILL BE SO MUCH DRAMA

SAYU AND REINA WILL FIGHT FOR THE POST!

They will kick one another while performing! Trying to kill one another!

...ALL FOR THE POST OF THE SUBLEADER!

*Dramatic music*

And the above was OD's one sided talk XD

Look at the 5 girls in purple! Yeah just them cuz I don't care about the rest? ^^; MM to me will always be the 9 nin line-up with Eri, Koharu and JunLin

I'm a little sidetracked by how gorgeous Risa looks with that hair. Back to the graduation though. Frankly, I'm stunned. I mean I knew there would be a day when she has to leave. But why now? Does this mean Gaki will grad next year? I was so affected by this I told my sis who hates my dear Risa about this piece of news. And she was so happy -_-; I should have just kept my mouth shut.

After I've calmed down, I think this might be good for Ai? Cuz although I hate to admit it, MM isn't a good tag for 56kkies. It's like every time they intro themselves and say they are from MM, people just automatically reject them. They don't want to give the girls a chance no matter how good they could be. Hence, maybe leaving MM would open up more doors for Ai. I long to see the day she becomes accomplished in her chosen field with people banging down her door trying to invite her to act, host, advertise or sing for them. It is possible. I know Ai has it in her.

Plus she can date now. As much as I love my AiGaki, I have to be realistic. Ai will meet a guy, fall in love and marry one day. I want to know which type of guys she likes? I hope he is someone who will cherish her. Oh and I just read that she will focus on plays and lives? That has always been what she wanted. That's good that she can pursue the path she prefers.

*Sigh* I hope I can go to Japan this year. I missed Eri's graduation. I can't miss Ai's too. Oh kamisama, please let me go to Japan and make my sis stuff it about the trip! *prays*

MM in France 2010 DVD

2011-01-09T12:41:00.016+08:00

PAPA NI PANTSSSSS!!!

Lol, that's the line I remember the most from MM's France Hatsujouriku Live DVD.

And I have to admit that Jun Jun looked pretty good in those scenes with Risa and their buys of boxer shorts XD Is it a norm for daughters in Japan to buy underwear for their dads? :D

I should have typed this entry as I was watching but I couldn't bear to tear my eyeballs away hence I'll have to try and remember the thoughts that went through my mind as I grinned and enjoyed myself thoroughly during the video.

The girls went through 4 changes of costumes. I expected more but I guess with 8 members, their luggage, more than a few staff to follow along, camera equipment, and other items that have to be brought, the cost of transporting them should be relatively high. I should be thankful that they got at least 4 sets.

Some things I noticed during the live. All of the girls had humongous eye bags. The poor things. They must be tired out from the flying. Jet lag perhaps? They perspired like mad, and hair was flying everywhere XD

I love how Eri's skin kinda shimmers from the sheen of sweat? :P What?? She was darn sexy okay? XDDDD Sayumi has a pimple :P Aika's hair looked good but any normal person might have come out looking like an 'auntie' if they tried to pull this hairstyle off. Risa's extensions weren't bad. In fact, she looked quite sexy with them. Ai really worked that hair, twirling it and smacking it on one of the girls at one time while dancing :D

I want the poster! I want the Tshirt! But most of all, I want the girls!!! XDDD Sigh....there won't be another time where MM will go to France right? Maybe in another 2 or 4 years I can go to France? But *sigh* it's impossible for the members I wanna see to still be there at that time.

I have never seen this vid before. I love to see stuff that fans make to showcase MM :) I think they are fans? I wonder who added in the Japanese subs.

Last Thing on My Mind

2011-01-05T18:27:00.001+08:00

Last Thing On My Mind

“Happy day! Good boy! Charming girl! Go yeah! 3, 2, 1 Go! Oki Doki Yeah!”

The lights in the recording studio slowly turned brighter and Risa could see the three others in the room more clearly. Saki and Chisato grinned back at her shyly while her youngest teammate and admirer, Aika hurried to pack up her song sheets amidst the ruffling of papers.

“Nigakii-san, can I share a cab home with you?”

Smiling at the younger, Risa nodded her head kindly and reached out to pat her head. She had always known that Aika had a soft spot for her and the girl didn’t make a secret of how much she adored her senpai. From the first day she was officially conferred the title of Morning Musume member, she had told interview cameras how much she wanted to meet Risa. To her, this senpai had the warmest smile, kindest actions and most sensitive soul.

“Sure, there’s no need to rush. Take your time, I’ll wait for you outside.”

The bright smile that lit up on Aika’s face told her that little gesture was enough to make the young girl’s whole week. She watched for a little while as Aika concentrated on putting her papers back in numerical order. Being a hard worker who was constantly neat and structured in all ways, Risa could guess what came next. True enough, whipping out a light pink plastic folder with little hearts on it out of her bag, Aika arranged the papers in a tight stack before carefully slotting them in.

In the hallway outside the room, Risa stuck one hand into her rather large bag and felt around for her cell phone. It was a daily routine, to check the device for messages or missed calls after a session of work. Many of the other members in the extensive Hello! Project family had commented on her love for big bags and often advised her to switch to a smaller one. Be it to lessen the weight that had to be carried around or simply to shorten the time she needed to find things from it. However, Risa liked big bags. They provided her with a sense of security and was handy to dump in everything she needed, or not, quickly. Finally locating the said object, she read the mail that had been received some minutes ago. It was from her manager.

Please proceed to the cultural hall after the recording session. You have to take over Kamei-san for the evening show with Takahashi-san.

“Eh, isn’t that recording Sayumin, Kamei-chan and Ai-chan’s work?”

Pressing the voice call back button, she heard the familiar ringing tone and waited for the other end to pick up. At this moment, the two C-ute members walked past and gave her a goodbye wave. Raising her hand, she returned the action with a smile as the phone line connected.

“Moshi-moshi, manager-san? Why am I taking over the evening cultural show?”

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“Hey, how are you feeling?”

Her eyes slowly fluttered open, and she recognized immediately the face of the shadowy figure crouched down in front of her. Sitting on the same sofa that she was lying on, the body of the other girl was near, so close that she could feel the reassuring warmth that was radiating off her.

“Mmmm, my stomach hurts.”

“Awwww, poor Kamei.”

Leaning down further, she hugged her kouhai gently and pressed her cheek on the turtle girl’s slightly chubby ones in a bid to comfort her. She knew the girl liked to be hugged and babied. Especially now that she was feeling sick, a concerned and supportive presence was better medication than any prescription.

Snuggling closer to her, Eri let out a contented sigh and enjoyed being held in this position. She had always like the feeling of being embraced. But she only derived pleasure from it if the action was presented by a select few.

The comfortable tranquility was broken a few minutes later when the older girl suddenly remembered her upcoming duty. Pushing herself off the sofa, she noticed the closed eyes of the ill teenager and assumed she had fallen asleep. Making her way across the dressing room, she headed for the way out when she abruptly stopped in her tracks. Pulling open one metal door of a row of lockers situated near the exit, she took out a gray jacket and turned back to lay the warm garment over the sleeping figure. Sweeping the bangs away from her face, she murmured in a low voice.

“Have a good rest Kamei-chan. I’ll see you later.”

Unbeknownst to her, the sleeping girl wasn’t in that deep a slumber, and she could feel all that went on from the laying of the coat to her senpai’s warm touch. As she stood up to leave the room once more, the image of her retreating back was deeply implanted into Eri’s hazy mind.

“Gaki-san…”

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There was still a little time before recording for the segment of the cultural event started proper. As staff members and technical crew busied about trying to take care of last minute situations and emergencies, two young ladies sat in mental folding chairs at the side of the hall, awaiting further instructions.

“Ah, it’s been some a while since we had time alone.”

Smiling at her companion sitting beside her, she watched as the older girl flipped through the pages of yet another novel. She appeared to be deep in thought, devouring every word of the thick paperback. So much so that she didn’t seem to have heard the words of her lonely friend.

“Ai-chan?”

She tried again, hoping against hope that maybe for once, her frequently busy fellow gokkie member had time to pay some attention to her.

“What is it Gaki-san?”

“I was just saying that it’s rare for us to have time together, without the rest.”

Nodding absentmindedly, Ai turned a page and continued reading, barely registering what was being said. She only got this novel yesterday and already she could not bear to put it down. She was thankful there was this free interval in between shooting to catch up on it.

“How was recording with Sayumin?”

Risa remembered seeing Sayumi dash into an awaiting cab outside the building when she first arrived at the cultural hall. The pink bon-bons in her long and black, shampoo commercial worthy hair swished wildly after her. To pose such a question was almost as bad as talking about the weather or asking if someone had eaten. Nevertheless, it didn’t matter to Risa if the subject was shallow or of no importance. She just wanted to have a conversation with Ai-chan. She needed to be reassured that their relationship was safe. That they were still best friends despite the recent nagging feeling in the back of her mind that they have grown apart. Sometimes she wondered if she was solely responsible for the current state of affairs? Did her newfound rapport with Eri somehow drive a wedge between their visibly strained relations?

“We have an upcoming free day, why don’t we…”

“Gaki-san.”

Her tone was cold and slightly exasperated. It didn’t take a genius to know that she was getting irritated. Watching the movement of her hands as she always did, Risa saw them clench tighter at the cover of the book, a sure sign that Ai was trying to conceal her mounting dissatisfaction.

“I’m sorry but could we continue this after work? ”

Nodding back with a thin smile, Risa forced herself to turn away and watch the passing workers instead. The intermittent tugging at her heart got stronger and she knew if her gaze lingered on Ai for another second, she would surely burst into tears. That was a definite big no-no in the crowded central portion of the hall. Such an action would no doubt attract stares and gossip. Especially at a time when Morning Musume was facing intense media scrutiny for Fujimoto’s scandal with a comedian and the evident downward spiral of the group’s popularity and sales.

Risa, get a grip. You can’t lose it now. The team can’t take another hit.

With her eyes closed and repeating those words to herself, Risa didn’t even hear the PA yell for her to get into position. Filming has formally started. Glancing around quickly to regain her bearings, her vision caught sight of Ai standing in the middle of the compound. And the gaze she was giving her shot an extremely cold jolt through Risa’s heart.

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“This year, the icebergs in the Artic are melting faster than ever before….”

Focused intently on Ai who was speaking into the camera in a professional manner, Risa marveled at the noticeable change in her within the short period between her appointment from sub to actual leader. From the slightly hesitant and quiet oldest fifth generation member to the self-assured leader of today, Ai’s transformation has been great.

“Wildlife like polar bears are facing extinction and it is up to humans to put a stop…”

Ai’s new hairstyle, the alteration in her tone of voice when she talked in public, and the newfound self-confidence that exuded from her doe-like eyes. Risa wondered where she had been when Ai experienced all these changes. Wasn’t she right there all along, beside Ai and giving her the much-needed boost when she needed it? Or maybe she wasn’t. Perhaps Ai didn’t feel that the remaining member of their cohort had been providing the adequate support. That would explain the chilling look she had received earlier.

Lost in her own thoughts, she almost forgot to follow up on Ai’s section with her own prepared speech. The frantic waving of the PA just managed to capture her attention in time.

“As Ai-chan has said, the poor polar bears really need our help. Aren’t they too cute not too?”

The live program progressed without a hitch and filming was almost due to complete with the director motioning for the last five minutes. By now, a rather large crowd had gathered around to watch the filming proceedings and the noise level got increasingly louder. Making use of her excellent eyesight, Risa scanned the faces of the public standing around in clusters as Ai continued talking about some other species that should be saved in addition to the fluffy white bears. Out of the corner of her eye, Risa became aware of a man dressed in a long white robe and glasses. He was staring intently at Ai and the strange look in his eyes made Risa feel uneasy.

Observing him further, she saw him reach into his coat pocket and pull out a shiny object. What happened next took place like a slow moving black and white film. The man charged towards Ai, banishing the sharp knife maniacally ahead. Instinctively, Risa pushed Ai out of harm’s way. She was going to jump away after her but it was too late. The cold steel sliced into her flesh as the man brutally plunged the weapon into her abdomen.

Screams erupted throughout the venue and people ran frantically in various directions trying to escape the savage and insane criminal. Afraid that he might go on to hurt more people indiscriminately, security personnel hastily ushered members of the public to safety while others chased after the crazed killer.

Crawling over to Risa who was lying several feet away, Ai hands shook when she saw the extent of Risa’s injury. Blood spewed out endlessly and she was growing paler by the second.

“Ga…ki..gaki-san…”

Never in her wildest nightmares did Ai ever think that she would face such a situation. She sat there in a daze, her legs weak as she tried in vain to recover from the shock. The noise died down to a silent drone as Risa’s body started to shut down. She could no longer hear anything and light was fading fast as her eyelids grew heavy. Still, her mind was filled full with thoughts of Ai.

Ai-chan, was she alright?

Struggling to reopen her lead-laden lids and make sure she was safe, Risa reached out weakly to try and find Ai.

“Ai-chan….”

Her voice was feeble, much too soft to be heard over the racket in the hall. But Ai heard her. She was at last convalesced adequately to make sense of what was happening. Stretching out her hand to close the distance between them, the two friends were just about to reach each other when Risa’s hand dropped with a small thud onto the hard floor.

“Gaki-san?”

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Most number of posts in a month and all in a day. Ahhhh this will never happen again.